The Sub Rosa [Completed]

TSR 1

Tapping the heel of my stiletto gained attention in the chapel. I rolled my eyes when one of my cousins told me to be quite. Mom gave me a warning look which I just shrugged and ignored. Can't hold another sermon so I walk away, leaving them inside praying.

I believed in God.

It's just that I'm so ashamed staying inside.

With all of my sins I felt unholy and burning.

To save myself from humiliation I drove back to the place where no one can judge me, where no one can compare me and where the only two person can understand me.

I smiled weakly from remembering how I swallowed my pride for someone I thought I can be with. Begging him for attention and for his love.

Wherever he go somewhere, I also come secretly. Hurting myself from affairs he shared with different women.

That should be me b***h!

I saw how he cared to anyone of them, I asked myself why he didn't tried to played with me? I can also do it! I can do it!

Wasting my time chasing the person who never glance at me. Disgracing my entire family, hurting my parents for being desperate!

Until one day...

I was woke up from the dark dreams I've been aiming in my 18 years of living.

My Mom slapped me hard and all of the alcohol in my systems instantly leaves me when I cried on her shoulders. My cheeks was burning from the pain but it gives me a new hope to start my life.

"I love him so much." Sobbing all of the heart aches I've gathered while chasing the wrong person. Wetting her dress from my tears, for many years they let me do the things I want to do even if, sometimes it was the cause of their fights of my Dad.

"It was never wrong to love someone, but it was wrong to force yourself to someone who doesn't love you." She wipe my tears hoping to shoo away the pain and misery I've been dealing with for years.

They said the truth will set you free.

I know the truth since the first time I saw him but I was blinded by the one sided love. I-thought I can teach him to love me.

Luckily I stopped! I found myself again.

The guard salute to me as I drove passed the security. I parked my car inside of their mansion. I honked my car.

Combing my shoulder length hair and checking my freshly white coated nail polished.

I walk thru their long pathway inhaling the aromatic fragrance of the flowers planted in the garden. I'll pick one later.

The big wooden door creaked as one of their maids open it for me. I smile and thank them. I could hear the Renaissance music played all over the mansion.

So classic.

Everything here screams elegance and power! The ceiling was full of Ancient Greek Art painted by one of the famous Greece painter.

The statue of Alexander the Great and the demonic statue of the unholy creature Lucifer was perfectly sculptured by one their famous Filipino friend sculptor.

Ain't gonna lie that these mother fuckers are damn rich. Super.

I walk gracefully plastering my smile.

The sound of my stiletto hitting the artistic floor they had can't be heard because of the loud music.

When we reach the entrance of their mansion. They had a lot of doors here. You'll be surprise that we haven't reach the half of the mansion. It was big, wide than you can imagine.

The maid left at the entrance, I tried to stifled my laughter but I can't anymore. This is my 3rd time visit their home but those time I haven't seen anyone of their maids smile or giggle. They are too serious and stiff.

Which I was curious about because their bosses are funny and loud. Maybe it was included in their job description so I never

meddle myself in it or share my opinions about it.

When I opened the door I was welcomed again by a fancy theme and styles of their living room. The fire fence was in the middle.

My boyfriend Ptolemy is playing a wonderful piece in the antique piano.

My eyes wandered through his body, not making any noise so he won't be distracted.

His longer fingers are gracefully hitting every keys of the piece. I haven't saw him played violin but I heard Lysimachus played Cello.

Can you imagine how talented they were! Their foreign features are damn hot but I only promised myself to Ptolemy.

Though I was offered for more, I'm still thinking about it. I might consider having two at a time?

Hmm silently being shameless b***h! It was tempting.

Fucking temptation!

I felt like someone was looking at me. Darkly and burning sensation.

I saw Lysimachus smoking his tobacco while giving me his usual sensual grin and smile. These guy! Really!

Uh oh!

I sat in one of their soft chair, I preferred sitting in a single chair. I crossed my legs and I saw how he lick his pinkish lips, his lower lip. Damn. So sexy!

I unbuttoned the three dots of my dress, letting my breast to breathe. It's not my fault if my cleavage was exposed, blame my mother's genetic. I'm afraid it was passed through generation.

Ptolemy finished playing the classic piece he's been playing since he was a kid. He told me, well they told me a lot about themselves.

He courted me a long time ago but I never cared about him before. That was before, my old pathetic self.

Now that I realized my worth, sees the one who truly cherished and adored me without judging the mistakes I've done in my life is the thing I will never want to vanished.

I've known him for a long time but my attention was to someone else. Luckily I survived it, moving on even though I still love him. It was never that easy.

I don't want to lie again, there's a space of Lysimachus in my heart. They said that you can't love someone while you still love others. You can't love two persons at a time worse love three at a time!

Maybe they were right, the governor's daughter was a slut!

I've been called names for being with them, but we never done anything further than kiss. Was I slightly innocent after all? I mean I haven't give my purity yet it's still intact. I'm scared.

They saw me partied with them but I go home alone, yet the f*****g gossips and stupid observers judged me and called me slut. Well it's partly true? But it was just a kissed oh! Just a make out!

I received a lot of hate comments in my i********: and f*******: page account after I posted my bikini pictures in Maldives, they said...

"Swapang naman ng p**e nito!"

"Landi ng anak ni Governor!"

"Fake boobs yuck!"

"Laspag na yarn?"

"Ay sagana sa Tite!"

"Sarap cguro tirahin nito kahit sa gilid ng daan!"

"Paisa lang miss hahaha!"

Most of the commenters are girls the same age like me and older guys who had a profile pictures with their wives and daughters in the background.

That's why I don't believe in feminism.

That's why I don't have mercy to older guys who like maniac.

Fuck all of them!

Dragging me down was a stupid tactics. I don't care what other people think, what's important to me is what will my family says about it. The media don't know the truth! Nevertheless we can never expect that the truth will sail in the sees of lies and jealousy.

Mga tangina pag talagang ginawa ko bat ko pa ipapakita. That's stupidity!

I don't want to be stress that's why I'm here.

Tumayo ako para lapitan si Ptolemy, I placed my hand on his shoulder tracing the line of his long sleeve up to his arms. I smiled to him and snatch gently his champagne flute.

So sparkling and refreshing!

A big hand was placed above my butt resting it there.

Hinayaan kong ipulupot nito ang braso sa bewang ko. Caging me with his warm embrace. Hindi sinasadyang mapadako ang mata sa naninigarilyong kakambal nito si Lysimachus.

I raised my flute to him at inisahang lagok sa mabagal na paraan ang champagne. Some of the liquids spilled and run downs to my chin and neck.

Nakita ko ang bahagyang pagsinghap niya.

"Do you want to sleep here?" Baritono at nakakaakit na tanong nito sa akin. Hindi ko pa madesisyunan dahil I was clouded by Lysimachus gasped.

Hindi ako boba para hindi mapansin ang matagal ng pag-aakit sa akin ng dalawa. It's f*****g tempting talaga!

Kaso takot ako lalo na't khalista told me that her first time was painful. She had to take that numbing pills. My brothers must be huge that she limped for more than 4 days.

Bully ako noong bata kami pero ngayong umaki na at nag matured nagbago na lahat.

Khalista told me that she'll handle those people. There are things I can't imagine that she can do. Walang nakakalampas sa kaniya na hindi niya malalaman. I mean you have to be careful when lying to her. Once she caught you lying to her trust me, she will never trust you ever again!

We are both living diaries of each other.

She's my only friend, my one and only sister.

As what I've said I'm no saint, I do bad things to benefit me. I'll get rid of you once you block me.

I just laughed about the hates they've been throwing to me since my father involved his life in politics. Hindi na kailanman naging tahimik ang buhay.

Dirty politics.

If Azrael and I happened. Hindi ko sguro mapapansin sila.

Hinila ko ang necktie nitong suot at siniil siya ng halik. He responded to my kisses.

We are hungrily kissing each other. Kung saan saan napunta ang kamay sa katawan niya. Dinadama ko rin ang bawat haplos nitong nakakapang-init ng sobra!

Suminghap ako dahil nasa loob na ng dress ko ang kamay niya naging pagkakataon nito para maipasok ang kaniyang dila sa loob ng bibig ko.

The taste of champagne is on his mouth. I moan when he reached and cupped my covered feminity. Pinakawalan niya ang bibig ko at humalik siya sa leeg ko.

Napaarko dahil dinilaan niya at kinagat ang malapit sa dibdib ko. Lunod na ako sa mga halik nito at sinawalang bahala ang paglapit ni Lysimachus.

Binuhat ako nito at nilapag sa billiard table. Aahon sana ako pero pinigilan ako nito habang tinaas nito ang dress hanggang puson ko.

Ptolemy spread widely my legs.

"You want me to continue? If you say no, we'll respect it and stop." Pinadausdos nito ang mga daliri sa belly at sa legs ko.

Tumango ako bilang pagsang-ayon. f**k principles!

Pinunit nito ang lacey panty ko at binuka ng bahagya ang dalawang folds ko sa p********e. His fingers was warm!

"Ah!" I tried to touch myself before but nothing feels like this.

"What do you want me to do?" Nalilito kung bakit hindi pa niya ipasok sa akin.

"Pleasure me?" Tumawa ito sa tinuran ko. Namula tuloy akong nakabukaka sa harap niya.

"Damn even if you don't said it I'll do it." He slowly dip and insert his one finger inside of me. I close my eyes when he move it in and out of me. Hanggang sa naging dalawa at tatlong mga daliri ang mabilis na nagpapaligaya sa akin.

"AHH! Damn if I had known that your fingers are better than mine. Noon pa sana!" He smirked to me when I told him that something is building up inside of me and I'm going to come.

But he stopped again!

Kumunot ang noo ko dahil roon.

"I'll continue but you have to accept Lysimachus first."

Umikot ang mata ko sa inis at pagkabitin! I gulped when I felt pain in my abdomen wanting to release the liquids of pleasures.