Waves of Life

CHAPTER 12

Kendrick's POV

My baby. Bakit kailangang mangyari lahat ng ito sayo? Bakit sa lahat ng pwede nating harapin ng magkasama bakit iyang pang sakit na yan. Pano kita tutulungang labanan yan. You have something I cannot fight for. Damn. I feel useless.

I witnessed how she keeps herself strong for me and for her family. She experience so much pain both emotionally and physically.

The doctor told me that we should enjoy the remaining moments with her. They already suggested that we should make more memorable memories with her. That we should make her happy because that's the least that we could do for her.

I don't want to lose her. I can't. I don't want to lose my baby. She's my everything. Please don't take her away from me.

If I could just turn back the time. Maybe this wouldn't happen. Maybe I can still have her in my arms forever. How stupid I am for spending my time without telling her how important she is to me, without telling her how much I want and love her.

She's in pain.

She's weak

I'm stupid.

I'm f****d up.

Kapag nakikita ko syang nasasaktan dahil sa pesteng mga gamot na yan gusto ko magwala. Gusto ko akuin lahat ng sakit na nararamdaman nya. Hirap na hirap ako kapag nakikita ko syang nahihirapan at nasasaktan sa kalagayan nya. I can't stand to see her like that.

"Charmane baby, please wake up" kasalukuyan kong hawak hawak ang mga kamay nya.

"Please f*****g wake up and look at me" damn it.

A doctor came in.

I don't care about them. All I want is for them to use their ability to make my baby's life longer and to make my baby's body stronger. That's all I need. Bakit? Bakit parang ang hirap ibigay. Is that too much? It's for my baby. f**k.

"You know that I'm f*****g paying you to make this woman of my life stronger so we could live a normal life again. Why don't you f*****g do what you need to do?" I uttered.

"I'm sorry sir. I already told you the last time. I'm just gonna repeat it. There's a big possibility that your girlfriend has a limited time to live. The chemo drugs we're given to her was being declined by her body. I'm sorry" the doctor said and leave the room.

Napatingin naman ako kay Charmane at para naman akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig ng makita ko syang gising. Nakatingin sakin ng may mumuting ngiti sa labi habang nangingilid ang luha.

"Charmane"

"Ken"

Fuck.

"Ken baby, I want to ride a plane"

"Pero Char—"

"I love you so much" she intterupt me.

"I love you, I want to ride to plane for the last time. Please" she smiled

Damn it.

"I love you more baby" i uttered and place her in my arm.

She's the epitome of a real inspiration.

She's the woman I love the most.

She's the woman I spend my whole life with.

She's the love of my life.

She's my everything.

I called my pilot. Gusto kong sundin ang nais ni Charmane. I want to make her happy in any way I can.

Charmane's POV

I'm already weak.

I want to live longer but my body refused to.

Pasukong pasuko na ang katawan ko. Hindi ko na kaya. Kahit anong pilit kong lumaban para sa mga mahal ko mukang hindi ko na rin talaga magagawa. Hindi ko na kayang lumaban para sa sarili ko.

"Where do you wanna go?" - Ken

"I want to go home. Balik na tayo sa pilipinas"

"To the Philippines then"

For the last time. I want to go home. I want to hug all of them. I wanna see them.

I'm still happy kase naranasan kong magmahal at mahalin ng isang Ken Chua.

To love hard in a very short period of time. This is our destined. Ito ang alon ng buhay na natanggap at buong puso kong sinalubong. Hinding hindi ko ito pagsisisihan. Sa susunod kong buhay pipiliin ko pa rin na maging magulang ang mga magulang ko ngayon, ganon din ang mga kapatid ko. Pipiliin ko pa rin mahalin si Ken sa kahit anong paraan at sa susunod sisiguraduhin kong mananatili ako sa tabi nila ng mas matagal.

"Baby" he whispered. "Don't leave"

"You'll be okay, sigurado ako dyan." eto na naman ang mga luha na nag-uunahan na pumatak.

"Mahal na mahal kita ayokong mawala ka"

"Hindi ko maisip na iiyak ka para sa isang babae" kunwari ay natatawa kong turan.

"Baby you have to let me go" dugtong ko

"Baby I can't hindi ko kaya. Di mo ako iiwan, do you understand what I'm saying?"

"I love you. Tell my family that I love them too, na kahit nasaan man sila I'm always be at their side." hinawakan ko ang pisngi nya at pinahiran ang luha sa pisngi nya.

Don't make this hard baby.

"Tangina naman Charmane wag mo ko iiwan. I told you to fight. Fight for us." nagulat ako ng bigla syang maglabas ng sising.

"Hindi mo ako iiwan, marry me, pakasalan mo na ako"

Gusto ko syang  pakasalan, gustong gusto ko but I'm already dying. Anong mapapala nya kung papakasalan nya ako? Ganito ang kalagayan ko, wala na akong magagawa. Hindi ko sya maaalagaan. I'm just going to trap him.

 I love you.

I want him to marry a girl that will love her the way I love him. The girl that can promise to stay with him for better or worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickeness and in health, till death do us part.

"Baby... Ken... Alam nating dalawa na hindi dapat ako ang babaeng pakakasalan mo. May iba pang babaeng nakalaan para sayo kase hanggang dito na lang ako. Hindi na kita kayang samahan hanggang dulo kase ito na ang hangganan ko. Someone is worthy of that ring of yours. Someone is worth to be love by you Ken, you know that"

Nanatili syang nakaluhod at nakatungo.

"I love you so damn much" he whisper as he kissed me.

So needing.

So deep.

Lahat ng emosyon at pagmamahal nya ibinuhos nya na sa paraan ng pagbalik nya sakin.

"You need to let me go already" I whispered in broke voice.

Nagsend na ako ng message sa family ko incase na hindi ako abutin hanggang makakapag kami sa Pilipinas.

"I vow to love you forever baby" saad ko

Ramdam ko ag tuluyang panghihina ng katawan ko. Bagsak na bagsak na ako. Pakiramdam ko ay tumigil ang oras maging ang pagikot ng mundo. Unti unti na ring bumibigat ang talukap ng mata ko.

"Iloveyou Kendrick Chua, I will n-never regret l-loving you w-with all of my heart."

"N-no... Charmane no... D-don't leave me..." humahagulgol nyang litanya.

Sa susunod kong buhay hayaan mong hanapin kita at mahalin muli sa loob ng mahabang panahon.

Hinayaan ko ng sumara ang mata ko, at tuluyan ko ng isinuko ang katawan ko.