Traitor (Unhappy Series #1)

Prologue My eyes are on the roof. Staring on the white roof of our dorm. Why do people always stare on the roof with a lot of questions in their minds? My eyes are crying with a lot of knives in my chest. My whole body is just laying on the bed. Hindi ko alam kung paano ako kikilos at babangon. I feel miserable just for a man who broke me. Who would have thought that the man who I love the most will be the person who will also make me cry and feel all the pain I have in my chest now? Narinig ko ang pagbukas ng pinto ng dorm. Hailee breathed out loud, "Until when do you plan to stay on your bed and do nothing, Eliana?" she said, and then she sat down on my bed beside me, "We all need to get ready." I looked at her with pain in my eyes. She seems bothered and worried about me. I forced myself to get up from laying on my bed. Nanghihina ako at walang gana. "What about Ja--" "Stop thinking of him, Eliana!" she said, with her mad voice at me, "If he wants to leave the band, then let him!" she said, and then she stood up. Nitong mga nakaraang araw ay halos lahat kami sa banda ay hindi maayos. Jeremiah is the only one who's lifting up the spirit and vibes. Even Hailee look distracted, "Look at me, Eliana," hinawakan niya ang kamay ko nang lumuluha tulad ko. Parang piniga ang aking dibdib nang makita ko ang tindi ng sakit na dinadala ni Hailee sa mga mata niya, "Just like you, I'm not also okay," humikbi ito at impit na umiyak, "I'm also broke and miserable like you. But I'm not letting it stop me from thriving my dreams," she stated, and then she wiped her tears. "Hailee," I called, and caressed her back. "Remember what the Academy told us?" aniya, at humikbi, "Everything here is just temporary, so don't forget the reason why you go here," she said, and then looked away from my eyes. "I want to be a singer," I said, and smiled at her. "Then let's do it," I nodded, and then I hugged her tight. Kahit paano ay nabuhayan ako ng loob. She's right. Lahat kami ay hindi maayos ang kalagayan. Why did I even forgot the reason why I am here? I'm here for my dreams, not for a man to love me. But it hurts. Alam mo iyon? Pakiramdam ko ay sinasaksak ako ng paulit-ulit. His face is always in my mind. His eyes, his smile, his touch, I can't forget all of that. How did we end up like this? Nanghihina akong napa-upo sa malamig at basang semento ng banyo habang ang tubig mula sa shower ay parang ulan na patuloy sa pagbuhos sa akin. Niyakap ko ang dalawa kong tuhod habang impit na umiiyak. I cried until I felt a little okay. Lumabas ako sa banyo nang walang emosyon. "You should go there first," Hailee said, without looking at me, "Susunod din ako." Sandali ko pa siyang pinagmasdan. Nakatalikod ito sa akin ngayon habang naka-upo sa kama. I can feel the pain of her tears. Sabihin niya man o hindi, alam kong hindi rin siya maayos. She's also in pain. Hindi ko man lang alam kung ano ang nangyari. Nagbihis ako at inayos ang aking sarili bago ako lumabas ng dorm. As I close the door, Sonara is running quickly while crying. Hindi nito inaasahan na makita ako. She looked away from me at mabilis na pumasok sa dorm na katabi lang ng amin. I badly want to ask what's happening to them. Sonara, Hailee, and even Sofia don't feel fine. We are all in pain. Bumuga ako ng hangin at naglakad na papunta sa room ng banda. Everyone in the Academy is busy. As usual, all of them have their own worlds. Life continues whatever happens. Life continues whatever pain you feel. That's life. "I heard they broke up na," a girl said as they saw me walking. I pretended dumb, na parang wala narinig. It's been two weeks since we broke up. It started with a doubt, then it grew and became fear. Then we broke up. He's popular not just because he's one of the handsome and hot guys here at the Academy. Girls are dying over him because of his talent, too. Dagdag puntos pa iyon. That's why when we broke up, balitang-balita na iyon dito sa loob ng Academy. Halos mabingi na nga ako sa bulungan nila na naririnig ko naman. Hindi ako umimik at agad na binuksan ang pinto ng studio ng banda. "I know I can treat you better, than he can~" Jeremiah stops singing when he saw me at the door. Binigyan agad ako nito ng isang matamis na ngiti sa kanyang mga labi. Jeremiah never fails to give me that soft smile that's making me calm a bit. Minsan, napapaisip ako. Is he experiencing problems? 'Cause he doesn't seems to. How can he smile like everything's just fine? "Are you okay now?" aniya, at binitawan ang basahan na pinu-punas sa drum. Tumango ako at isinara ang pinto, "Not really," bumuga ako ng hangin, "I didn't know that you're a great singer," I complimented. Tumaas ang kilay niya at bumalandra ang hiya sa maamo at gwapo niyang mukha, "Don't tease me, Eliana," he said, while he's blushing. He made me smile again, "You're cute when you blush," natatawa kong saad. Naglaho ang ngiti nito at natulala sa akin. Kumunot agad ang noo ko. Did I said something bad? "What?" I asked, with confusion. Para itong natauhan at umiling sa'kin, "N-nothing," aniya, at bumalik sa ginagawa. It's true. Maganda ng boses nito. Well, just like Jayden, Jeremiah is one of the heartthrobs here. 'Yon nga lang, hindi nito pinapansin ang mga babaeng patay na patay sa kanya. Simula nang makilala ko si Jeremiah, hindi ko pa siya nakitang pumorma sa babae. I can see how lucky her future girlfriend is. Jeremiah is a great man. Bumukas ang pinto at iniluwa nito si Sofia. She looked bothered and scared when our eyes met. Kumunot agad ang noo ko sa kanya. "What's happ--" "Don't go outside," madiin niyang utos sa akin at kinuha ang cellphone ko. Hindi ko na maintindihan kung ano ang ginagawa niya. "What are you doing, Sofia?" I asked, with confusion, "Give me back my phone!" I yelled, as I don't understand what's happening. She turned off my cell phone and gave it back to me. "Sofia, ano ba ang nangyayari?" Jeremiah asked, calmly. Huminga ng malalim si Sofia at ginulo ang buhok niya. "Have you heard?" Nilingon namin si Sonara na ay Hailee na kararating lang. "Sonara, shut up!" Sofia yelled, but Sonara's eyes were on me. "She must know," she looked at Sofia for a while before she eyed me again, "Your ex boyfriend and Tamara are dating." From that moment of truth and revelation, my world broke and it stabbed me even more. A tear of pain and hatred fell down from my eyes. I smiled, with pain and hatred. "What a traitor." clarixass