Just a Simple Donation

"Do me a favor. Make me pregnant," I said nonchalantly to whoever this man is. He's a total stranger yet I think his genes would be a big help. I'm here in an exclusive bar in BGC. Actually it's my second bar for tonight hoping I would see my ideal prospect. This bar is different from the previous bar that I entered. The strobing lights here don't make me dizzy and the sounds are very pleasing in my ears. Yung napasukan ko kanina, grabe nakakahilo. Dinaig ko pa ang lasing na halos matumba-tumba sa paglalakad. Alam niyo yun? Iyong feeling na lalakad ka pero parang sobrang layo nung tatapakan mo dahil sa ilaw na gagalaw-galaw. And f**k! Ang hirap maghanap. I'm looking for a guy that will hopefully agree with me with my hilarious idea and that... is to make me pregnant. Yeah, I'm not crazy or hopeless alright? I badly wanted to have a baby. Ngayon lang ako nagkaganito. Yung pagkagising ko na lang isang umaga sobrang lungkot ng pakiramdam ko. Parang may kulang. And then as I was lying on my bed, I reflected. I already finished my masters degree in Business Administration and now leading one of the company that's making a name in the clothing industry. I have a car, lots of money, luxuries and a mansion with a garden and a pool. I'm pretty and I'm sure of this. I have a body that any other girls would wish for yet I don't have a partner that would be with me and enjoy what I have. I'm all alone in everything I have. I refuse to have a friend, bodyguards for my protection and even maids. When I was only 10 years old, my parents met a car accident on their way to their medical mission. They're both doctors. They always wanted to do volunteering works especially for the poor. All of their money were transferred to my name. That's why I survived until my student life in high school with our only yaya that time whom died also as I graduated in high school. Pagkatapos ng pagkamatay ng yaya ko na tumayong magulang ko sa loob ng walong taon, I lived alone. Even if it was so hard, I did my best to live for my life and my dreams. My college days have been hard for me especially when I'm having a hard time in school stuffs. I don't have anything to deal with. I don't like hanging out with my classmates because I find them temporary in my life. I don't want to attach myself with the persons I know in the end will leave me. It's just so hard to cope up. I already have three persons who've left me alone in this world. "Miss, just tell me you want to bed me. I already know that kind of tactics. Well, hindi na ako lugi sayo. I think I will have a good night babe," he said that while examining my body like I'm some kind of a delicious food to him. Yeah, I admit he has good looks but damn him, I hate perverts. Mukha na rin siyang lasing base sa pagkakalikot at pagkapula ng mata niya. I feel goosebumps all of a sudden. "Hhmm. Poor boy. It was just a prank, bye. Enjoy!" Ending the discussion I shouldn't have started in the first place. Kailan pa ba ako tumama sa pagpili ng lalaki. I don't want to look like I'm some kind of desperate woman wanting to have s*x. Nakakaapat palang ako pero parang suko na agad ako. I never surrendered, but right now I think I will. Paalis na ako ng sundan ako ng lalaki, "Wag ng pakipot Miss. I know you want it also." Sabay kindat sa akin. Bigla akong nandiri sa lalaking to. I'm starting to get nervous. This is not what I expected it to be. "I'll just go to the CR alright. Just wait me here," medyo malandi kong sabi sa lalaki kasi sa tingin ko ito na lang makapagpatigil sa kanya. I never thought I would be in a situation like this. "Oh, do you want to do it there?" biglang nasabi ng lalaking ito. "No, babe. Let's go to my place later. Okay?" I said like I'm negotiating with him. Thank God I'm good at acting. "Hhmmmm okay, just make it fast babe," he huskily said as he hold my waist. Kumawala na ako ng dahan-dahan at nagkunwaring pupunta sa cr. Nang mawala ako sa paningin niya ay dali-dali akong tumaliwas ng daan at pumasok na lang sa isang VIP room na malapit sa CR. Bahala na. There's something that is telling me na doon ako pumunta kahit na walang kasiguraduhan na bukas iyon o papapasukin ako ng kung sino sa loob. And I'm hoping walang milagrong nangyayari. Huminga ako ng malalalim at itinulak ang salaming pintuan. Thank God! It's not locked! As soon as I entered the room, I saw a guy drinking alone. He looked wasted but this is the guy that I'm looking for. Pero wala na yun sa isip ko ngayon. Ang mahalaga ay makatakas ako sa lalaking iyon. "Please let me stay here for a while. There's just an annoying jerk outside." He didn't even looked at me. I examined the room. There he is at the middle of the room with a long gray couch and a small glass table in front. The room is dimmed with a blue lighting. On the table is a big bottle of I can't see clearly what's the name of it but I'm sure it's an expensive wine and a glass. The wall is made of mirror but this is for sure a one sided mirror where you can see what's on the outside but can't see what was here inside. There is also another door maybe a comfort room. A soft low music is also playing. "Get out," he coldly replied after a minute and then poured a wine on his glass. He looks stressed. "I promise I would be good. Hindi kita guguluhin or I will be the one to pay your stay here. I really just need to hide for a while." I step closer to him. Kailangan ko ng kapalan ang mukha ko. Medyo dim kasi yung lights kaya naman mas maaaninaw niya ko sa lagay na ito. Bigla na lang nanlaki ang mga mata niya. Nang matingnan niya ng maayos ang kabuuan ko, I sense something on his eyes. He looked shaken by my presence. Naguluhan ako bigla. Anong meron at ganyan na lang ang pagkagulat niya sa mukha ko? Hindi kaya sobrang gulo-gulo na ng buhok ko o kaya ang haggard ko na? "Closer." He signalled his hand na parang pinapalapit niya ko. "Wha... what?!" Medyo nagulat kong sigaw. Buong akala ko ay papaalisin niya na naman ako. "If you're thinking I would have s*x with you, I won't. I'm not cheap like what you're thinking." Still looking at me with those eyes. I suddenly felt nervous yet excited. What did he just say? s*x? Cheap? Hindi ko nga naisip ang mga ideyang iyon. Grabe pa sa grabe Isabelle. "I'm not alright. Just let me stay," the only words I said. What's with this man really? May problema ba to sa pag-iisip o sadyang may pinagdadaanan ngayon? I tried to examine his face but he suddenly talked unexpectedly. "But you want to have a baby right? Want to start it now? With me? Here?" he confidently said. Nagulat ako sa litanya niya. Ano raw?! And now I got really confused. Is he some kind of a psycho? Kanina, ang sabi niya ayaw niyang makipag-s*x sa akin at hindi siya cheap, tapos ngayon kung anu-ano na itong lumalabas sa bibig niya. I never broadcast to everyone how desperate I am to have a baby. But seriously... How did he know?!