Just a Simple Donation

CHAPTER 6: SORRY I'M A MESS

Juan

“Get the hell out of here! You’re fired!” I yelled at my secretary.

It’s been a year since Isabelle disappeared. Andun na eh, naabot ko na siya, nahawakan at nahagkan ngunit nang magising ako sa aking pagkatulog matapos ang aming mainit na sandali ay malalim na ang gabi at wala na siya sa aking tabi.

Sobra kong sinisisi ang aking sarili dahil hinayaan ko ang sarili kong makatulog ng mga oras na iyon.

I searched for her in every corner of my condo pero wala. And then I saw a piece of orange paper on the door. I read it at muntikan ko na iyong maitapon dahil sa sobrang gigil ko. At ang ikinainis ko pa ay ang pagiwan niya ng kanyang red lacy panty na ang nabanggit niya ay siyang kabayaran sa aking ginawa.

What a naughty hard headed girl.

I sighed and think deeply.

Thank you for making my dream come true. Although I’m not pregnant already I’m very certain that there will be a baby in my tummy. Don’t worry about me because it’s just a simple donation. You still have so many sperms in you so it’s not really a big deal right? That you’ve donated some to me. But I’m very thankful you’ve agreed with my stupid idea easily and what’s making me happy is that you made it special for me. Thank you so much. A day will come that we will meet again and I will thank you again personally (with a heart and smiling face).

-Jackson Trevor & Niccola Shaeina (remember these names)

That’s all that she wrote and I can perfectly remember all of it. Why? It’s because I would read it every night then I would crumple the piece of paper but would end up fixing it. Ito nalang ang makapagpapalagay ng loob kong magkikita kaming muli at aasahan ko iyon. I'm also wondering about the names.

Why the hell would she want me to remember those?

Right after that night I visited her on her house but no one is in there. I tried to get inside but her car isn’t there and her mirror walls were covered with blinds which is not common when I check on her. It only means she’s not there. So I decided to go to her company but I can’t get in because of the tight security. You can only enter if you have an appointment.

I tried to go to her boutiques but she is not there also. Even her staffs doesn’t know where she is pero hindi na yun bago sa kanila. She seldom go there they said. But she always checks on them through calls or text. Pero wala pa din daw silang narereceive.

I help myself think that she’s just unwinding or taking a break but I really feel nervous. This happening is very odd from her usual doings.

Where the hell are you Isabelle?

The day after, I did my routine. From her house, to her company and to her boutiques but there is no sign of her. Weeks have passed but she’s really out of my sight. Even her employees won’t disclose anything from me.

It’s getting frustrating and frustrating each day that I can’t see her that even my work got affected. What can I do? Nasanay ako na bago pumasok sa aking trabaho ay dadaan ako sa bahay niya to see her. Even just a glimpse of her face is enough for me. I did that for almost eight years. Kaya mahirap na biglang mawawala siya matapos ng mangyari sa amin.

Is that her plan, to plant a sperm on her and then after she will runaway or hide or whatsoever?! She should have informed me. She’s very unpredictable.

I ordered my secretary to hire a best investigator but after three days, no news about her were reported. I gave another week for him but still a no. Month have passed, no Isabelle. I fired my secretary.

“Bro, what the f**k is happening to you? Ano itong nabalitaan kong sobrang mainitin na ang ulo mo na ang mga empleyado mo ay natatakot na sayo. And what have you done to your secretary? Bro! He’s one of the best and you know that but what the hell? What’s the problem?”

I can’t remember how many secretaries I have had since Isabelle disappeared but I don’t really give a s**t. I have to find her. I can’t do anything good without her.

Miggy would always confront me of what’s happening when firing an employee became my hobby. After that, araw araw na siya sa opisina ko. He would always accompany me and always ask me if I’m okay or what’s my problem. I will just ignore him.

That night I realized, why am I letting myself like this? Yeah I’m just a man who donated sperm from her. I'll just let her for the meantime. But after I fix everything from my company and employee, I will go find her myself. It’s impossible that she won’t get back here in the Philippines because of her company. Yeah I have thought she's out of the country since my hired investigator did a search in all the places here in the Philippines specially on the provinces but negative talaga.

Six months have passed when I have reflected everything I did before. I fix myself and drive to my office. I gathered a meeting to all my employees in the hotel.

“I just wanna say sorry to all of you guys. I know I’ve been rough to you this past few months and you were all scared of me now. I wanna thank you for staying with me… I mean with our hotel and do your jobs accordingly. It’s just me who has a problem. I’m sorry. I really am. I promise I will make it up to you,” I said sincerely to my staffs.

They were all looking at me some were crying and some were teary-eyed.

I have built a good relationship with them and all of them became my friends but what I did is very terrible. I would shout at them, tell them how petty their work is and how inutile they are.

“It’s alright Sir. We’re glad that you’re back from being you. And of course even if you’re like that we will never leave you,” one of my staff said.

“Opo Sir! Masaya kami at maayos ka na,” sigaw pa ng isa. At nagkanya kanya na ang iba ng pagsabi sa akin na ayos lamang. I apologetically smiled.

“I’m really sorry,” That’s all I can say to them.

“What a f*****g drama! Group hug!” Came from a familiar voice .

That’s Miggy sino pa ba? Haaays, isa pa ito. Ang dami ko ng utang ko sa taong ito.

At dahil may baliw na dumating, naging baliw na ang lahat. At nagyakapan na nga kami at ang ibang malalapit talaga sa akin ay umiiyak na. I’m very lucky I have them. Too bad I forgot to value it.

“Ang da-drama nyooo! Lalo tuloy kayong nagsisipangitan.” At humarap siya sa akin at umakbay ng medyo mahigpit. “Magtutuos pa tayo!” bulong niya sa akin sabay ngiti sa lahat.

“Okay, I promise babawi ako sa inyo but for now kailangan na nating magtrabaho ulit. Have a nice day everyone!” masigla ko ng kausap sa kanila.

“Yes sir, Pangit!” sabay-sabay nilang sigaw na may kasama pang saludo. And that’s the sign that we’re all fine. Balik na naman sa mga kalokohan. Malalakas na naman ang loob at nanito ang Miggy na to.

I laughed with some tears that’s forming in my eyes. At bago pa iyon lumala, I grabbed Miggy and headed to my office.

As soon as we entered he punched me.

“What the?!” I hysterically said. Masakit iyon aah. Well, I deserved a punched anyway.

“Bro wag kang OA! Sa braso lang kita sinapak. Pasalamat ka nga hindi sa mukha. Awa ko na lang sa iyo, pumangit ka pa lalo,” he said but he’s massaging his fist. I smirked. I know why.

“Masakit ba Miggylito? Kung nasaktan ako malamang ikaw din. Serves you right,” medyo natatawa ko pa ding sabi. “Halika nga dito.”

We sat on my couch. I stared at him for a while. Thinking of how I will get even. Kahit may kasalanan ako sa kanya ay hindi ako papayag na hindi ako makakabawi matapos niya akong sapakin. Kinunot ko ang aking nuo sabay laki ng aking mga mata.

“Wha... whaat? Why are you staring at me?” He looked bothered as he said that.

“Bro, what happened to your face?” I nervously said.

“Whhhhhaa…why? What’s wrong with my face? Is there something on it? Do I look ugly na? Is my eyebag swollen? Or do I have a pimple?”

There. Nagpapanic na nga po si Miggylito. Mukha niya ang kahinaan niya.

“I think you have something on your nose. Is that a booger?” medyo nadidiri kong sabi sa kaniya sabay tawa.

“Whaaaat?? Holy s**t! Really? Oh damn it.” His face... so epic. He tried to check it but failed. He then go to my table because I have a mirror there and look at his face. He checked it for about ten times. And all I did was to laugh so hard. Sumasakit na nga ang tiyan ko. Ghaaad it’s feels good to laugh again.

After he got contented na wala talaga, he went to me with those eyes ready to kill.

I composed my self for whatever he will do tome but I was shocked when he hugged me.

“What a f*****g asshole. I’m glad you’re back! I’m so glad. You know how worried I am.” Hinigpitan niya ang yakap sa akin while tapping my back. I hugged him back and smiled.

“I’m so sorry bro, I know I've been a jerk these last few months,” I said to him feeling the warmth he can give me. I feel comforted all of a sudden.

“Pero bro tama na, baka nababakla ka na sa akin nyan,” he naughtily said and I punched him. Pero hindi ganun kalakas.

“Gago!” And I know were good. I’m so grateful I have a friend like him.

“Bumawi ka sa akin aah. Kahit painom lang sa bar mo.” Natawa naman ako. Naalala ko ang mga staff ko sa bar. Hindi ko na sila masyado napagtuunan ng pansin.

“Yeah I know. Babawi talaga ako. And speaking of bar, I will talk to my staffs also.”

“Gusto mo ngayon na?” he suggested. Medyo nagniningning ang mata.

“Huwag mo akong itulad sa iyo. Iniwan mo na naman trabaho mo sa secretary mo?” I joked pero ang totoo hindi niya gawain iyon. He's one of the best boss I know.

“Of course not. You know me, before I will wander around, I’ll finish my work first,” he proudly said. Natawa naman ako. Proud na proud hindi man lang nagpahumble.

“I know. I know. Pero sa ngayon magtatrabaho muna ako. Where will you stay?” I asked him. Walking towards my table.

“Hhmm... dito na lang muna. I’ll just watch a porn here on your TV.” At nagulat naman ako sa kanyang sinabi.

“Gago nito. Mahiya ka nga,” medyo nanlalaking mata kong sabi.

“Pavirgin ampuchaaa! And bro! Mahiya? What’s that?” Sabay tawa niya ng pagkalakas lakas. Sabay bukas ng TV.

“Ewan ko sa'yo.” And then I sat on my chair and stared at my table for a while. A face popped on my mind.

Someday, we’ll see each other again. Panghahawakan ko ang binitawan mong mga salita sa iyong sulat. And when that time comes, prepare yourself. I’ll have my sweet revenge you never imagined.