Reckless

Chapter 11

Bumaba ako at ako naman ang lumapit sa kanya, we both laughed 'cause our plan is so much similar.

Yun nga lang siya may sing sing siya na binigay.

"You're still the one I run to, The one that I belong to," Sinabayan niya ako at hinawakan sa bewang, he pulled me closer.

The only thing between us is the mic, Everything feels magical and I don't think I'll feel like I would ever feel this again with someone.

"You're still the one I want for life... You're still the one that I love, The only one I dream of, You're still the one I kiss good night." I removed the mic and looked up to him,

Lumapit ako. I felt his warm and soft lips.

-End of flash back-

I spaced out. s**t.

"Matutulog na ko." I said coldly.

I just reminisce the best day of my life when I was with him and it's wrong. Maling mali 'yon lalo na at may boyfriend na 'ko.

Don't get me wrong I love Gio, but Louis's somehow managed to leave memories that I couldn't forget.

Dumapa ako sa kama ko.

"What the hell are you doing, Katherine? You should focus on Brion!" Inis kong sabi.

I grabbed a jacket, sabi na nga ba at lalabas ako pag gabi. I looked around when I smell a familiar perfume. Lumingon ako pero wala naman siya doon. Tinignan ko ang jacket na suot ko, This is his jacket.

Ito yung nilagay niya sa'kin kanina. Nagpatuloy nalang ako sa paglalakad dahil tinatamad na ako pumasok para magpalit ng jacket, besides he won't know.

Ibabalik ko din 'to bukas. I reached the shore. Tinignan ko ang buong dagat, the reflection of the moon in the water blends in. I miss this.

Yun nga lang mag-isa nalang ako ngayon. The last time I've been here ay kasama ko si Louis. Napatingin ako sa cellphone ko na kanina pa tumutunog, I picked it up when I saw Gio's caller ID.

"Hello? How are you? You haven't called me." He said in a sad tone.

"I'm so sorry. The signal here is poor." I lied.

I just don't feel like talking to him, na g-guilty din ako dahil I manage to post stories and pictures on my instagem (Social media) yet I haven't even updated him.

Wala siyang instagem at hindi siya mahilig sa social apps. Nakaprivate and account ko and his friends doesn't follow me.

I have picture of Brion there pero isa lang. Some of my friends will think it's my cousin or something, hindi naman sa kinakahiya ko si Brion pero... I don't know.

Things will get really messy when they find out about it.

"Really?"

"Yes, I'm so sorry."

"Stop lying to me." Bumilis ang t***k ng puso ko.

"H-Huh? C'mon Gio... I know you're tire-"

"Stop. I'll call you tomorrow, we'll talk about this." He said and ended the call.

What the hell was that? What does he know?

"Masarap ba?" Napalingon ako sa nagsalita.

I looked at him, confused. Bigla bigla nalang siyang nasulpot tapos ganun pa yung intro niya. Anong masarap?

"Your nails, is it delicious? Why do you keep on biting it?"

Tinanggal ko ang daliri ko sa bibig. It's my mannerism when I'm nervous, that's why I don't put nail polish on it. Nag papamanicure lang ako to make sure my nails are clean.

Umupo siya sa tabi ko at ramdam ko ang init ng katawan niya, I felt the difference between when he's not beside me and when he's beside me.

Tumulo ang luha ko. I don't know what Gio knows at ayoko malaman niya, I want to tell him first. Ayokong malaman niya 'yon sa iba.

"Who the hell made you cry?" Galit pero kalmado niyang sabi nung makita na umiiyak ako.

"Don't act clean. You made me cry too. Not once, but many times Louis" Natahimik siya

This is not also the first time I cried because of Gio. Well it was all my fault kaya nagaaway kami, unlike Louis.

Yes I made mistakes too, but that wouldn't even level the pain he gave me.

"I think he knows something." I broke the silence.

"I don't think so." Tinignan ko siya. He seemed confident of what he's saying, ni hindi niya nga kilala si Gio.

"Then why is he angry? He told me I'm a liar."

"I don't know."

"Wala ka talagang kwenta kausap." I stood up but he hold my wrist and pulled me down.

"He wouldn't know. I made sure of it. I got everything in control." He said.

"Why would you stop something that can possibly destroy my relationship with Gio?" I said which is true.

He told me he love me and Gio is his opponent. I don't see anything that would make him hold into something that could possibly be his hope.

"I don't want to destroy a relationship. If you love me you will come back to me in your way, not my way." He said.

May parte sa puso ko na parang nadurog sa sinabi niya. Parang ang sakit sa parte niya, I can see and feel the pain in his eyes.

"I'm sorry for everything that I've done, Katherine." He said.

Natigilan ako. I stood up at unti-unting naglakad papalayo, I can't forgive you, Not now.

"Kath," I stopped.

"I'll apologize every damn year even if it will take a decade or more. You know how sorry I am and how much I love you." He can't do this.

Kami ni Gio and you can't just say I love you to a woman who has a boyfriend. I ignored him and went back inside.

Binilisan ko ang paglalakad para makaabot agad sa kwarto ko. I grabbed a pillow and cover my whole face with it.

"Ahh!" I shouted.

Humagulgol ako sa iyak. I can't control my feelings. Halo halo na, Hindi ko na alam ang gusto ko. This is why I don't want to talk to him, he gives frustration in my mind and I'm not liking it.

-

I woke up feeling fresh. My face is clean and it was washed, I told him not to do this anymore.