Chapter 15
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CHAPTER 15
Nagkakatuwaan si Ice kasama nung mga kabarkada niya dati. Well except the jerk crowd. Mukhang imposible na lumapit sa kanila si Ice ng wala siyang nasasapak sa isa sa mga yon.
Naramdaman kong may umupo sa tabi ko at napangiti ako ng makita ko si Xander.
"Bakit hindi ka nila kasama?" tanong ko.
Inginuso ko sila Yoana na nasa isang gilid at naghaharutan kasama yung iba. Pero bago sumagot si Xander alam ko na ang isasagot niya.
Sa lahat ng mga nakilala ko ng college, isa si Xander sa pinakagusto kong kasama. Actually isa siya sa mga lalaking pinagkakatiwalaan ko.
Kahit na hindi ko siya sinagot naging close parin kami. I even used to sleep in his house kapag may ginagawa kaming project at lagi kaming magkatabi sa sala nila. It doesn't bother him at lalong hindi ako naiilang. Pakiramdam ko magkapatid kami, kahit na hindi yon ang turing niya sakin. He never took advantage of me.
"Masyado silang maingay. I want peace and quiet."
"Looks like hindi ka nagbago."
Ngumiti siya sakin.
Tumingin ako ulit kaila Ice. Mukang namiss niya din yung mga barkada niya. I wonder kung namimiss niya din yung popularity niya dati. Yung isang sabi niya lang nasa kaniya na ang hiniling niya.
Dumako ang tingin ko kay Olivia na nakatingin din kay Ice. I know she's a b***h pero I cant help but remember na magkatulad lang kami. I used to do everything for Ice to notice me. Hindi lang ako kasing b***h niya.
Nakuha niya si Ice before because she was his type of girl.
I have pride, something that Olivia doesn't have.
"Gusto mo lunurin na natin?"tanong ni Xander ng makita niya ang tinitignan ko.
"Sira. Diyan ka muna.Bibili lang ako ng drinks-"
"Samahan na kita."
Tumayo siya at umalis na kami. Hindi na ako nagpaalam kay Ice dahil napapalibutan siya ng mga kabarkada niya. Inalalayan ako ni Xander dahil lumlubog yung paa ko.
Nagtatawanan kami ng makarating kami sa Food and Beverages Shop na nasa malapit sa pool area. Para kasi akong timang dahil ilang beses na akong muntik madapa.
"Hindi pa tayo umiinom niyan lasing ka na. Masyado bang nakakalasing ang kagwapuhan ko?"
"Ang kapal ha? Bakit kapag may kasama tayong iba hindi lumalabas yang pagiging narcistic mo?"
"Ganon talaga. Sa narcistic din nagpapakita ang ugali ko."
Binatukan ko siya na ikinatawa niya lang.
Imbis na bumalik kami sa may bonfire umupo na lang kaming dalawa sa pandalawahang swing na nakatayo di kalayuan sa pool area. Pareho kaming may hawak na san mig light.
Inuugoy ni Xander yung inuupuan namin habang nakataas naman ang mga paa ko at kipkip-kipkip yung san mig light. Ang lamig pala ng hangin dito.
"So, kamusta ang married life?"
"Ayos naman. Feeling ko puputi na ang buhok ko kay Ice sa kakulitan niya. Ganon pa din siya except the play boy thingy. I think we're okay..I'm okay."
Tumingin ako sa kaniya ng sinabi ko yung pahuli kong salita. I know he's concern about me. Hindi ko maiaalis sa kaniya yon dahil saksi siya sa mga nangyari saakin noon. Ngumiti siya but there was an unmistakable sadness in his eyes. I look away at tumingin na lang ako sa pool. Hindi ako sigurado pero parang alam ko kung bakit siya malungkot.
"You really love him do you? Kahit na sinaktan ka niya, kahit na hindi ka niya pinapansin noon, kahit na binalewala ka niya sa huli siya parin ang gusto mo. I wonder what do he haven that I dont?"
Napatingin ako sa kaniya ng marinig ko yung sinabi niya. But this time siya naman ang hindi tumitingin sakin. Alam ko nasasaktan ko siya. Pero akala ko kasi...akala ko wala na. Kaya hindi ako sigurado, pero tama pala yung pakiramdam ko. All these years, sinasaktan ko parin siya.
"Xander..I..I.."
Nagsimula na akong tumayo para umalis. Pero pinigilan niya ako.
"No. I don't have any plans to take you way from him..not that I can. Alam kong mahal mo siya and I can't compete with that. Ayokong masaktan ka. Gusto ko lang na sabihin sayo. Because God knows I want to tell you this before. I know na walang magbabago. Just give me this one last chance to say what I feel for you."
"It will hurt you more."
"It wont."
"Xander.."
"I still love you. Naisip ko nung tinanggihan mo ako dati na mas mabuti ng maging magkaibigan tayo. Its better that way than not to have you at all in anyway. Mas gusto ko ng maging kaibigan mo lang at least na kakasama kita. I love the way you smile and laugh and I hate to see your tears. If I just can take away all your pain when he broke your heart, ginawa ko na. But I know that I cant because the only one who could make you happy is the same person that hurted you. Akala ko ng makita kita uli baka sakali, maging akin ka na. But it looks like you're not really for me. In some way I'm happy right now, because I can finally let you go."
Tumulo yung luha ko sa sinabi niya. Bakit ganon? Kung sino pa yung nagmamahal satin ng labis-labis, yung nagpapahalaga satin, sila pa ang nasasaktan natin. Bakit ba kasi hindi pwedeng pumili ng mamahalin?
Kasi kung kaya ko lang, sana matagal ko ng kinalimutan si Ice. Lalo na ng mga panahon na sinaktan niya ako. Pero deep inside siya parin ang gusto ko.
Yes. I'm really sure right now. I love him..I'm in love with him. Again.
"Xander, I love him. Not that I told him this. Nang magkaproblema kami sinuyo niya ako ng hindi ko alam kung gaano katagal. I dont want to fall for him because I'm scared pero right now I know in my heart that I love him...I love him still."
Nakangiting tumango si Xander. Hinila niya ako palapit sa kaniya at napapikit ako ng niyakap niya ako. I hope he'll stay as my friend kahit na for the second time, tinanggihan ko na naman siya.
"Promise me you'll be happy."
"I dont know. I dont even know kung gaano katalagal ang saya ko ngayon. But I promise to be happy or try to be happy."
"Good-"
"Excuse me. Can I get my wife back now?"
Mabilis na naghiwalay kami ni Xander at nilingon ko si Ice na madilim ang muka na nakatingin samin. Napalunok ako at nilingon ko si Xander na relax na uminom lang ng san mig light.
Hinawakan ako ni Ice at hinila ako papunta sa kung saan.
Nanatili siyang tahimik habang naglalakad kami. Napapalayo na kami don sa bonfire pero may unti paring liwanag dahil may mga light post naman.
Tuloy-tuloy kami hanggang nakarating kami sa isang maliit na speedboat. Sumakay kami don at tahimik na pinaandar niya yon papunta sa di kalayuan kung saan may malaking bamboo raft na nakatigil sa gitna.
May blanket don at unan.
He planned this. And I think I ruined his surprise.
Inalalayan niya ako hanggang makaakyat ako don sa bamboo at tinali niya muna yung speedboat bago siya naman ang umakyat. Tahimik na nakaupo lang ako.
"Ice."
"Do you want to file an annulment?"
Napasinghap ako sa sinabi niya. Tinitigan ko siya, nakayuko siya at mukang ayaw niya akong tignan. Maingat na lumapit ako sa kaniya dahil baka bigla akong matumba. Hinawakan ko siya sa magkabilang pisngi at pilit na inangat ko ang muka niya para tumingin siya sakin. I tried to stifle a sob when I saw the hurt in his eyes.
He dont want to let me go pero kakayanin niya kung iyon ang gusto ko.
"Ice, I dont love him. You're the only one who can make me happy even though you acted like a jerk before. Mahal kita. Bakit mo ako pakakawalan Ice? Akala ko ba...hindi mo ako iiwan? You said you wont let go."
Napaiyak na ako ng tuluyan. Naramdaman ko na niyakap niya ako at umiiyak na sumubsob ako sa dibdib niya. Humigpit yung yakap niya sakin and I felt something fell on my cheek...
his tears.
"You just said you love me." he murmured.
"I did."
"He loves you too, Summer. Maybe he can make you happier-"
"I will be the judge to whom I will be happy or not Ice. Mabait si Xander.. Hindi niya ako sinaktan dati. Pero ikaw ang mahal ko. My heart only wants you."
I close my eyes when he lean down and kiss me. I gave all my feelings to our kiss. Showing him how much I love him..how much I want him. I wrapped my arms around him, straddling him to have him closer to me. He groan and I felt his hand on my waist..crushing me to him.
"Summer.."
"Less talking..more kissing."
He chuckled and I stop him with my mouth. He hungrily kissed me back. Our mouth clashing together, tongue intertwining. I moan when he leave my mouth, kissing my cheek down on my jaw.
He traveled down my throat, nipping on my soft and sensitive skin. I grasp his hair and pulled him to me. I love the way he kiss me..I love his touch.
I can feel the soft breeze around me when he took off my clothes but at the next moment the coldness was gone replace by the heat of his body. Flesh to flesh.
I trail a soft touch on his chest, caressing him down on his navel then on his length. He gasp when I hold him tightly. Creating a rhythm that sets him on fire.
I met his gaze and his eyes are blazing with fire. And I can see in his eyes..that my eyes says the same. I planted a kiss on his chest. I moan impatiently when he suddenly pulled me up. He shake his head to admonish me. I knotted my forehead at him...why did he stopped me?
"This is not about me, Summer. I want to make love to you."
He kiss me again..plunging his tongue inside my mouth. He gently laid me down and at the next moment his lips are everywhere. I arched my back and scream his name. I can hear my ragged breath and the fast beating of my heart when his tongue traveled south.
My lips parted and I almost shattered at the feeling. My body buck against him. I writhed in pure pleasure. He smiled then he pulled me to his lap and the moment I straddled him..he move upwards..entering me with one swift motion.
I gasp at the unfamiliarity. He stop moving to help me adjust around him. He caressed my cheek and I gave him a soft smile. I move gently and he growl.
"Summer..I love you.."
I move with him..meeting his every movement..copying it. I circled my waist and his eyes grew darker. He mutter a soft moan when I continued my move. I can feel him..he's close..
My breath came faster and faster. The feeling is overwhelming. An overwhelming feeling that I don't want to stop..if only we can stay like this forever. But we cant.
I dug my finger through his flesh when my body quivered of my release. I cried out his name and I heard him say my name too when he fill me with his love.
I collapse on top of him.
"How are you feeling?" he whispered on my ear.
"Great."
"We need to get back, baka tangayin na tayo kung saan."
"I cant move and I want to sleep."
"Sleep, baby. Don't worry, I'll take care of you."
I know he will.
I close my eyes and drifted to sleep.
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