Borrowed Love

Chapter 21 Yours and mine

Rox Wilford

I never thought I would enjoy this simple roaming around and shopping in a local market. I had a great time with her for simply eating out in the street.

In all of my previous relationships ngayon ko lang naranasan ang maging relax, just enjoying the moment.

I want to buy something for her kaya lang ayaw niya ng binibigyan siya. She thinks binibili siya kaya I am careful of my actions.

We ended up so flat and tired after a long day of just roaming around.

The next day becomes more exciting. We go swimming and snorkeling. Gusto kong matry niya ito. I know she loves nature and this trip would be her first. Gusto ko ako ang kasama niya in all of her first.

Kita ko kung paano siya nabighani sa kapaligiran. She is so amaze sa lahat ng nakikita as we tour around the water. Lalo ng nag jet'ski kami.

When we go swimming, tinuruan siya ng mga instructors at nakabantay lang ako sa kanya. She learned fast.

"Rox ang ganda sa ilalim, ang gaganda ng kulay ng mga isda at coral reefs at ang dami nila."

Mangha niyang sabi ng nakaahon kami galing underwater. She is so fascinated in simple things na di ko nakikita sa ibang babae na aking nakasama before.

Those women are after the luxurious things, materials things that I can give and just a superficial like their attitude.

"Yeah it always amazing looking the view down below. This is one of the things na gusto kong gawin if I got time and now that may kasama na ako sa pamamasyal sa dagat, we can find time to do this often for relaxation.

"Talaga? Di lang ito ang huli?" Kita ko anticipation sa kanyang mukha. How I love to see her like that, a genuine happiness.

"Of course, we have plenty of time to do that."

She is really excited, one thing na di ko nakita in my previous relationship. Kaya di ako napasyal sa ganito kasi ayaw nila. I haven't seen the interest as I saw in Yama's reaction.

All they care about is their figure, their skin and hair, baka masira sa init at dagat. Ang daming kaartihan.

Yama has a bubbly personality, out going. Marunong makibagay sa panahon at madaling makapagpalagayan ng loob.

She likes adventures, di nga lang niya magawa ang ang mga gusto kasi walang capacity. She has plenty of responsibility in her hand.

We were enjoying ourselves in the water. I saw her uminum ng tubig sa banka kaya I talked to the divers to get their number coz I wanted to get their service again once magka-time kami. We can just go anytime we want, pahatid lang kami sa chopper directly sa place.

Di ko namalayan na natagalan na pala ako sa pakipag-usap sa mga crew.

I look around, di ko nakita si Yama.

"Jeffrey, have you seen you Mam Yama? Tanong ko sa aking close in bodyguard.

"Ahh kanina andito lang yun eh sir lumalangoy."

"What nakalangoy na siya from the banka kanina?"

"Yes sir"

Ang kaba ko di mawari, ang lakas ng pintig nito.

"Jeffrey, help me find her and ask the other crew to search for her."

I go down immediately, hinahanap ko siya. Di ko maintindihan ang aking naramdaman, andun yung takot.

"Yama, where are you?" Sigaw ng aking isipan.

I keep looking around, paddling myself to the distance and going underwater.

Then I suddenly saw a figure na di kumikilos. Bigla tumubo ang sobrang kaba ko. I know it's her.

I swim faster to her spot as fast as i could. Nang naaninag ko na siya I hold her immediately.

"God please okay lang sana siya." When I hold her at di siya halos makakilos, i sense something wrong. I held her immediately, binugahan ko siya agad ng hangin while holding her going up.

Ang pintig ng puso ko nag-uunahan.

Pagdating namin sa taas. She is crying, nahihirapan huminga. That when I knew that she is just holding her breath of a long time.

I know ilang seconds nalang bibigay na siya kung di ko siya agad nabugahan ng hangin.

"Rox, muntik na ako dun mamatay. Akala ko katapusan ko na." She is crying so hard. I can't help myself but to hug her tight, to comfort her.

"Shush, calm down. You are safe now. I'm here." I just hug her as she clung to me for support.

Gusto kong nagalit pero mas nanaig ang takot ko at pag-alala para sa kanya. I know she just went through a lot back in the water and she fought real good to survive.

"I'm so sorry Rox, naging matigas ang ulo ko. Di ako nakinig at di kita sinunod na di lalayo sayo or sa mga diver. Akala ko kaya ko na mag-isa."

Gusto ko mang magalit sa kanya pero mas nanaig ang galit ko sa aking sarili. Coz it's my negligence.

"f**k. You made me nervous back there, I almost lose you. Di ko mapapatawad ang sarili kapag may nangyari sayo."

Yeah I can't forgive myself and I can't even imagine losing her in my own watch.

"What happened? Bakit naging ganun?"

"Everything was okay, feeling ko kaya ko ng mag-isang lumangoy. Bigla akong pinulikat nong andun na ako sa ilalim. Sinubukan kong iahon ang sarili sa abot ng aking makakaya pero di ko maigalaw." Salaysay niya sa nangyari and I'm just listening to her.

"I look around pero wala akong nakita. I'm almost gonna give up kasi nauubusan na ako ng hangin. Kanina pa ako sa baba. Hanggang sa dumating ka. Kaya thank you for saving my life."

Oh goodness. I'm just right on time. Kung di ako dumating di ko alam ang ano na ang nangyari.

I just keep holding her, ayaw kong mawala siya sa aking pananaw or sa aking pandama.

Di na kami bumalik sa dagat. The event brought us a traumatic experience.

We decided to go home to retire early for a night. After we settled everything and on the way na kami matutulog, di parin nawawala yun sa aking isipan.

The way I saw her body lifeless, floating in the water gives me chills.

Sari sari ang umukilkil sa aking utak. I know di ako makatulog dahil dun kaya uminum ako ng alak to help me calm down.

Nakita ko siyang lumabas sa banyo, nakabathrobe. She really looks fresh and seems okay.

I saw her blowing her hair. Kaya kinuha ko yun to give her a good blow dry.

Her hair is really nice. I carefully do it. She seems to be enjoying what I do and makes her sleepy.

I never have done like this to any woman before. I was never a sweet guy or being gentle towards them. But with Yama I can't help but to be gentle on her and want to show her the best of me.

"Come on let's go to bed. I know you are tired already and want to sleep." Nakita ko na she is nodding, nagustuhan ang paghagud ko sa kanyang buhok.

As she went down to bed. I pulled her close to me. Naging habit ko ng matulog with her in my arms or so close to me.

"I just want to hold you like this, feel your body next to me to let me know that you are just here. That scene keeps repeating in my mind and I'm nervous babe." Sabi ko sa kanya sa aking naramdaman, di siya madaling alisin sa aking isipan.

"Ako din Rox, di siya mawawala sa aking isipan at nagbibigay ng takot sa aking puso." I understand because it's her who experiences almost death.

"Rox gusto kong mapalitan ang nangyari ng isang magandang alaala. Ariin mo ako. Make me forget what happened and replace that memory with a good one."

I was shocked on her request. I never thought she would think this way.

Di ako makapagsalita agad.

"Balang araw, darating din tayo sa ganito at gusto ko ngayon na gawin para mapalitan ang masamang nangyari sa araw na ito. Para kapag maalala ko ang lugar na ito, di yun ang unang magregister sa aking utak kundi ang isang magandang alaala."

"Are you sure, you are ready for this?" She nods with certainty in her reaction.

I turn sideways to look at her in the eye. It showed firmness in her decision.

"I'll make this memorable for us and that scene will be forever replace with such a good memory of us. Are you ready?"

I want her to be sure, ayokong pilitin siya sa bagay na di pa sya handa coz I already force her to be in this situation but I'm so happy my plan work. I already got into her, we are on a different level now.

"Yes Rox I am ready, claim me, make me yours tonight." Sabi niya ng matiim sa aking mga mata as I looked at her closely.

"I am and you are forever mine beginning tonight." Di ko na siya bibitawan pa.

In that night we made love. We lose ourselves in the passion and incredible feeling called love. I show my deep feelings for her in my actions.

It was an amazing feeling. First kong naramdaman ang ganun intensity. An enormous feeling that is hard to explain.

Truly what I had felt for her is not something ordinary, it's beyond what I imagine. Nakatulog kaming may parehong ngiti sa labi, satisfied ika nga.

I woke up earlier than her. Feeling so light and refreshed. I look at her besides me. She is still clinging to me.

Indeed, what happened in the water was replaced by much better memories. Every time I think of this day, it was our love making that will register in my mind and she was right.

I can't help myself to kiss her. Umungot lang siya and that made me want to tease her more .

I kisses her again, that made her woke up.

"Good morning;" bati ko sa kanya. "Sorry for disturbing your great sleep." Nakangiti kong sabi.

"Okay lang. Anong oras na ba?"

"It's still early babe. Just around 3 o'clock in the morning. Sorry for waking you up. Ang cute kasi mong tingnan and your little snores."

"Humihilik ako?" Nanlalaki ng mga mata niyang sabi. Di makapaniwala.

"Yeah a cute one." Nakangiti kong sabi. I hug her closer to me. I'm loving this moment na kaya ko na siyang basta nalang halikan at yakapin.

"How are you feeling?" Hmm I see her face getting red as I reminded her of what happened last night.

"Don't be shy with me. We pass that stage already. We are more than that now." Paalala ko sa kanya. I kiss her again coz di ko mapigilang manggigil sa kanya.

"Rox di pa ako nagmomog or nagtoothbrush." Reklamo pa niya.

"Why, di pa naman ako nagtoothbrush din ah but I still did kisses you." Nakita ko ang pagsimangot niya. Nahihiya.

"Last night was a night to remember. I would never forget our first. You are now the most important woman in my life, so feel free to talk to me about anything. I wanted to know you more and understand you more." Saying it seriously while looking intimately in her eyes.

"Remember I'm yours and you're mine now. I offer you what i had." I never had done this to any woman before, showing my soft sides na pwede akong masaktan. But for her, I'm willing to take them all even it means my fall.

She deserves all what I have. I simply loved her, that's all I can say.