Forcedly Yours

Chapter Eighteen

Walang anu-anong hinubad niya ang jacket sa akin. Agad na napayakap ako sa hubad kong katawan. Nanikip lalo ang dibdib ko nang binigyan niya ang katawan ko ng malisyosong tingin. He looked at me as if I was dirty.

Please stop looking at me like that! Sigaw ko sa isip. Sa halip ay patuloy ang pag-iyak ko.

He wrapped his hand around my throat. He was not choking me but the threat was there. He can crush my windpipes if he wants to.

"Have I been licking his f*****g c*m off your filthy little p***y this entire time, wife?" nanggagalaiting tanong niya.

My heart twisted at his accusation. Feeling ko ay masusuka ako sa pinagsasabi niya.

"P-Please...l-let me explain," nahihirapang magsalitang sabi ko.

"Let's hear it then. How did you end up naked here?" nawawalan ng pasensyang tanong niya. "You can't wait to lose your f*****g virginity and because I have not been f*****g you, you thought it would be the best idea to f**k him?" his voice was full of hate.

"I-I didn't mean to," I said still sobbing.

Bahagyang namilog ang mata ko nang narealize ang sinabi ko. I meant to tell him I didn't mean to end up naked in Mitch's room. I wanted to tell him about the incident in the post-op recovery room but I couldn't form the words as I sob uncontrollably.

Leyton mistook my reaction for guilt because his eyes turned from fire to ice.

Leyton gave me a slow, cold smile. "You don't realize what you've done, Kitten. I'm going to cut his fingers one by one and then I will f**k you in front of his dead body. But I won't stop there, I'll take you home and make you watch me f**k another woman," he gritted his teeth, eyes filled with malice when he saw my terror-filled face.

For some reason, mas takot ako sa huling banta niya. I can't imagine the pain of seeing him...touch someone else.

Somehow he knows about my weakness with the idea of him and someone else. Alam kong alam niya dahil may tagumpay sa mata niya nang makita niya ang ekspresyon sa mukha ko.

"You don't like that, wife?" he asked with a mocking smile. "I might let her teach you to please me properly, too," he added cruelly.

I sobbed and pleaded for him to retract his words through my eyes.

Pakiramdam ko ay tinutusok ng isang libong karayom ang dibdib ko. I felt suddenly insecure about what we've been doing intimately. I know was not experienced pero never niyang pinaramdam sa akin na hindi siya nasasatisfy. Hindi ko ata makakayanan ang paninikip ng dibdib ko.

Tinanggal niya ang sinturon at binaba ang zipper niya. I watched him with tears in my eyes as he grabbed both my legs and pinned me to the wall.

"Please don't be rough," I heard myself say in a panicked voice when I felt his manhood ready to enter me.

For some reason, I couldn't wait for him to take my virginity if that's what it would take to prove my innocence to him.

"I would have played with you and made you wet if you weren't a filthy w***e," he spits against my neck. "You want to know how I f**k, wife? This is how I f**k w****s," he said before plunging inside me in a brutal stroke making my back arch against the wall.

My lungs seemed to stop working as I felt the immediate agony. The pain was unbearable and indescribable as he pulled out and pushed back in brutal force again and again.

His eyes were angry and his jaw was clenching so hard as he f****d me in the most painful way imaginable. I never imagined losing my virginity would hurt this much.

"f**k," he gritted his teeth. "You.Are.Fucking.Mine." He said in between hard and deep strokes.

I love you. I love you. I love you.

I chanted in my head hoping he could hear my thoughts and realize that he didn't have to be this angry.

He bit and sucked on my throat and I know he was leaving marks. My skin was wet with sweat and his saliva.

My tears fell continuously as I watched his furious face. He groaned and glared at me when I accidentally clenched on his d**k. His lips curled viciously and f****d me harder. He thought I liked it. Oh god. I want the pain to stop. Make it stop.

Pinulupot ko ang mga braso sa balikat niya at binaon ang mukha sa leeg niya. I cried against his skin and prayed for him to finish.

After what felt like hours, his hands transferred to my butt as he buried himself inside me and it almost felt like he hit my womb. I cried in relief when I felt his release inside me.

He pushed me onto the bed and stayed on top of me for a few minutes to control his heavy breaths while kissing and licking my neck lazily and almost affectionately as if forgetting his anger.

He raised his head and looked at my tear-stained face after a moment.

His eyes flared as he seemed to have noticed my tears for the first time. Alam kong hindi niya gusto ang mga luha mo. He always hated to see me cry.

Lumayo siya ng bahagya sa akin. His polo was slightly wet due to my sweat. I winced, my eyes shut when pulled himself out of my body. My face contorted in pain and I looked away, not wanting him to see.

He noticed though because from my peripheral view, I could see him frown with his eyebrows drawn together before looking down on the insides of my thighs. Napatigil siya nang makita ang gitna ng hita ko.

He had a shocked look on his face and blinked as if he couldn't believe what he was seeing. I watched as his muscles tensed, his body refused to move for a moment.

Umiwas ako ng tingin ng ibalik niya ang mga mata sa akin.

He looked distressed and panicked as the reality of the situation sank in.

"s**t, s**t, s**t," paulit-ulit na sabi niya at niyakap ako ng mahigpit.

Hinaplos haplos niya ang nangiginig kong katawan in an attempt to comfort me. I could feel the slight shaking of his body, too.

"Fuck...baby, I'm so f*****g sorry," garalgal ang boses na sabi niya habang paulit-ulit hinalikan ang buong mukha ko. Almost like he wanted to erase the tears.

"P-Please let me go," nanghihinang sabi ko.

To my surprise, Leyton didn't argue and pulled away from me and stood up. He ran his hand through his hair as he looked at my body before cursing at the ceiling.

My eyes went to his unzipped pants, he was wearing all of his clothes the entire time while I was completely naked. I felt like what he described me earlier. A w***e. Someone who is not worth taking his clothes off for.

Sinundan niya ang mga mata ko at agad na napamura. His tortured eyes looked like it was him who was in pain. He zipped himself and promptly went to the bathroom.

May dala na siyang maliit at basang bimpo paglabas niya.

Iniwas ko ang tingin sa kanya nang lumuhod siya sa gilid ng kama.

"I'm...so f*****g sorry, baby," he choked as he wiped my blood off my inner thighs and cleaned me with shaking hands. "Do...do you want me to call a doctor?" nag-aalangang tanong niya nang mapangiwi ako matapos niya akong punasan.

Bumuntong hininga siya bago nakayukong sinandal ang ulo sa legs ko habang nakaluhod pa rin sa gilid ng kama.

Hindi ko siya pinansin at nanatiling nakatulala sa kisame. The shock of what happened sank into my brain. I recalled Mitch's bloodied face. It looked like he broke his nose, too. He was going out. He didn't know I was still in this small room. He was innocent.

What would have happened if I didn't stop my husband from grabbing the scalpel? He would have done real damage on Mitch's hands. Mitch would have lost everything he worked hard for. And I can't live with that guilt for the rest of my life.

My heart squeezed as I recall what Leyton said about making me watch him f**k another woman. Pa ulit-ulit kong naririnig ang boses niya sa utak ko. Somehow, 'yon ang pinakamasakit.

"Baby-,"

"G-gusto ko ng umuwi," mahinang sabi ko.

I was too embarassed to call a doctor. Para saan pa? I know I will heal. Physically, at least. Isa pa, hindi ko kakayanin ang mga magiging kwento kapag may nakaalam sa nangyari sa amin.

Nakita ko ang pagtango ni Leyton sa peripheral view ko.

"Do you need your mom?" marahang tanong niya.

I would have glared at him but I was too tired.

"Sa tingin mo ba'y gusto kong makita ako ng nanay ko sa ganitong sitwasyon?" napapagod at sarkatiskong tanong sa kanya.

Napahilamos siya gamit ang kamay niya at naramdaman ko ang titig niya.

I can only imagine how I look. Naked and sprawled on the bed, my thighs apart. Ni hindi ko na makuhang mahiya kahit na alam kong kitang-kita nya ang bawat sulok ng katawan ko. I felt numb and desolate.

"I will never doubt you again, wife," he said with deep remorse in his voice.

I could hear the words but I couldn't process them.

The only that played on repeat in my mind was the image of him with another woman. He implied I couldn't properly satisfy him, too. I felt small and insecure.

I don't know how we got here and I also don't know where we can go from here.