Best Frienemy

Chapter 12

"A-Ano?!" Napatayo agad ako.

Nanatiling blangko ang muka ni Kuya. Sobrang tahimik ng bahay, sina Tita at Tito ay tahimik rin maging sina Mama at Papa, nakikiramdam lang sa susunod na mangyayari.

"I said you will marry Shin whether you like it or not." Inulit nya nga.

Pakiramdam ko ay nabingi ako. Nayanig ang buo kong pagkatao. Unti unting napunta kay Shin ang tingin ko. He's silent. Lumingon rin sya sakin ng maramdaman ang tingin ko sa kanya.

"A-Alam mo to?" Nahihirapang tanong ko.

When he nodded, I think he hurted me again.

"At hindi ka man lang nagabalang sabihin sakin?!" Hindi makapaniwalang singhal ko sa kanya.

"What for? Sasabihin rin naman nila sayo." Kaswal nyang sabi.

"H-How could you?" Nasasaktang sabi ko.

Tiningnan ko silang lahat. "H-How could you all do this to me?!"

"Cline.. let us explain first." Pagmakakaawa ni Mama.

I feel so betrayed.

"Explain?! Ano pang ipapaliwanag nyo?! Ang pagiging selfish nyo?! O ang pagiging malupit nyo sakin?!" Puno ng sakit na sabi ko.

"Never raise your voice to Mama, Cline!" Galit na sita sakin ni Kuya.

"Shut up! Shut up! Shut up!" I bursted out and held my aching head.

"C-Cline, please calm down." Pagpapakalma sakin ni Papa.

"Kahit anong pagwawala mo, magpapakasal ka pa rin kay Shin." Walang pusong sabi ni Kuya.

"Bakit ba napakasama mo?! Ganyan ka ba talaga kawalang puso?!" I yelled at him.

"This is for your own sake, Cline." Kalmado nyang sabi.

"My sake? Sa paanong paraan ko ikabubuti ang pagpapakasal kay Shin?!" Hinihingal na tanong ko.

"Cline! Calm down please!" Pagmamakaawa ulit ni Mama na pilit akong pinapaupo.

"Why can't you just shut up and obey me?!" Tumayo na rin sya.

"Ha?! Sa tingin mo susundin pa kita?! Hindi na! Hinding hindi na!" Halos lumaki ang mata ko sa galit.

"Huwag kang selfish, Cline!" Sumbat nya sakin.

I scoffed sarcastically. "Me?! Selfish?! Ako pa talaga?! Ako?!"

"Oo! Ano bang mahirap sa pagpapakasal kay Shin ha?!" Dinuro nya ako.

"Ang buong ideyang yun ang napakahirap tanggapin! Kahit pangalan pa nga lang ni Shin ay sobrang hirap pakinggan!" Dinuro ko rin sya.

"Magkaibigan kayo, Cline! Isipin mo na lang na naglalaro pa rin kayo ng bahay bahay gaya ng dati!" He exclaimed.

"E tangina mo pala Clyde e! Bakit hindi ito ang makipaglaro ng bahay bahayan sa kanya?! And for your information! We are not friends anymore!" I said and glared at him.

"Never cursed me, Cline Eleonore!" His voice is like a thunder.

"Then never decided for me, Clyde Ezekiel!"

"Stop it you two!" Umawat na si Papa.

"Ikaw Pa?! Pumayag ka sa gusto ni Kuya?!" Bumaling ako sa kanya.

When he nodded, I think my hero just turn into a villian.

"P-Pa.. b-bakit.. bakit?!" Napaatras ako palayo sa kanya.

"Cline please let us explain everything to you first." He pleaded.

Sunod sunod akong umiling. "I will never listen to anyone of you anymore.."

"Cline.. please Anak, nakikiusap si Mama." Sinubukan akong hawaka ni Mama pero umiwas ako.

"Ma! Nakikiusap rin ako na tigilan nyo na ang kahibangang to kasi nahihirapan na ako!" Pakiusap ko.

"Nahihirapan rin kami, Cline! Hindi lang ikaw! Why can't you just listen to us first?!" Sumabad si Kuya.

"Kung nahihirapan rin pala kayo e di tumigil na kayo! Itigil nyo na to! Please lang!" Pumadyak ako para pigilan ang galit ko.

I'm feeling is again.. the emotions.. the pain.. everything..

"H-Hindi ako magpapakasal kay Shin.. kahit anong mangyari." Pinal na sabi ko at umiling pa, tuluyan ng nawawala sa sarili.

"It's for the company, Cline! Bumabagsak na ang negosyo natin!" Hinablot ni Kuya ang braso ko.

"There! Lumabas na ang tunay na dahilan! Gagamitin nyo ako para iligtas ang negosyon natin! Gagamitin nyo ko, Kuya! Mga manggagamit kayong lahat!" Tinulak ko sya palayo sakin.

"Listen to me, Cline! Hindi lang naman yun ang dahilan! Para pa rin naman sa future mo ito! You can have a better future with Shin!" Pilit nyang pagpapaintindi sakin.

But my ears are closed.

"f**k that future! I still can have better future without Shin!" Sinamaan ko ng tingin si Shin.

"But you always saying before that you want to be with Shin forever! This is the time to be with him forever, Cline!"

"Not anymore! Clyde! Saksi ka sa lahat ng paghihirap ko noon! Alam mo kung paano ko kinalimutan si Shin kahit na sobrang hirap!"

"Calm down please! We can't resolve this kung puro kayo sigawan!" Pakikisali ni Tita.

"Hindi nya kasalanan yun, Cline!" Sabi pa ni Kuya.

"Oo, kasi ikaw naman talaga ang may kasalanan! At ang mga kasalanan mo sakin ay balak mo pang dagdagan!"

"I will never marry someone I didn't love. Even that person is one of the most important person in my life before." I glanced at Shin who's averting his gaze.

"But the company is going down, Cline! Isa isa ng nagpupull out ang investos natin! Babagsak ang negosyo na pinagkahirapan nina Lolo! We need them, Cline! We need Shin family's help! Sila lang ang makakatulong satin!" Paliwanag nya pero hindi yun kayang tanggapin ng utak ko.

"Sino ba ang may kasalanan ha?!" Umiwas ako sa hawak nya.

"Ako! It's my fault, Cline! That's why I'm trying to do everything to solve this problem! I was scammed, Cline! Our money.. I used it to invest in a bigger company but it turns out that it's a scam! That's why we need their help!" He bursted out too.

I laughed without humor but full of pain, disappointment and betrayal. I laughed like nothing is going on. Like I'm not going to marry someone who hurted me before. I laughed to let out the pain and anger slowly building up inside me.

I'm mad.. so mad.. yung sa puntong sana ay mamatay na lang ako bigla dahil sa sobrang galit.

"Cline.." Mama called my name, worried.

I laughed louder while tears streaming down to my cheeks. I'm crying.. no, I'm laughing.. no, it's both.

Baliw na yata ako. E sa ayaw ko ng ganitong pakiramdam?

Mapait akong ngumiti at tumingin kay Kuya. "You're hurting me you know? It's your fault.. but.. but why do I need to suffer for you? Bakit ako ang kailangang magsakripisyo dahil sarili mong kapalpakan? Bakit ako? Bakit?"

"Cline.. I'm sorry.." His voice broke.

"Kuya.. bakit ako? Bakit ako?! Bakit ako?! Kuya! Kuya! Kuya bakit ako?!" I called his name, begging for a answers.

"Cline.. I'm sorry.. I'm sorry.." Kuya totally cried and broke down.

It pains me seeing my all mighty brother broke down in front of me.

"It hurts here." Tinuro ko ang dibdib kung nasaan ang puso ko.

"It hurt, Kuya, it hurts." Animo'y nagsusumbong na sabi ko.

"Cline.." He tried holding my hands pero lumalayo ako.

"Don't touch me! Don't go near me!" I freaked out.

"Cline! Cline! Calm down!" Utos ni Papa pero hindi ko magawa.

"Solve your problem with your own solution, Clyde! Don't use me! Don't use me! Don't use me!" Humikbi ako at sinabunutan ang sarili.

"I can't do anything! Sinabi ko na sa kanilang lahat na magpapakasal ka kay Shin! Our investor will come back if you marry him!" Desperado nyang sabi.

"But I will never marry, Shin! Ayoko! Ayoko! Ayokoooo!" I yelled from the top of my lungs.

Bigla akong sumuka ng dugo. Napatili si Mama at Tita. Napahawak ako sa dibdib ko na sobrang sikip na. Nanlabo na rin ang mga mata ko. Dahan dahan akong napaupo sa sofa habang mahigpit na hawak ang dibdib.

"Cline, hey, what's wrong?" Sumulpot si Shin sa tapat ko.

"H-Hurt.." Nahihirapang sabi ko.

I can see worry in his eyes. But I don't know if I can trust my eyes right now.

"Oh God! Clark, your daughter!" Hesterikal ni Mama.

I-I can't breath..

"f**k! I'll go get the car! Shin carry her!" Kuya rushed out side.

Unti unti ng sumasara ang mata ko. My vision become more blurry to the point that I can only see faint light. There's this painful feeling inside me. I think my heart is mulfunctioning or something that give pain on me.

"W-What's happening to Cline, Eloisa!" It was Tita Sheena.

"H-Her heart.. it's happening again. G-God please.. save my daughter." Mama prayed.

"W-What do you mean?" Naguguluhang tanong ni Tita.

"It happens five years ago.. after you left to Japan.. an accident happens that almost took her life.. God.. please save my daughter."

Naramdaman ko ang sarili na lumutang. Alam kong binuhat ako ni Shin. I can't hear it but I know that he's already cursing. He jogged a little making me more dizzy. When we get inside the car, I lost my conciousness.

Nagising ako dahil sa bulungan at nakakasuffocate na amoy. Hindi ko maimulat ang mga mata ko. Sobrang bigat rin ng buo kong katawan. Nang maging malinaw sakin ang mga boses ay saka ko lang narealize na nasa Hospital ako.

"She's fine now. I think she'll woke up a few minutes from now. I checked her vital signs and so far everything is fine now." Someone said.

"Her heart is still vulnerable. I guess the too much anger build up inside her trigger her sickness. She hold it up to herself that lead to this incident. I suggest that you should avoid getting her too emotional or feeling too much emotions." Dagdag pa nito.

It's a Doctor.

"Kailangan nya po ba ulit uminom ng gamot, Doc?" It was Clyde's voice.

"No need really but for a better recovery I suggest that she should. Lalo pa at masyadong mahina ang katawan nya." The Doctor replied.

"Aside from that, always make sure that she will always express her feelings because we all don't want this to happen again." Dagdag pa nito.

"We surely do that, Doc." It was Papa this time.

Then I heard someone spoke that make my heart skipped.

"What's wrong with her heart? Aside from being stupid of course." He asked.

Bwisit ka talaga Shin!

"Silly. Anyway, nasabi sakin ni Mr. Zuelde na she was once abducted and was abused. Something hard hit her chest that affected her heart. We saw some sore in her heart, isa yun sa naging epekto ng aksidente." The Doctor said.

Bumilis bigla ang t***k ng puso ko ng hindi marinig ang sagot ni Shin. Kung ano ano bigla ang pumasok sa utak ko. Maraming what ifs ang naiisip ko. Kasunod noon ay ang nakakarinding pagbeep ng makina sa gilid ko at pagmumura ng mga tao.

"What's happening?!" Kuya's worried voice roared.

"I think she's already awake and having a panic attack, she need to open her eyes or she will have a nervous break down which is very bad for her condition." Aligagang sabi ng Doktor.

"Damn it!" Someone shake my whole body.

Grabe naman! Parang mababali ang buong katawan ko!

"Cline! Cline! Open your eyes!" Nakakarinding sigaw ni Kuya sakin.

Ayoko! Manigas ka dyan!

"f**k! Why she's not opening her eyes?!" Pagiingay ni Shin.

"Cline, Anak, please open your eyes.. please, please." A warm hands cover my right hand.

Mama.. Galit pa rin ako sa kanila dahil sa ginawa nila pero hindi ko naman kayang pagalalahanin sya ng ganito.

"Omg.. please open your eyes, Cline-chan." I heard Tita's voice.

"I think I know what to do." Seryosong sabi ni Shin.

"Do what ever it is!" Utos ni Kuya.

"You know, Cline and I use to play a game. A game that who ever open his eyes first will not eat ice cream at the afternoon. We will both close our eyes and will do or say anything just to force each other open our eyes." Nakuha nya pang magkwento!

Oh-no.. parang alam ko ang balak nyang gawin ah!

"Gawin mo na, Shin!" Inis na sabi ni Kuya.

"Sure." Napakawalang gana ng boses nya.

Naramdaman ko ang paghinga nya sa tenga ko, nanindig agad ang balahibo ko sa katawan.

"Open your eyes or I'll kiss you." He whispered on my ears.