It was a foolish to escape. I looked around and all I could see infront of me is a river. It's like the river doesn't want me to go away. It was a trapped. There's no way this river want us to leave him.
I know it was hard fighting. If I will escape nad leave, I have no place to run and hide and in the end I will end up going back to Tito Dito's house. The river blocking, and it's impossible but I was just hoping for a miracle. Miracle that once oils pick me up, but maybe... it does not exist. Miracles maybe only happen for those who's in verge of life and death situation. Miracle happens once in a lifetime. Miracle is rare and it wasn't on my hand.
The waves going wild and loud.
I watch how the thick and heavy waves was running in the river. I imagine myself swimming going to the other city? I'm not even a pro-swimmer. I know that Tita Mildred was right, and not less than a minute I'm gonna die and drown myself. And that's why Tito Dito let me go because he knows that I could not leave this place easily, and he knew that I'm gonna just get back to them.
The only way to get out is to swim across the river.
I have to die to finally leave this place.
Could I make it? No, literally. That's a suicide already. No one tried to swim far because they know that there life woud end there easily.
The island is so big and the resident here could not easily just moved away. People around here are working to Mr. Lycan, and earn well that's why everyone doesn't plan to move or migrate.
This island, Crimson Island was privately own by Mayor Lycan. Mr. Lycan is the wealthiest guy in the town, and he is the owner of the boat that was used only for fishing. He is the number one powerful businessman and supplier of the sea foods both local and international.
I can make it if I have connection to the Mayor right? How can I do that? I don't even know where he is living.
I lay my body to the sand. I was looking above.
"Mom? Mama... "
"Mom... if you ever watching here from above. Don't worry... Im fine. I'm alright. I have no place to run except in your arms. But like what I promise that I will graduate, I will build a house for us."
I moved my hands up trying to catch the stars and the moon above me but couldn't. Maybe, it was impossible at all. I have only simple dream but it was harder to reach because of the people around me. I have to stop going to school to work.
I want to graduate. I want to have my diploma. I want to build my own house. I want to travel around the world. I smiled when I remember what I want to feel before I will accept death. My heart is still young at all.
I want to fall inlove...
I want to celebrate every occasion with someone, and...I almost forget that it's my birthday. Since my mother had left birthdays become normal. The last time I celebrated my birthday is also the last time I will never have it again.
Mom spend every occasion with me and she left, I spend it alone and the thoughts of her.
The cold breeze soothed the bruise on my body. I embrace myself. I could feel the pain around my whole body every time I moved.
I groan in pain when I tried to stretch my arms,
Just simple pinch could easily make my body bruise, and I know that my body was full of bruise, right now.
I moved my body to the left side but... I feel nervous when I saw someone laying far away from me. Just near the edge of the sea, where the waves keeps on coming back.
I was holding my breath while keenly watching that body to move but it didn't. It was even more scary because the wind blew and I was freezing, freaking cold.
Who is that?
Based from that body figure... that is a man...
My instinct is to run but as I watch him keenly, I did not see him moving not even breathing. I'm more way curious.
Drunk or... dead?
I stood up. I was slowly walking cautiously, and only the heartbeat of my heart is making the noise.
I tried to moved closer.
"Sir?" I called, but he did not respond or not even hear me.
What if his dead?
"Excuse me... sir?"
Silent.
I was watching his chest closely but I could not see his chest moving. And when I bend down to watch his face closer. My hand quickly covered my mouth.
The man has a full of bruise!
I couldn't see his face clearly. And he's not even breathing.
And... he's... he's d-dead.. he's dead!
I moved backward while looking around. This is the very first time I saw a man in a situation like this. My heart was shaking while watching his lifeless body.
Is that man already dead? What happened... is he dead or alive? He has a lot of bruises as if he was being beaten by someone or even was salvage.
What if he got drown? But what about his bruise?
My heart beat faster as I move closer, and my legs and hands were shaking, too.
What if he's alive?
I pick a stone beside my feet. The pain in my heart felt was covered with fear right now. I slowly throw the small stone to his right leg but he did not even feel that.
I moved closer. And my eyes widened when my eyes darted to his stomach. As the moon was giving light to us, I could see the blood around his crumpled white shirt.
My hands were shaking while trying to lift his shirt up. I saw the thick fresh blood around his stomach. As if it he was just recently blew here.
But, maybe he's still alive.
I place my finger on his neck. I was closing my eyes trying to hear his pulse but I heard none. I place my hands beside this lifeless man's body, and I slowly place my head to his chest trying to listen to his heart but I could not find either.
"Heart... please pump... heart don't give up..." I whispered softly. The heart is important. I need to listen to his heart and he needs to listen to his heart, too.
I pulled away. I feel like I lose all my strength while watching him.
What did you do to end up like this?
I don't know why but my hands moved and went to his face. My hands were slowly caress his cheek.
My hands were hot and he should feel this.
"Hey, wake up..." I said while trying to moved his shoulder.
"Mister.... Mister...." I called a little bit worried. My eyes shifted to his hands. It was big and rough. I hold his hands and intertwined it. I lean again on his chest while our hands to his heart.
"Wake up... feel your hands... you're alive." I said softly. And my eyes widened when I hear a lup dup sound.
dug...dug..dug...dug...
Heartbeat...
There's a heartbeat!
I could hear his heartbeat!
I leaned my head again to his chest and I smiled while I hear his heart beats faster. I let his hand go. I don't know what woud I do next. I was the one who are in need of hell then why does this man needs me more.
His heart is not lying. It was starting to beat.
I kneel and place both of my hands above his heart. The wind blew even more colder. My hands were shaking while trying to pump his chest. I don't know how to do this but this was I always saw in every movies every time there's a person who got drown.
Then, next... I moved closer but I stopped. My eyes went directly to his lips, and I shake my head.
I moved away and stare to the river. I place my hands around my chest, and glance back to the man. My hands went to his chest, and I smile while watching my hands moved upside down because of the man's heart who's currently beating.
I crawl back, and try to carry him around me. I wrapped my arms around his waist.
Sometimes during in the weakest and worst times you never thought that you turn into the strongest person you will ever be. Like the river keeps on running, and we should continue.
I stared down the man. I don't know you but kindness doesn't require what kind of person you are. Kindness comes within the genuine heart of the bad and the sharpest heart. We can't just judge someone just because we thought he is bad.
Sometimes, it's not bad to become a hope to someone like how I wanted someone to be my hope during my trapped life.