Ambushed Heart

Ten

Isang nakakabinging katahimikan ang yumakap sa aming tatlo dahil sa sinabi ni Hiro. Walang gustong magsalita at mag komento. I cant even say a word, I feel like Hiro is just telling a joke with a face that says 'I am f*****g telling a f*****g truth!'

"Okay? Haha Tatawa naba kami? Is it a joke?" I said when Hiro did not talk after that. Malay ko baka nalate lang yung 'joke, joke joke!'

"I-I am telling the truth" Hiro said na parang hirap na hirap siyang sabihin yun. Teleserye lang te?

Chad is still silent na Para bang may iniisip na sobrang lalim. Pwede po padive jan sa iniisip mo koya? Ang lalim eh. Ay ano ba yan!

"Nang gogood time ka ba? Hiro you're a man"

Is it a joke? 'Cause If it's just a joke, talagang tatamaan sa akin tong si Hiro sa panga, kasi onti onti na akong naniniwala eh. I know its kind of impossible but I have never seen him na ganito ka seryoso.

"I perfectly know that"

"Then how can you say that you're pregnant?! In the first place ay wala ka namang matres" mahinahon kong sabi kay Hiro.

"I-I have"

"huh? May hindi ka ba sinasabi sa akin?" I asked him.

"nagpatrans ka ba?" This is the only possible answer that I have.

"I havent" sabi nito na sinabayan pa ng sunod sunod na pag iling.

"I am experiencing the pregnant symptoms, at wala naman tayong buntis dito sa bahay"

"Maybe there's another explanation unto that, magpacheck up tayo---"

"True Hermaphroditism"

Sabay kaming napalingon ni Hiro sa nagsasalitang si Chad na para bang hangin ang kausap nito. Hala, nababaliw na ba to?

"True what?"

"S-sana hindi nyo ako husgahan, I-I never wanted it C-Chad---"

Napatingin ako kay Hiro na umiiyak at nakatingin ito kay Chad na para bang lutang sa mga nangyayari. Nagsasalita pero wala naman sa sarili.

"Okay? Pwede bang paki english ng usapan nyo? What is True chuchu na yan? Porket pareho kayong doctor at nagkakaintindihan kayo ay iaaout of place nyo na ako, sana all diba?"

"Y-you're pregnant! I'm going to be a father?" Chad said na para bang surprise na surprise siya. He's like a curious kid na nagsisimula nang mang-usisa sa mga bagay bagay sa paligid. What the heck?

"Huh? Anong pregnant? Hay nako Chad isa ka pa, sasakyan mo pa yung joke ni Hi---"

"I'm sorry, please dont leave me---"

Agad na napatingin sa kanya si Chad, this time happiness is written on his face. Huh? Ano na? Totoo ba to?

"Hey, dont say sorry, I wont leave you! I'm happy actually, I'm going to be a father"

Chad look at him lovingly.

"I love you babe! Thank you!"

"You're not mad?" Tila namamangha at relief na sabi ni Hiro.

"Why would I be mad?"

"Because I'm not norm---"

"Hey, hey, having true hermaphroditism doesnt make you of a less normal person"

He sighed.

"You should have told me earlier."

Akmang magtatagpo ang kanilang labi ng magsalita ako. Duh? Andito pa kaya ako na wala paring ma gets tapos sila magchuchukchakan na? Aba? Mga walang puso-- okay enough of my craziness,

"Hep! Hep!" I said as I stop them.

"Okay, guys? Baka pwedeng patranslate? Diko kasi kayo ma-gets baka lang naman? Pwede ba? Kasi nalilito na ako eh kung iisipin ko bang joke to o ano."

Their gaze turn into me. 

Agad na lumapit sa akin si Hiro at hinawakan ang kamay ko tsaka ako iginiya paupo.

Inexplain nila saakin lahat ng dapat iexplain, at ako? Ayun nganga, basta buntis si Hiro--- totoong buntis at hindi biro, yun lang ang naintindihan ko. Hayss. 

Tsaka ang importante nasabi na niya saamin, siguradong tinatago niya yun kasi ayaw niyang husgahan namin sya. Hay nako.

Sumakit ulo ko dun ah, but I'm happy nonetheless, magiging tita na ako!! I'm sure na maiispoil ang bata sa akin.

Operation make Hiro happy!

It's already 12:30 AM at kakatapos lang namin mag lunch nang biglang tumunog ang aking cellphone. Clever is calling!!!

The excitement that I felt makes my hands tremble. 

The excitement that I felt makes my knees trembled at feeling ko nagkakaroon ng sirkus sa loob ng tyan ko na para akong nasusuka.

Agad ko naman sinagot ang tawag.

"Hel---"

"Where the heck are you? Hobby mo ba talagang iwan ako ha?!"

I wasnt able to finish my sentence when he growled like an angry lion, ano bang ginawa ko? 

"C-Clever, what are you talking about?"

"Really you're gonna ask me that? You're not in  the hospital anymore! Ano, masaya bang mang iwan?! Ilang beses mo ba akong iiwan?! Do I deserve this? Please stop it already, kung iiwan mo lang din ako, wag ka nalang magpakita sakin" his last words became a whisper.

"No, of course not, I am---"

"Bullshit! You've been telling me bullshit since then, I dont want you to protect me Amelie, that's my job plea----"

"Nasa bahay lang naman ako eh" I said interrupting him.. diko alam kung bakit ayaw ko na naririnig siuang nagmamakaawa. Ano ba yan ang arte ko hehe.

"W-What?!"

"I've beem trying to tell you pero sigaw ka ng sigaw, Sabi ko di naman kita iniwan. Nagpadischarge na kami kasi ayaw na ni Hiro sa Hospital he insisted to go home"

"Then, why the hell you did'nt tell me? You could have called me, you have my number"

"I'm sorry, nakalimutan ko kasi ang daming nangyari and revelations"

"Revelations?" Clever asked, curiosity was visible on his voice.

"Sorry, its not my secret to tell"

He sighed.

"Okay, Send me the address."

"O-ok----" 

Hindi ko pa nga natatapos ang sasabihin ko ay agad na niyang pinatay ang tawag.

I pouted at agad din namang itinext ang address ng bahay kay Clever.

After Hiro told me that I am suffering an amnesia, and the anger in Clever's voice, pati na rin ang pagtatampo sa boses nina Valleus at Vhirtues, I have already a theory in my mind. Theologist yarn? Pero seryoso.

Hiro told me that I lost one year of my memory and its possible na in a span of a year ay naging isang mahalagang parte ng buhay ko si Clever, he may be became a closest friend or---- boyfriend, but it's just a theory. 

I need to know the truth, I have to gain back the piece of my mind that was stolen. I have to gain back my memory to make sure of everything.

After like 30 minutes, a loud sound of a car beeping came, when I opened the window of my room, I saw clever's car on the gate. Because of that, agad akong bumaba at tinungo ang gate upang buksam ito para makapasok si Clever at agad ko namang tinuro sa kanya kung saan niya pwede i-park ang kanyang kotse.

When he already parked his car ay dali dali syang lumabas ng kaniyang sasakyan at napatulala nalang ako sa sunod niyang ginawa.

Sinugod niya ako ng isang napaka higpit na yakap, and I was just there standing in shock and asking why did he hugged me like he's afraid to lose me........ again.

Unti-unti kong inangat ang mga kamay ko at sinuklian ang mahigpit niyang pagkakayakap sa akin. After a whole minute, dahan dahan kong iginalaw ang mga kamay ko sa kaniyang likod para hagurin iyon.

"P-please, please have mercy on me and d-dont ever l-leave me again" he said, pleading, crying and full of sadness.

"I-i dont know what to d-do in the past year. I nearly l-lost my sanity, thinking w-what could be your p-possible reason for l-leaving like that, for leaving me w-without telling me. I-it really hurts" 

he explained and I was just there carresing his back, because I dont know what to do or what to say kasi di ko naman maalala ang pinagmumulan niya.

It really hurts talaga ang magmahal ng ganire. Tsk really na talaga pa. 

"Y-you promised, you promised me! Sabi mo kahit anong mangyayari walang iwanan, kahit pumuti pa ang uwak o maging isa ang galamay ng octopos, you said it babe, and I believe you, tapos ngayon, malalaman ko, na ako pala yung dahilan, I wasnt strong e-enough to p-protect you and what we h-have, I am sorry for being weak. But now, now that I am strong enough, I p-promise to protect you, with all that I have, I would even risk my own life" 

Mahabang lintaya niya. But wait, siya ang dahilan? And he's stronger enough? I am curious but I dont want to ask baka mag bleed na naman ako at mag alala na naman si Hiro, buntis pa naman yun.

"Don't say that, you dont have to, I can protect myself just fine"

"I am really sorry" sabi niya tsaka kumalas sa pagkakayakap sa akin, now he is holding both my shoulders while he is intently looking at me.

"Hey its okay, I may not remember anything and my reason for leaving but I know I have reasons and that would be the best move to get everyone safe" I said, trying to calm him down.

I know myself, I would always decide for the safety of everyone.

Nang dahan dahan na siyang huminto sa pag-iyak ay agad ko siyang iginiya papasok sa bahay.

"Have you already eat?" I asked him.

Isang mahinang pag-iling lang ang binigay nito sakin kaya idineretso ko na siya sa kusina at inihanda siya ng pagkain.

"Here eat" sabi ko.

Madali naman siyang kausap dahil dali dali niyang kinain ang pagkain. Kala mo hindi pinakain ng buong araw eh o parang inaagawan, ang bilis ng bawat subo niya.

"Kailan ka ba huling kumain? Bat parang gutom na gutom ka?" 

"Kahapon ng umaga" maikling sabi nito at bumalik sa pagsubo.

Kaya pala kasi walang agahan, anong oras na tsaka breakfast is the important meal of the day noh.

Ilang minutong katahimikan ang bumalot samin at nabasag lamang ito ng bigla siyang umubo, agad agad ko siyang inabutan ng tubig.

"Dahan dahan lang kasi, hindi ka naman inaagawan eh" marahang sabi ko habang hinahagod ang likod niya.

pagkalipas ng ilan pang minuto ay natapos na siya. Agad kong hinugasan ang kinainan niya, habang siya ay pinanatili ko lang na naka upo.

"gusto mo bang mag toothbrush?" Tanong ko rito.

"I could buy you a toothbrush, malapit lang naman ang store dito"

"I can use yours"

"what?" I asked, why would he use my toothbrush?

"what? You use to use my toothbrush"

Is there a friend who uses a toothbrush of another friend? I think he is not just a friend.

"Oh, okay"

Agad kong ibinigay sa kanya ang toothbrush ko, when he have finished brushing his teeth, ay agad ko rin siyang iginiya papasok sa kwarto ko.

"I t-thought, you dont want to see me anymore?"

I asked him nang maka upo kami sa kama ko. I am worried of what will be his answer. Baka mamaya sabihin niya... this will be our last meet. 'Wwag naman sana.

"I c-can't. I dont really mean it. Nadala lang ako sa sobrang emosyon. And I have already suffered a year without you and baby, I'm telling you, it was hellish and I dont want a repeat of that. Its like a nightmare!" He said it while his voice were trembling, like he remebered the worst days of his life. Or like he is a small kid who remembers a ghost from one of his dream.

"I t-told myself that I should hate you, but I just cant and then, Hiro talk to me, he explained everything to me, and I am so sorry for thinking bad about your decision to leave me. I'm sooo sorry for not knowing everything before saying anything, Im so sorry na nagpadala ako sa galit kaya hindi agad kita hinanap, I am really really sorr--"

"Shh" I said and hug him and carress his back.

"Its okay, everything's going to be fine" I said in a soothing voice.

"I trust you" eight letters, three words and three syllables but it made my heart jump in joy. To hear those words was a relief. I dont even know why! Its like I have heard it a countless of times from him but today it has more emotion.

"Thank you" medyo pumiyok pa ang boses ko pagkasabi ko nun.

"Why havent you ask what am I to you?" He asked, still hugging me tightly.

"I mean, Hiro did told me that you have an amnesia so, you must have forgot who I am to you."

"Because I already have a guess. But I still want to hear it from you" I said, kaya naman ay kumalas sya sa pagkakayakap sa akin at mataman akong tinitigan.

"Care to tell me your guess?"

"Well, from what Hiro said, that I have lost a year of my memory, and to V1 and V2's anger or siguro tampo---"

"Have you meet the two? They only give me your number telling me to call you, but I dont really know that its you, nalaman ko lang nang marinig ko ang boses mo"

"Si Valleus lang ang nakita ko, doon sa Tudor, doon ko binigay ang number ko, you know to catch up and nung gabi nun tumawag siya sakin, he is with Vhirteus tapos parang galit si Vhirtues at nagtatampo naman si Valleus"

"Ohkay, continue"

"And syempre, from the anger from you" I said and pause to look straight to his eyes.

his eyes says he's sorry but he did not open his mouth to talk even a single word so I continue.

"Naisip ko na in a span of a year which is yung lost memory ko ay naging malapit ka sa akin at naging isang mahalagang bahagi ng buhay ko, but I still need a confirmation. Dalawa kasi ang hula ko"

"And that were?"

"You are my closest friend or...... my boyfriend"

He cutely chuckled. Shems, pogii.

"Ask me" he said. Ang OA naman nito, kailangan pa talaga tanungin? Kung hindi lang kita mahal baka binangasan na kit--- holy shiaa---- wait, what did I just said?! Mamaya na nga yan, tsk.

"Who are you? Why do my heart react differently when I saw you?"

"I am Clever Wayys--" he paused and look straight to my eyes. His eyes shouts longingness.... for me. 

"Mr. H and H--" 

I chuckled, that was the nick name that I gave him when I first saw him on the hotel, the night that he got kidn*pped by his own bastard uncle, and the night when he was mesmerized by my beauty--- ay char HAHAHAHA.

"It stands for----"

"Mr. Hot and handsome" pagpapatuloy ko na ikinangiti niya.

"I am the CEO----"

"Cleve, I already know everything about your business, that was my first task when I am assigned to protect you--- to know everything about you, what I am asking you is, who are you in my life-- just-- just tell me!" I said getting impatient.

He chuckled and amusement was visible on his handsome face.

"Ah, you're getting impatient, why do I like it?"

"Cleve, I'm not joking" may babala sa boses ko.

"Baby, are you curious?"

"Of course I am!"

"Curiousity kills a cat, you say"

"Mukha naman kasing pusa yung federick na 'yon eh, tsaka Im not a cat, so no worries, it wont kill me. Tsaka duh? I am too beautiful to be a cat yeah?"

"Of course you are" he said. Halata ang paghanga sa kaniyang boses. Siguro iniisip nito na ang hangin ko masyado. Oh, well. Hindi naman ako mahangin, showy lang hehe. Totoo naman kasing kakaiba ang angkin kong kagandahan.

"Call me 'baby' first" he demanded,

So I did. "Baby...." it came out naturally, like he doesnt have to demand for it.

 he smiled and I did too.

"Baby damulag" dagdag ko.

I burst out into laughter when I saw his face, his face says like 'what the heck did you just call me?'

"Sweetheart! We're having a moment here! You just ruined it!" Sabi niya na para bang batang hindi binigyan ng kendi ng nanay niya, pero may sinusupil namang mga ngiti, Ah, how I love to see him like this.

I sighed.

"Ang lalim naman ng buntong hininga mo, mind telling me?"

"Nothing, I just feel like its natural for me to tease you"

"You always tease me. Sabi mo pa nga hindi mo mapigilan kasi everytime na lumalapit ako sayo para bang sinasabi ko na kailangan mo akong i-bully" he said reminicing the past.

I smiled.

"Sana bumalik na ang ala-ala ko" I sadly said.

"Im sorry baby"

"Dont say sorry, hindi naman natin ginusto ang nangyari eh, tsaka..." seryoso kong sabi ngunit binitin ko ito

"..... hindi marunong magsorry si damulag"

I burst out into laughter again when I saw his face. Parang nagtitimpi na ewan.

"babe!"

"Okay, okay, Im just kidding, now tell me already. Who are you in my life?"

"I am your boss--"

"Yeah, I do remember being your secretary because you are afraid that your dad might send you a full uniform bodyguards that will follow you even on the outside of a comfort room" I said as I remembered the old days.

"I am not your boss just because of that"

"What do you mean?"

"You're not yet ready to hear it, I want you to remember it by yourself"

"Come on just tell me"

"Nope"

"Then, tell me. Who are you in my life?"

"Me?" He said and smile.

"You once said yes to me, but I thought you have lost the ring" he said still looking at me who's face is asking, 'huh?'

"Baby, I am not just your closest friend or some boyfriend......" 

so ano ko siya? Kinakapatid? Uncle? Ay s**t.

"I am your fiance"

He said as he slid a very beautiful and big diamond engagement ring on my right ring finger.

"W-what!?"