Chapter 12
1450 Words
Chapter 12
May 8,2019
It is my birthday today! It's been a month since he gave up on me. I can still feel pain everytime I hear his name but I easily accepted it.
It's summer. Wala akong masyadong ginagawa dito sa bahay. Hindi pa kami nakakapag out of town dahil nagpaplano palang ang aking pamilya. Sa ngayon ay wala akong kasama dito sa bahay dahil nagrocery sila para sa kaunting salo salo mamaya.
I strolled in my social media accounts, replying to some greetings in my wall.
I don't know why pero I kinda feel sad kahit na lahat naman ng kakilala ko binati na ako. Parang may kulang? Hays nvm.
It's almost 3 o'clock ng makauwi sila dad galing grocery. Agad na nagluto sila dad kasama ang iba kong tita. I was shocked na may nakita akong alak. s**t I want some. Tagal na since nakainom ako neto. Mga one month ago joke.
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7 pm ng magumpisa ang party. Andaming pumunta. I invited some of my classmates and friends.
"Happy Birthday." Sambit sa akin ng mga bisita na pumapasok.
Ngalay na ang labi ko kakangiti. It's my birthday, but why does it feel incomplete?
Nakakalungkot hindi ko alam kung bakit. Basta parang meron talagang kulang sa puso ko. Lahat naman ng kaibigan ko andito, bat di ako masaya?
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The party went well, nagpaiwan mga kaibigan ko para sa drinks. Pinayagan kami ni papa na maginuman ngayon.
Andito kami sa bakuran at naglagay ng table at mga upuan.
Andaming alak! Ang sarap magpakalunod para naman madama ko na birthday ko talaga.
We started to drink at 9pm. Kasama ko uminom sila Diane at Mae as usual. Andito din sila Kath, Kyla, Justin and John.
Yes si John. Yung ex ko. I told you that we are friends before. We are best friend. Pero nasira dahil nga sa mas pinursue niya na maging girlfriend ako. But atleast we're okay now. Nalaman niya rin yung about samin ni boy ( the name I don't want to talk about) at okay lang daw sakanya.
"Shena, bat di mo ininvite si Kier?" Sambit ni Kath na nakapagpakabog ng puso ko. s**t, di niya pa pala alam na wala na kami. Bigla akong nakaramdam ng kirot ng narinig ko ang pangalan niya. Napansin ko ang tingin nila Diane na para bang nag aalala.
"Ahhh." Tanging nasambit ko ngunit si Mae na ang sumagot para sa akin.
"Wala na sila one month ago pa."
"Oh. I'm sorry I didn't know." Sambit ni Kath ng maintindihan niya kung bakit hindi ako nakasagot.
"It's okay. Let's loosen up today because it's my birthday!! Let's not talk about someone na wala naman dito." I said pretending that it doesn't hurt hearing his name.
I connected my phone on the speaker and shuffled songs from my playlist. But for god sake, ang kantang tumunog ay ang Hericane by Lany. The first song that made me remind him. The first ride in his f*****g bmw.
I quickly clicked next and it plays a chill song from a local artist.
The next thing I remember is my friends getting wilder. The starts to dance from their sit while laughing. Sinabayan ko nalang sila sa ginagawa nila. Well this is freaking fun! I kinda felt dizzy but it's fine, this is what I call a happy birthday.
It was nearly 12 am when we finished our drinks. Matatapos na ang birthday ko! I am officially 17 years old! 1 year to go and I can do whatever I want!
Tinulungan nila ako magayos ng mga pinaginuman namin. Pansin ko na lasing na si Kath at di na makalakad ng maayos. Dito matutulog sila Mae kaya pinauna ko na sila sa kwarto para makapaglinis ng katawan.
Inihatid ko sila John at Kath sa dulo ng kanto namin at mag isang bumalik sa bahay.
Nang pauwi ako sa bahay ay parang may naramdaman akong sumusunod sa akin. f**k bat ba kasi lumabas pa ako ng gantong oras? It's freaking 12 am!
Tumingin ako sa likod ngunit wala naman akong nakita. Kinakabahan na ako. Ayoko pang mamatay kaka17 ko palang. And I don't wanna die virgin! Gusto ko pa makaramdam ng parang dinadala ako sa langit. What the freak! Is this the effect of alcohol? Nasa delikadong sitwasyon na ako pero kung ano ano pang kababuyan naiisip ko.
Sinimulan ko magmadali para makarating na sa bahay ng may humila sa akin papunta sa madilim na parte ng street.
We stopped.
I smell something familliar.
A scent that I want to forget.
I can feel my heart going wild. When I felt a hot breath in my neck.
Shit!
Unti unti niya akong iniharap sakanya.
I knew it.
But why? Oh god why?!
Why does I freaking feel relieved and happy at the same time, when I saw this lovely face in front of me?
The beautiful face that I loved.
I still love.
I can feel some tears pooling in my eyes when he hugged me oh so tight.
Hindi ako makapalag.
Nanghihina ako.
I felt home.
In his arms.
"Hey. Happy birthday." That was the voice I'm trying to forget. I don't know what to say, he just gave me a box. A gift.
I don't want to lie. I feel happy that he is here, in front of me.
I hugged him. He was stunned but he still hug me back.
"Thank you." I said and looked in his eyes. "Uhm.... Got to go." Nag aalinlangang sabi ko. Papatalikod palang ako ngunit agad niya akong hinila paharap sakanya.
"Can we talk?" Sambit niya.
"It's late. Di ba pwedeng ipagpabukas nalang to?" Sambit ko. Baka kasi hanapin ako sa amin.
"Please? I want it right now. I fvcking miss you, love." He said with a soft longing voice that sent shivers down my spine.
Dapat galit ako e! Kasi diba niloko niya ako? But why am I so soft to him right now? All I want to do is hug him and tell him that i miss him more.
Bakit ang rupok ko?
"First, I'm sorry. I never cheated. I am also shocked that Alyanna kissed me. I'm alone there. Waiting for your text. I know you will go there that's why I want to surprise you. But you know, it was messed up." He said.
Wala akong galit na naramdaman. Sakit meron pero I felt relieved and I understand him. Pero bakit di niya sinabi agad?
"Why didn't you tell me about that? You know I'll listen." Sambit ko.
"Baby, you're so hurt and angry that time. I tried to explain but all you did was lash out at me and telling me that you don't want me in your life." He said with a sad eyes.
"I'm sorry, I should've listened to you." I said while staring at the ground. He hold my chin up and made me look at his eyes.
" It doesn't matter baby, at least you are here now. With me." He calmly said
"I want you back. I miss you so much, love. I've been miserable without you." I said and hugged him. I buried my face in his chest and starts crying.
"Shhh, don't cry. I'm now here. I love you so much. I've been so miserable too when you said that you don't want me. And..... When saw you crying." He said while comforting me.
I just cried more when I felt that my heart is filled. He is all that I need.
"I want you back, too. I always stalk you from afar. It's like my days aren't complete when I don't saw you smile." He said and kissed my forehead. I looked at him.
"I'm here. You are mine again. And as always. Hinding hindi na ako papayag na mawala ka pa sa akin. Kasi mababaliw na ako pag nangyari ulit yon." Sambit niya at siniil ako ng halik. I feel the butterflies in my stomach alive again.
I kissed him back and he starts to enter i
his tongue in my mouth. Here it is, the tingling sensation I always felt in him every time he kiss me like this.
I starts to brushed his hair with my hand. His hand is in my back and the other one is in the back of my neck. I stop to gasp some air and I smiled at him like what I usually do.
He opened his phone and took a picture of us.
"May 9, 12:11 am." He said and gave me a smack. "You are mine, now and forever."
TO BE CONTINUED.
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ANO? NAGUSTUHAN NIYO BA ANG ROLLER COASTER RIDE NG RELASYON NILA KIER AT SHENA?
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