Samuel & Olivia

VEINTISEIS

Limang Taon

♕ Olivia

“Sofia, here!” tawag ni Papa sa anak ko, siya ang sumundo sa amin dito sa International Airport sa katabing probinsya namin, mas pinili ko talaga dito bumaba kesa sa Metro. Mahirap na, alam kung maraming mata ang nagmamasid sa pagdating ko. Nasa loob si Papa ng arrival area, iba din talaga ang powers neto minsan. Lampas apat na taon din akong wala sa bansang kinalakihan ko… mga taon na kinailangan para buoin ulit ang sarili ko. My Sofia is my saving grace, I will never trade her for anything… She's the one who healed me.

“Nonno” sigaw naman ng anak ko, nagaya niya yung kapitbahay naming Italyano sa pagtawag sa Lolo nito, pati si Mama “Nonna” ang tawag niya.

“Hey! Please don’t run” pigil ko sa kanya… pero deadma ang Lolo’s girl nagtata-takbo siya papunta kay Papa saka patalon na yumakap. Hindi ko naman mahabol at hawak ko ang push cart naming puno ng bagahe.

“You miss Nonno that much Sweetie” tumango tango lang ito habang nakayakap kay Papa, panay naman ang halik ni Papa sa apo niya. Who would have thought that we will come to this… but really times heals.

“Hi! Papa, Thank you for picking us up” pasasalamat ko saka humalik sa pisngi niya, kinuha na rin ng kasama ni Papa ang pushcart sa akin.

“You’re always welcome my Baby Girl” biro niya sa akin, saka humalik sa pisngi ko. Inirapan ko lang siya… tinawanan lang ako.

“Let’s go” aya niya saka umakbay sa akin habang karga si Sofia…

Lumabas kami ng airport via backdoor, alam niya kasing iniiwasan ko pa rin ang may maka alam sa pag uwi ko.

Kinailangan kong umuwi dahil may sakit si Mamita, she’s asking for me and her “apo sa tuhod” and I can’t say no to her. After all my faults and sins my family did not forsake me… ako ang kusang lumayo dahil sa kahihiyang dulot ng pagbubuntis ko ng walang ama. Hindi kaya ng konsensya ko na pati ang pamilya Guevarra at Robles ay mahahatak ang pangalan sa kasalanang ako naman ang may gawa.

Pinili ko sa Hacienda manatili, wala akong balak balikan siya… masaya na ako sa anak at sa pamilya ko. Umuwi ako para alagaan si Mamita at yun ang gagawin ko. Iniwan ko ang buhay namin sa UK dahil hindi ko alam kung ilang taon ako mananatili dito. At ginagawa ko ito para makabawi man lang sa mga kasalanan ko… alam kung sobra silang na disappoint sa mga nangyari pero wala akong narinig sa kanila. Lahat ng pakiusap ko noong lumayo ako pinagbigyan nila, kaya ako naman ngayon ang babawi.

Naging routine ko ang pagtulong sa nurse ni Mamita… pagpapainom ng gamot, pag lalabas sa kanya sa early morning sun, pagpapakain, pagpapaligo kahit na ayaw na ayaw niya na ako gumagawa nun. Months after nasanay na rin siya na kasama ako sa nag aalaga sa kanya. She developed an autoimmune disease that’s so rare… it is making her so weak some days but better on other days. Kaya awang awa ako sa kanya, she doesn’t want to be confined in the hospital kaya halos lahat ng aparato sa isang ICU meron na kami sa bahay.

Mabilis na lumipas ang mga araw… anim na buwan na pala mula ng makauwi kami ni Sofia. Nakapag adjust na rin ang anak ko, lagi niyang kalaro ang anak nila Charles at Maxine. Dito na rin sa Hacienda nakatira ang mag-anak nila, mula ng magtrabaho sila pareho sa akin. Palagi ring bitbit ni Papa o kaya ni Mama ang apo nila… buti pa nga ito nakarating na ng Metro mula ng makauwi kami. Kumuha rin si Papa ng yaya para sa kanya… yaya-tutor ang ni hire niya. Kaya alam kung hindi naman siya napapabayaan kahit na busy ako kay Mamita. Siya rin ang happy pill ni Mamita.

Six months… I was still hoping HE would look for me but…

“A Match Made In Heaven - The Most Eligible Bachelor and The Socialite are Engaged" sabi ng Headline sa Entertainment Section ng isang online news portal, hindi ko naman na sana babasahin… but curiosity killed the cat, yun ang napala ko sa pagka usyusera ko. The News read...“After almost five years after the gossip of him being married, Atty. Samuel Roman Valmonte Aguila, the most eligible bachelor is finally getting hitched. The lucky lady is none other than the socialite Claudia Nicholas. If this isn’t a match made in heaven I don’t know what to call it…” Hanggang doon na lang binasa ko. Nilipat ko ng ibang news portal, pero Bwisit lang talaga! pag lipat yun din ang bumungad sa akin - sa Business Section pa… pinatay ko laptop ko. Akala ko hindi na ako maapektuhan sa anumang balita tungkol sa kanya, kung bakit ba naman after six months sa kaisa isang balitang lumabas tungkol sa kanya yun pa ang balita.

Lahat ng sakit bumalik sa akin… wala talaga akong halaga sa kanya… lumabas ako ng bahay. I need some air and a time to think, God! I can’t cry now.

We were happy then… really happy… even beyond happy, pero tama yata ang kasabihan na kapag sobra kang saya may kakambal na lungkot yun.

**Flashback

“Love, Thank you for bringing me here” pasalamat niya sa akin, nasa Shrine of Padre Pio kami sa Batangas. It’s after the new year of that eventful Year End Party and the Phuket trip. It is the year when the Bar Exam results will be released, hence I’ve asked him to continue his prayers.

“You’re welcome Love” balik ko sa kanya, nag simba kami… nagpa-misa na rin… our relationship is getting stronger, we are very discreet in the office, or even outside when we are in the Metro. But we have our own “place” and we have ways to be together.

“What did you pray for, aside from the Bar Exams?” tanong niya pagbalik namin ng sasakyan

“For us to be stronger together” balik ko sa kanya…

“I did too” natatawa niyang sabi… alam kung hindi sila masyadong mga relihiyosong tao, kahit na Catholic School naman ang school niya. Pero natutuwa akong masaya siya sa ginagawa naming pagbisita sa mga simbahan, for blessing and guidance.

“Aww! Thank you, Love… I hope we really stay stronger through the test of time” sabi ko, saka ko siya ninakawan ng halik sa labi, tatawa tawa siya ng lumayo rin agad ako after ko gawin yun. Nahihiya pa rin ako sa kapilyahan at kalokohan ko minsan.

“Did you bring your wardrobe for tomorrow?” tanong niya… sinabihan niya kasi akong magdala ng gamit kasi baka kung saan kami magpadpad.

“Yes, I do have… but where are we going, hmmm Atty. Aguila” biro ko sa kanya

“Attorney, that’s good to hear, especially from you” nangingiti niyang sabi, nilingon niya ako mula sa pagkatutok niya sa pagmamaneho saka ako kinindatan. Pa kilig ang loko…

“I have a surprise for you” habol niya pa

We end up in an eco-luxury holistic medical wellness resort - The Farm with its lush green jungle, a stunning view of the majestic mountains, fresh air with pristine and uplifting life-giving energy radiating around the property, who would say no to an unplanned but super relaxing get away from the city. He booked us a Healing Spa and we stayed in a pool Villa. It was a quick but a very refreshing break for both of us.

By the next weekend the results are out… Nagbunga ang mga church visits, mass intentions and novenas namin, he top the Bar Exam who would have thought… muntik na niya bitawan ang childhood dream niya na yun dahil sa obligasyon niya sa pamilya nila but with perseverance and support from so many people he was able reach it.

- Kitang kita ko ang saya ni Samuel ng araw na yun, it was his childhood dream to be a lawyer. Lagi niya yun pinagyayabang yun sa amin dati ng mga bata pa kami.

Weeks after Samuel surprised me with an international get away

SMS Message

Samuel : Love, Please bring your passport

Ako (Olivia) : Ha! What?

- Loko ang mamang ito, baka itanan ako… nagsumbong kasi ako sa pagsusungit ng Tatay niya sa akin

Samuel : Just please do as I say… Please (winking emoticon)

Ako (Olivia) : Mr. CEO, you naugthy boy… where are you taking me (smiley emoticon)

Samuel : Yes Love… I am being naugthy

Samuel : Stop asking questions, you’re spoiling my surprise… Just Bring your passport

- At talagang may kalokohang gagawin ang mama

Ako (Olivia) : Hmmm… Naugthy Attorney (sticking tongue out emoticon)

Samuel : Ready yourself My Love

- Gusto kung kilabutan sa mga pinagsasabi niya pero ang malandi kung utak nag sasaya pa yata

Ako (Olivia) : Should I be afraid, Mr. CEO?

Samuel : No, you should be excited… My Love

- Ayyeeii! excited ka naman talaga… tudyo ng haliparot kung utak!

He brought me to an island in an archipelagic country in the Indian subcontinent of Asia, situated in the Indian Ocean, with the capital city called Malé. We traveled weeks after the oath taking… I was so surprised. He didn’t even let me pack anything… as he went shopping for me for the trip. He told me... he wasn’t risking his secret-surprise plan so he bought me everything I needed… sundresses, lingeries and swim wear. We flew directly to the island, He was able to charter a flight with the help from some of his friends. Nahambalus ko siya sa mga pinagbibili niyang gamit sa akin…

“What the h*ck are these Mr. Aguila” pakita ko sa kanya ng th*ng lingerie na binili niya… hindi ako nagsusuot nun. Anak ng tokwa talaga ang lalaking ito.!

“What! Come on Love it’s just a th*ng… found it sexy so I bought you one” tatawa tawa niyang sabi

“I AM NOT wearing that!” asik ko sa kanya… may iba pa naman lingeries doon mga hipster at bikini type

“Livi, My Love… wear it for me please just one time, if you’re not comfortable then change it” paglalambing niya, Ano etey mag lingerie fashion show ako sa harap niya! Hipster naman ang th*ng na nabili niya pero God… my b*tt ch**ks. Sh*t! - Ang sexy kaya Ateng try it na! Sulsol ng malandi kung utak… Sh*t na malagkit talaga!!!

May malanding utak win over me! And I did wore it for him…

“Tang Na! Olivia Robles… you’re a f*cking Goddess” pasigaw niyang mura… paglabas ko ng bathroom na yun lang ang suot ko with its partner bra. Gusto mong makita ha! Well maglaway ka! Pero traydor lang talaga ang katawan ko…

“Do you kiss me with that mouth, Mr. CEO… I’ll wash it with soap” asar ko sa pag mumura niya… Hindi yata siya talaga nakapagpigil hinablot niya ako at pinagdikit ang katawan namin…

“God! Livi… you’re so hot you're melting me” sabay sunggab ng mapusok na halik sa akin… gusto kung matawa, para siyang nag bibinata na kulang nalang higupin ang kahalikan.

“Hey! Slow down” bulong ko in between kisses

Pero hindi na nag papigil pa ang mama… buong stay namin doon sa island daig pa namin nag honeymoon.

End of Flashback

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Anak

♔ Samuel

“Ate, Not the one with sesame seeds… allergy me” rinig kung sabi ng batang babae sa tabi ng display counter, British accent pa siya ang cute - chubby cheeks, naka pigtails pa… sarap pang gigilan ng pisngi and like me she’s allergic to sesame seeds. I am in my… “our” favorite Pretzel Shop to get my Belgian Choco, Coffee and Cinnamon Sugar pretzel… my forever breakfast whenever I pass by this way to the office.

Lumuhod ako para magpantay kami… hindi ako nakatiis kausapin siya...

“Hi, Baby… you can have the Cinnamon Sugar, its my favorite” tinitigan niya lang ako, parang nagulat yata sa pag kausap ko sa kanya. Buti hinayaan lang naman ako ng yaya niyang nasa tabi niya lang.

“I’m allergic to sesame too” bulong ko pa, sabay ngiti sa kanya… tipid niya rin akong nginitian. She reminds me of the past “He or She” could have been her age by now. If I had not been a coward and a fool… I could have been a Dad. I heave an audible sigh, this is always what I feel whenever I see little boys and girls.

“Or Baby you can get also the Sweet Almond ones” tumayo na ako, para umorder… hinatak niya ang pantalon ko, tsaka kinalabit ako… Tiningnan ko ulit siya

“You look like someone I know” sabi niya, she has her pointy finger touching her nose parang nag iisip

“But, Nah… I don’t think so” umiling iling pa siya… natawa nalang ako. Ang cute na bata, parang matanda magsalita, mukha namang Pinoy pero ang accent niya mukhang hindi dito lumaki.

“Good Morning Sir, what’s your order” bati ng kahera sa akin, bago ang nasa counter hindi pa alam ang usual order ko… Tinanong ko muna yung Cute na Bata kung ano ang gusto… sinasabay ko na dapat order nila but the Nanny declined politely baka daw mapagalitan siya. Hinayaan ko nalang, I am a total stranger to them. Kumaway pa ako sa kanila pagka alis ko… kumaway din naman siya pabalik at ang ganda na ng ngiti sa akin.

What a beautiful way to start my day! Walk to the office with a smile on my face… It’s been a long time since I felt like this, Thanks to that little girl.

“Good Morning Sir, Mr. Guevarra is waiting for you in your office” bati sa akin ng bago kung secretary

“Good Morning too and Thank you” nagulat pa yata siya na nag Thank you ako…

Mr. Oliver Guevarra is sitting at my lounge area, reading the paper… nasanay na ako pag dumadalaw siya ng walang pasabi. Mag ta tatlong taon na rin ng maging parte siya ng kompanya.

“Good Morning Sir, What brought you here this early” bati ko sa kanya, saka umupo sa sofa sa harap ng one-seater lounge chair na kinauupuan niya. Binaba niya naman ang dyaryo sa center table at hinarap ako.

“I have a favor to ask”

“Anything for you Sir” balik ko sa kanya…

He wanted me to oversee his own company, as he needs to be home to take care of his ailing mother. I agreed to it… it’s just an oversight. I am not making decisions for it, I can pass by there in the morning or evening to check on whatever is on the table of the CEO. Until now I still could not believe I am this close to my “hero” in the business world.

He is the one who helped me to get on my feet again after my world came crashing down on me almost five years ago…

Four... going Five Years… and until now I still feel empty...

**Flashback

We had a blissful break in that last month of the year…

Banyan Tree Phuket is a haven for those who want relaxation and after the super stressful year, it is such a treat for both of us. Being with My Love always feels home… We stayed in our villa and only went out to Dine and Wine. We cuddled and made out… like young lovers I can’t get enough of her. “Love, you’re playing with fire… don’t blame me, If I'll end up ravishing you” banta ko! na ako din ang bumasag.

Waking up with her in my arms, I did not let it pass… started my kisses on her cheeks, to the back of her ear… that’s her “kiliti” I did not forget from our Hacienda time… She’s giggling, God! Music to my ears. When my kisses went to her neck down to the valley between her peaks, I can feel she’s not breathing…

“Breath, My Love” bulong sa kanya… saka siya napabuga ng hangin

“God! Samuel, you’ll be the death of me” saka siya pilit kumawala sa yakap ko… umiling iling ako

Saka ipinagpatuloy ang panglalandi sa kanya… at nahawa na rin siya sa akin. Her hands are touching and caressing me like she owns me. God! I have to gather all my power to keep it together and not take her all the way.

Lips and Mouths that give fiery, playful, sensual kisses… hands that tickle, fondle the body, It was both pleasure and ecstasy. In her arms is utopia for me. Our two days were such that...

Pati ang pool area naging saksi sa lambingan at landian namin…

“Samuel! No! Somebody might see us” impit niyang sigaw ng pinaglalaruan kung tanggalin ang strings ng bikini top niya. I was assured by the Resort that our villa is well secured kaya malakas ang loob ko.

“Nobody will see you but me” cupped her peaks with my hands when finally I took out her bikini top… She gasped and bit her lower lip when I did that… trying hard to suppress her moans. I am so happy, she’s looking at me with lust-filled eyes…

“See Love, nobody will see it… It is still covered” saka ko ito pinaglaruan sa mga palad ko.

“Tang na mo Roman!” mura niya, ganyan siya pag darang na darang na…

“No cursing Love, just tell me if you have enough” that time she just let me have my way with her… Pleasuring her to a euphoria at hindi rin naman siya nag patalo… I was able to have my release via her sinful hands and mouth.

What a blast that Phuket trip… even after more than four years everything is still vivid in my mind.

Ng makauwi kami… we celebrated the Holidays separately, we both agreed then not to agitate Dad. The Holidays that year was uneventful, to avoid confrontation and clash with Dad… I went out with Tyron and my cousins.

When the new year came… My Love, adjusted her weekend schedule for us to be able to continue the Church visits, sabi niya hangga’t hindi pa lumalabas ang results ng Bar Exam dapat faithful kami sa pagtawag sa taas. We went as far as the National Shrine of Padre Pio in Batangas in the South and Nuestra Senora del Santissimo Rosario de Manaoag in Pangasinan in the North. And it paid off well… very well indeed, who would have thought that I’d top the exams.

“Tang na mo, Aguila tinalo mo pa ako” asar-mura sa akin ni Tyron… kaming tatlo magkakasama mag antay sa results sa labas ng Supreme Court. It is the first week of the fifth month of the year.

“Mas magaling talaga ako sayo” asar ko din sa kanya

“Yabang mo! Ako nagturo sayo… H*yop ka” singhal niya pa rin sa akin habang tawang tawa…

“Congratulations Atty. Aguila” nagpipigil ng ngiti namang bati ni Livi sa akin… Nasa public place kami kaya pormal na pormal siya.

“Congratulations, Atty. Tyron and Thank you” bati at pasasalamat niya kay Tyron

“Love, ako nakapasa… Bakit pati siya ni-Congratulate mo” bulong ko sa kanya

“Mr. CEO, that’s because you forgot your manners to Thank your Mentor” balik niya sa akin

“Buti pa si Ms. Robles” sabi din ni Tyron

Kaya ni bro-hug ko siya, utang ko naman talaga sa kanya at kay Livi kung ano man ang tagumpay ko.

That time was the happiest I’ve been all my life… fulfilling my childhood dream and having the woman I cherish the most beside me.

But I lost her, God! I am the biggest j*rk and a**hole the whole world could have.

End of Flashback