Yung dibdib ko biglang tumambol, nanginginig na hindi ako makagalaw. Ayokong mag isip ng masama pero... pero...
You need to protect him Momo!
Huminga ako ng malalim at pinilit lumakad papunta sa pinagmumulan ng tunog.
Bawat hakbang ko natatakot ako sa pwede kong makita, nakapikit na binuksan ko ang pinto.
Dahan dahan kong dinilat ang mata ko at nakitang mag isa si Denisse sa kwarto minamasahe ang sarili nya.
She looks at me " Oh the maid, good thing you're here, massage my neck, ah... I think i tilt up for long" sabi nito na hinimas himas pa ang leeg nya.
Hinanap ko si Zach, pero hindi ko sya nakita. " N-nasan si Zach?" tanong ko dito she looked at me and rolled her eyes " He left saying he will chase the girl she likes, tss how dare him leave me, he's an idiot" iiling iling na sabi nito
Natulala naman ako sa sinabi nito, he... he chased me? He chase me!
Agad akong tumalikod para tumakbo palabas pero tumigil ako saglit at nilingon yung babae. " Stop toying with peoples heart. that doesn't make you beautiful but cheap" sabi ko, napalingon naman ito sakin saka nakangangang magsasalita sana " I will make him forget about you, ah nah, I think i already did" sabi ko sabay ngiti " Make sure to left no stuff when you leave" sabi ko saka tuluyang lumabas.
Narinig ko pang sumigaw to pero narinig ko ding nagsalita si Dan. Yeah... kaya nyo na yan guys!
Tumakbo ako at hinanap si Zach, hindi pa siguro sya nakakalayo, bakit ba hindi namin sya napansing lumabas.
Ugh! masyado kasi akong nag iiiyak!
Tumakbo ako at lumingon lingon. Nasan ka ba zach? Saan ka nagpunta?
Tumakbo pa ko hanggang kalsada baka sakaling makita ko ito pero wala.
Hindi... hindi ka pwedeng tumigil Momo!
Tumakbo ako at patuloy na naghanap pa din. Lingon dito, lingon doon.
Hingal na tumakbo pa ako. kung saan saan na ako nakarating pero patuloy lang ako.
Pinuntahan ko ang mga lugar na pwede nyang puntahan..
Hanggang makarating na ako malapit sa tirahan ko. Pumunta kaya sya dito?
Tumakbo pa ako papasok ng may napansin akong lalaking lantang naglalakad, bagsak ang balikat na nakayuko ito
Z-zach....
napangiti ako, si Zach!
Parang magic na nawala ang pagod ko, tinakbo ko ito.
Hindi pa din nito napapansin na palapit ako, binilisan ko ang takbo saka ito tinalon ng yakap.
"woah!" sigaw nito sa gulat.
Sapo ang ulo na tumingin ito sakin, na ang balak sana ay sigawan ako ng matulala ito ng makita ako. " M-momo?"
Ngumiti ako " Momo ikaw talaga yan?"
Mas lalo akong ngumiti at tumango pa, hindi naman ito makapaniwala na tinitigan pa ako. He then cupped my face reassuringly that I am indeed in front of him " Momo... Momo!"nakangiting banggit nito sa pangalan ko saka ako niyakap, I hug him back
" I thought I was gonna lose you for real... please.. don't do that again" he said with a very sweet tone.
We then get up, haha nakakahiyang nakahiga kami sa kalsada diba?
He still looks at me with a sincere gaze.
Ahh.. can you please stop staring at me? I'm going to melt if you continue to do this.
Tumungo ako sa hiya, nararamdaman ko na yung mukha ko na namumula.
" How can you just leave me like that? How can you just leave and say nothing? does my feelings not matter to you?" he said giving me a hurtful look.
Tumunghay ako sa kanya, he doesn't know a thing.
" It does matter! kaya nga ako umalis na lang... kasi alam kong sa kanya ka magiging masaya.. kasi sya ang gusto mo diba?" naiiyak na sabi ko.
" Who the f*ck told you that?" inis na sabi naman nito.
Natahimik naman ako, wala ngang nagsabi pero....
" Yeah i liked Denisse so much that I thought I can't neverget over her. i liked her so much that it made me crazy... but that was before!" sabi nya kaya tulalang napatingin ako dito.
" Yeah, I admit that I used you just to feel better, just to forget about her, I'm sorry about that" he said and bow his head then he continued talking "But that was before, when I got to know more about you, ah... I wanted to be with you, I am having fun and being myself when I'm with you." nailing naman ito " You know, I don't know why but I cant seem to lie when it comes to you" napangiti naman ako sa sinabi nito.
These are the words i wanted to hear... ahhh... why am i tearing up? I am so happy!
He wiped my tears and stared at me. " I love you Momo, so much" sabi nya kaya mas lalo akong naiyak
Natatatawa naman itong niyakap ako kasi humagulgol na ako " Ahhh... I was saving those lines for our monthsary, tsk now you ruined it." sabi nito.
Ibig sabihin....
Mas lalo pa akong umatungal ng iyak, ang tanga tanga ko!
Tawa naman ito ng tawa habang ako iyak ng iyak ng may bigla akong naalala.
" What about Denisse?" tanong ko.
" Denisse? I dumped her" balewalang sabi nito.
" But... you.. k-kissed" sabi ko pa.
" She did. I did not. " sagot nito.
" Then why you don't even refused?" tanong ko ulit.
" At first I was surprised then I started to sense myself, do I like the kiss? do I feel a spark? do I like her still? I am questioning myself then I got an answer when I saw you" he said " i was scared the moment you showed in front of us, I'm scared that you might get mad and leave me."
Eehhhh... so that was it.
" I am not the one who is still living in the past, it was you!" sabi nito sabay pingot ng ilong ko.
" Ah! malay ko ba naman diba? all we did was date, you never told me you love me!" sabi ko na nakanguso na.
" So have you told me you love me?" tanong naman nito sakin.
Natahimik ako at nag isip saka tumingin sa kanya.
Hehehe... hindi nga.
Tumango tango naman ito " So alam mo na pakiramdam ko diba?"
" It's different from me! you know I like you! dun pa lang sa sinabi ko na ok lang saking maging rebound!" depensa ko sa sarili ko. He then look at me...
" Do you like me as me.... or you still sees me as that manga character" napalaki naman ako ng mata sa sinabi nito, panong? " What is his name again? u... uso... nah, ah it's Usui." sabi pa nito kaya napalunok ako " Usui Takumi" sabi pa nito.
Hindi ko tuloy alam ang sasabihin ko!
Waaah! its over na! alam nya nang otaku ako!
Pero teka... pano----
" Maalala mo nung magpaalam kang magccr? may tumatawag sayo nun, sasagutin ko sana para sayo kayo pinatay din agad ng caller, then nakita ko yung mga call logs, the name Usui appeared on your contacts pero wala ang pangalan ko, then I look at that Usui's number seeing it was mine"
sabi pa nya.
Aish! that was careless of me!
" I was wondering why do you put that name instead of my name? I wanted to ask you but you seem happy so I let go. " sabi pa nito " Then I got a chance to talk to your sister, she surely doesn't like me haha" natatawang sabi nito
" Sa kanya ko nalamang patay na patay ka pala sa drawing na yun, tsk, mas gwapo naman ako dun Momo" sabi pa nito inismiran ko lang
" Pero seriously, do you still see me as Usui? " tanong nito, tinignan ko naman sya saka ako ngumiti, nasagot ko na to dati pa.
" Yeah, at first dahil dun kaya kita nilapitan at kinausap, you do really look like him! mas gwapo lang sya" sinamaan naman ako ng tingin nito " It was indeed the reason why I got interested in you, but just like you, I had grown to love you as you. not as Usui but as Zach. *smile* I actually forgot that you look like him the past few days"
" So can I guarantee that you like me and not that Usui? it's crazy to have a rival who doesn't even exist" natawa ako sa sinabi nito, mukhang ito ay natawa din sa sinabi nya. Loko.
He sigh and pulled me to hug. " I'm glad you love me..." sabi nito. Oo nga pala, he was rejected.
Kaya masyadong magiging masakit sa kanya kung masasaktan na naman sya ng taong mahal nya.
Iyun ang iniisip ko noong gagawin ni denisse sa kanya pero ako ang muntik ng gumawa.
Ahhh... I was stupid. But at least we ended up like this.
" Dont leave me again like that, I thought I was gonna lose you for real" sweet na sabi nito. napangiti naman ako saka tumango "uhm"
" Love only me and don't look at other guys, that Usui is not an exception" sabi nito kaya natawa ako ng bahagya " I am serious"
Nakangiting tumango na lang ako "Oo na haha."
" That was my ultimate rival so don't read him anymore" sabi pa nito kaya natawa ako " Para kang baliw hahaha"
" He is still a guy and your first love" sabi nito. Ngumiti naman ako
" Nah, he's not. it was you, you are my first love" sabi ko he looked at me so i cupped his face " The first guy who made my heart flutters other than manga"
He stared at me so i smiled then he slowly took the distance between us and kissed me, not a smack and a peck. It was a passionate one, the kiss you can feel all the love and care, that what it is
Ahhhh.... I never knew it would turn out like this. I just wanted him to be happy, I wanted to see his smile. That was just my goal.
I never thought that I would be the answer. That I would make him happy, that I will be the reason of his smiles...
Ahhhh... this feels so nice, that it feels like a dream. I dont want to wake up anymore!
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After nung confession mas naging mas sweet kaming dalawa ni Zach.
Araw-araw araw itong pumupunta ng cafe pagkatapos ng trabaho nito, hindi para kumain kundi para sunduin na ako. Ang sweet diba!
Mukhang nakumbinsi na din namin si ate na wala na syang dapat ipag alala at binigay na ang blessing sa relasyon namin ni Zach.
And speaking of ate, may nalaman kaming shocking news! This is so unbelievable!
Yung boyfriend nyang hindi ko pa nakikita ay walang iba kundi ang kaibigan ni Zach na si Joseph!
Grabe diba?
Matagal na palang nagkakatext ang dalawa, nagkikita minsan hanggang sa nagkadevelopan.
Grabe... hindi ko akalaing... ganung lalaki ang type nya hahaha.
Don't get me wrong ah, sa personality ni ate, mas bagay sa kanya yung mga katulad ni Gervin. mahinahon at mabait.
Oh speaking of Gervin, sila na ni Kiel. sa wakas tumagal din sa relasyon ang loka! mukhang tinamaan na hahaha pero masaya ako para sa kanila.
" So, Dan, dude, mukhang tayo na lang ang single dito ah. mukhang kaylangan na din nating dumamoves!" sabi ni Marvic kay Dan.
Nasa isang restaurant kasi kaming lahat, to celebrate. buntis na kasi si ate. magkakapamangkin na ako!
" Mapag iiwanan tayo, si Joseph magkakaanak na, tong dalawa naman inlove na inlove tsk, di tayo pwedeng magpatalo!" sabi pa nito.
" Wag kayong mag alala, may darating na dalawang kaibigan si Momo, haha baka iyun na ang soulmate nyo" sabi ni Zach sabay akbay sakin. Natawa naman ako sa sinabi nito
" Di nga? meron? maganda ba?" tanong ni Marvic.
" Tss, aasahan nyo sa playboy na to?" turo ni Dan kaya nagtawanan na lang kami.
May napansin akong pumasok, napangiti ako ng mapagsino iyun, speaking of the devils.
" Oh anjan na sila" sabi ko sabay nguso sa dalawang babaeng papasok, Lumingon naman ang dalawa.
Gusto kong matawa sa reaksyon nung dalawa ng marinig kong shutter, kinuhanan pala ng picture ni Zach yung dalawa kaya natawa na talaga ako. He gestured 'sssh' kaya I gestured back ng 'ok' kahit natatawa ako.
Nskanganga kasi yung dalawa.
Well, ehem. walang pangit sa kaibigan ko.
Nakalapit na sila samin, napatayo naman agad yung dalawa, agad na lumapit si Marvic sa babaeng mahaba ang buhok at may side bangs." vacant ang seat katabi ko, dito ka na lang umupo" sabi nito. Natatawang pinapanood lang namin sila.
" Ah thanks" sagot nito
" Marvic nga pala" sabi nito trying to shake hands.
" Princess here." sagot naman ni Princess. In fairness bagay yung dalawa hahaha
Napatingin naman ako kay Dan na nakatitig pa din kay Nica
" Ah kuya ok ka lang? may dumi ba sa mukha ko?" tanong ng kaibigan ko.
Mukhang noon lang natauhan si Dan " ow ah hahaha, wala wala, upo ka" sabi nito sabay upo
" Di mo man lang tatanungin ang pangalan ko?" sabi pa ng kaibigan ko kaya natawa kami.
" Dan likes chinita and short haired girls. looks like your friend has both to make him act like that" bulong sakin ni Zach. napa-ahh naman ako.
" It's danica, but Nica is fine. well I think I should sit here, magmumukha kang kaawa kapag wala kang partner, right?" sabi ni nica sabay upo. Namumulang walang nagawa si Dan.
Hahaha ang cute nila!
I look at them and can't help but to smile. I never imagine things will end up like this. I was just fine being a rebound as long as I can make him happy... As long as I can be with him. I can endure the pain, I will fool myself.
But because of this I learned a lesson....A lesson dad had been going through. Love in no return. That was real love is. Loving someone and expecting no return.
It is painful but pure and true,
But that was love.