CHAPTER 04
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CHAPTER 04: The third and fourth promises
Take care of Zelo Miguel and always tell him that I love him and teach him new stuffs always, okay? Kasi wala na ako na magtuturo sakanya. Love you so much
It's been a three days since Gio's burial. Three days since I am trying to be happy for my family and son . Three days since I felt this longingness to hug him and the loneliness in my heart. Kung pwede lang sumunod sakanya sa kabilang buhay gagawin ko but I know it is wrong to do that. Gio and God will be mad at me and Zelo Miguel will be extremely sad and I cannot stand seeing my own son drowning in deep sorrow.
At ayoko nang dag dagan ang kalungkutan nang anak ko. Kahit hindi niya sabihin alam ko malungkot padin siya. Every single night when he sleeps pumupunta ako sa kwarto niya para tingnan ang kalagayan niya, if he is crying or if he can't sleep. And there isn't a night that he did not call Gio in his sleep.
He miss him so damn much as much as I miss him. I know that Gio, will always be in his Heart Mind and Soul no matter how many years it will pass.
"Mommy!" - speaking of my son. I saw him ran down on the stair from the second floor of our home
"Yes Love" - I greeted him at agad ko din naman siyang sinalubong. Niyakap niya ang binti ko, pero agad ko din namang kinalas yun at kinarga ko nalang siya. He is still a baby so it is fine and he is not that heavy.
"Mommy can you play the piano for me? Please..." - he said or rather it was a plea that I should play the piano for him since it's been a long time since I touched it. Of course I initially froze because of his sudden request but then again I smiled.
I promised Gio that I will make my, our son happy. Tell him that although he is in heaven he loves him so much and of course teach him new and fun things that he will enjoy.
And I will really do that. Wala nang ibang pwedeng gumawa noon kundi ako. I am Zelo Miguel's mother at hindi ko pwedeng pabayaan ang anak ko at lalong lalo na na hindi ko siya pwedeng ipa-alaga sa iba.
"Of course, love" - I agreed with a smile on my face, he also smiled at me like his wish has been granted. Naglakad na kami papunta sa piano at agad ko siyang pinaupo sa left side ng upuan at ako naman ang sa right side.
"What do you want me to play love?" - I ask him and he smiled. Suddenly, Zelo showed me Gio's phone. The spotify application is already open and I can clearly see a playlist entitled FOR MY LOVE. Mapapatakip na sana ako ng bibig para sana humikbi pero pinigilan ko ang sarili ko.
That man, he never really fails to surprise me.
"The first one on daddy Gio's list mommy" - my son said while smiling and I smiled as well, syempre habang pinipigilan ko ang mga luha sa mga mata ko. Alam na alam niya talaga na mawawala na siya. And honestly hindi ko padin nakakalimutan lahat. You know parang kahapon lang nangyari ang lahat. Parang kailan lang nandito siya sa tabi namin, parang kailan lang tumatawa pa siya at nagpapatawa.
Mahirap talagang tanggapin ang lahat ng nangyari at hindi ko alam kung hanggang kailan ito.
"So Scars by Sam Smit, love? Sure I know that song. You know your father taught me how to play this one" - I said and I saw my son's eyes twinkled. Napatawa nalang ako ng mahina at tska ko na inayos ang pagkakaupo ko. Nilapag ko ang aking kamay sa piano keys at pinikit ko ang aking mga mata saka ko sinabayan ang tugtog ng simpleng pag-hum muna saaking isipan hanggang sa lumabas nalang ng kusa sa aking bibig ang lyrics ng kanta.
I've cried a thousand tears, and here we are after the war
But we're so much better
Now the skies are clearer, now there's no more slammin' doors
[Chorus]
Now, I say
Dear Mother, how you've come so far
Your love has fixed all of our broken hearts
I hope you're proud, Mother, of what you've done
It's a lifelong lesson and I'm not pretendin' when I say
You cleared up my scars
You cleared up my scars
The first chorus, I finished it perfectly. I really like singing while playing the piano. I bring out emotions that you never thought it could be bought out. However, I can't help but to imagine that this song may represent me and my son.
[Verse 2]
This is for my father
From the older brother of your children made of three
Yeah, you've been so good to us
And showed us how to live and taught us to be free
But when Mother told you
That she didn't love you, all these bridges hit the sea
So you built another one
And helped us cross it, even though you were in need
[Chorus]
Now, I say
Dear Father, how you've come so far
Your love has fixed all of our broken hearts
I hope you're proud, Father, of what you've done
It's a lifelong lesson and I'm not pretendin' when I say
You cleared up my scars
You cleared up my scars
You cleared up my scars
You cleared up my scars
Dear Mother, how you've come so far
Your love has fixed all of our broken hearts
I hope you're proud, Mother, of what you've done
It's a lifelong lesson and I'm not pretendin' when I say
You cleared up my scars
Tinapos ko na ang kanta na may mga luha sa aking mga mata, damn. Those lyrics, those words have deeper meaning in it. Clearly this song represents our love story. When I love someone else yet he loves me, but instead of leaving he decided to stay and be stronger.
You are the reason why my scar has been healed and also why Gio has no scars. You are really annoying Gio. You said you wouldn't let me cry but that simple song you arranged first already made me cry. Are you really damn torturing me?
"Mommy I love you so much and Daddy Gio Loves you so much as well. So please don't cry" - Zelo said as he started wiping my tears away which instantly made me smile although I am crying
"I know love. And always remember that me and your daddy Gio loves you so much too. He loves us so much" - I said and he suddenly hugged me tight. He will always be here in our hearts. Niyakap ko din pabalik si Zelo pero ang isang kamay ko ay pinupunasan na ang luhang nagkalat nanaman sa aking pisngi
"So love do you want to learn how to play it?" - I asked him at mabilis pa sa alas kwatro siyang kumalas sa pagkaka-yakap saakin. Well, I can see glitters in his eyes and definitely it is a sign of happiness.
"Of course Mommy!" - he exclaimed which made me let out a small chuckle
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