I don't alam how to react when Mr. Old man halik my lips. The pangyayari is super mabilis basta I know my mga mata are namilog because of gulat. I can't sabi ng kahit ano, I can't tulak him palayo. His labi is parang may glue kasi it's very madikit sa lips ko.
I just sampal him for nakaw nakaw my first kiss. May pangarap is my future husband ang mag-kiss sa lips ko not the masungit at laging angry na Mr. Old man!
"K-kuya make bilis po ang pag-drive, I want to uwi na po sa house." I utos ng magalang kay Kuya na driver. He tango tango lang to me.
I'm sandal lang sa upuan and pikit my mga mata.
I will takip din my lips or else the kiss will be kalat.
I can't paniwala na he will gawa that to me!
He's bastos! Manyak! Pervert! He needs to bayad talaga! I'm so galit na galit sa old man na yun! Why he gawa that to me?!
I want to sigaw here sa car because of inis. But I need to uwi muna sa house namin. I will sigaw na lang sa room ko. I don't gusto the driver will tanong me why I'm sigaw?
The whole byahe pauwi is nasa isip ko si Mr. Old man. I want to sakal him, but it's bad. I can't go to heaven if I kill him, sa mind ko. I don't gusto to be a criminal!
"Kuya, here the bayad po! Thank you for driving ng ligtas!" Very fast me pa na lumabas ng taxi.
I feel like I'm lakad sa air because until ngayon I can't paniwala na I'm not pure kahit kailan I'm dirty, disgraceful, graceful, thankful and faithful!
"Ma'am, tumakas na naman po ba kayo?" I gulat pa when someone talk sa beside ko. I kalimot na I need to daan sa bubong not here.
"I don't takas. You tulog kasi kanina. I'm lakad sa harap mo, so not takas po." Nag-scratch pa ng ulo si bodyguard.
"Ma'am magagalit naman po ang parents niyo. Kabilin-bilinan na wag po kayong lalabas ng bahay."
"Kuya don't today. I have many na problema in my mind. Don't sabay sa heat ng head ko po. I'm not feeling well tonight. I will not takas anymore." I walk ng tuloy tuloy inside and other bodyguards tanong me again I'm not takas because they're not huli me kaya.
And I'm uwi ng alone. I bitbit my heels and I takbo sa room ko, then sarado the door. No one can hear me kahit I sigaw sigaw pa here.
"He kuhaaaaaaaa my kisssssssss! I hate him? I'm not a virgin anymoreeeee! He so…he so nakakainisssss! He needs to balik my first kissssssss!" I sigaw ng very strong. And make padulas sa back ng door.
I takip again my lips I don't want to kalat tje kiss here sa loob ng room ko.
I takbo nang mabilis sa toilet to tingin my labi! I pikit my eyes first, saka ko open nang slowly.
I sigaw again and padyak sa floor.
"Nooooooo! I need to alis his labi to meeeeeee! I don't want na maging big ang tummy ko!" I kausap pa myself while I'm crying. I haplos my tiyan pa. I don't like something galaw here!
My Nanay Soledad sabi to me na kapag may someone halik halik sa lips ko, I will get buntis! Oh no! I can't buntis! What am I gonna gawa? I need to punta punta na ba sa doctor?
That old man needs to sama to me! He needs to know about dito. He's the one may kasalanan!
What if he tanggi? What if he doesn't want to panagutan me? I will palaki our anak ng alone? No! I can't payag to this mangyari!
I'm so naguguluhan! How can I paliwanag to my magulang about my pagbubuntis? Noooooo! Mom will palayas me dito sa house! I have many pangarap pa sa life!
I need to think ng paraan how to alis his kiss to my labi.
I kuha my toothbrush and I sipilyo my teeth ng many, many, times! Maybe it helps to alis and not punta sa tummy ko. I kuha my mouthwash and I mumog din ng 100 times! I'm so natatakot talaga. I hate that old man! He always pahirap me!
That kiss is not patulog to me. I'm whole gabi na gising. I'm gulong gulong lang sa bed and suntok my unan. I tago my face ng unan because I see the face of Mr. Old old man.
Nanay Soledad will get galit sa akin because I don't ingat my lips from boys! Bahala na tomorrow what mangyayari.
When I gising ng morning I hawak my tummy to check if I'm buntis na. Nakahinga me ng smooth ng walang changes in my tiyan. Pero I'm natakot again, paano if later my tummy gets laki? Or bukas o another araw? I don't know tuloy what my gagawin. I need to sabihin ba kay Nanay Soledad? Don't na lang muna? Pero I'm takot how kung kumalat na ang kiss niya sa whole katawan ko? Or the baby in my tummy is buo buo na? At before I'm mabaliw na, I'm tayo na and takbo sa toilet I need to punta kay Mr. Old man. I don't payag na me lang ang mag-alaga sa baby namin. His kasalanan why I'm buntis! I can't payag na he will takas. It's okay na we not love each other. The important is my baby in my tummy.
After I bihis, I'm labas na ng room ko at nag-walk papunta sa kitchen. I need to paalam first.
"Nanay Soledad, I kalimot something in kulungan from last time. I need to kuha kuha it. Can I labas first? I will pasama sa bodyguards po." She tingin pa me.
"Sigurado ka ba? Bakit parang balisa ka? May hindi ka ba sinasabi sa akin? Sabi ng bodyguards tumakas ka raw kagabi? Saan ka na naman galing na bata ka?! Ikaw, kukurutin ko na sa singit niyan!"
Oh no! Nanay Soledad will hinala na to me. She not pwede to alam this! I don't want to say lies to her. But I need to tago muna first.
"N-no…I…I'm not takas po Nanay Soledad, I just lakad lang po outside…" I'm takot sa tingin ni Nanay Soledad sa akin.
"Sige na. Bilisan niyo lang at ako ang malalagot sa mommy mo kapag nalaman niya. Anak, wag kang gagawa ng kalokohan, huh!"
I tango tango to her lang and I lapit to kiss her sa cheeks.
I'm so kabado pa when we dating sa tapat ng police station. I hinga muna at paypay pa ng face.
"Kuya, you stay lang dito. I will pasok pasok sa loob ng alone. I will not takas, promise." I sabi pa to them.
I'm labas na ng sasakyan and slowly nag-walk papasok inside. All mga pulis are nakatingin to me when I pasok na sa loob. I lapit muna sa desk I need to tanong where's that Mr. Old man. I ngiti ng pilit sa policewoman.
"Hi, policewoman! I…I want to tanong po sana where's Mr. Old man--I mean, Policeman Caraig?"
"Girlfriend ka ba ni Calvin?" She tanong while nakangiti. My eyebrows are nagsalubong agad. Girlfriend ni Mr. Old man me?
"No—yes! Is he narito po? Can I kausap him? Very mahalaga lang po," shy ko pang ask to her.
"Yes, narito siya. Wait—Samaniego! Nasaan si Calvin? May naghahanap sa kanya kamo rito!"
"Nasa taas may meeting. Sige sasabihin ko."
They're usap usap while I'm nakikinig lang.
I eat chocolate muna to bawas my kaba. I'm so natatakot sa answer niya mamaya.
"Sinong naghahanap sa akin?" My puso is talon when I rinig his boses sa back. But I don't need to hiya because his kasalanan ito! I harap to him. He looks gulat pa when he kita me. I need to be matapang and not takot to him.
"Mr. Old man! Y-you need to panagutan me. You…you buntis me—"
I tigil sa pag-talk when he hila me sa kamay and pasok sa isang room.
"Why you need to hila me? It's your kasalanan! I have many pangarap pa!"
"Bakit naman kita pananagutan? Ano bang pinagsasabi mo, huh? Ginagantihan mo ba ako dahil sa panghahalik ko sa'yo kagabi?"
"You halik me! That's why I'm buntis now or tomorrow! It's your kasalanan! Now you tanggi tanggi, huh? You takas takas sa ginawa mo!"
He don't salita muna. And I'm nagulat when he laugh pa nang malakas and hawak his tiyan.
"What's nakakatawa? You don't like to panagutan me? How about me, huh?"
"A-at sinong nagsabi sa'yo na nakakabuntis ang halik? Kailan pa nakabuntis ang halik, spoiled brat? Gusto ko na lang isipin na crush mo ako." He tawa tawa pa rin habang nakatingin to me.
I'm natigilan pa because sa sinabi niya.
It's not true ba na I will buntis sa kiss? Why sabi ni Nanay Soledad to me you will buntis if someone na lalaki kiss your lips. It's so nakakahiya! I'm paniwala pa naman na it's nakakabuntis! I want to lusaw na sa embarrassment sa harap ni Mr. Old man.
I'm lakad pa ng palayo when He lakad lakad pa papunta to me.
"D-don' lapit! I will…I will sipa you!" banta ko pa to him, but he patuloy pa rin.
I'm nagulat pa when he lapit his mukha to me and titig sa face ko.
"Next time, wag na wag mo akong tatawagin na bakla—or else patunayan ko sa'yo sa ibang bagay, spoiled brat…"
"Go home. Baka totohanin ko pa yang sinasabi mo."
"Bastos! You balik my kiss to me! It's not for you! Nanay Soledaaaaaaad, help meeeeeee!"
Then I run nang mabilis because he takot me again.
I don't want to kita na him anymore! I will sumpa him talaga! Waaaaaaaaah! Worst day eveeeeeeeeer!