The Coverage [Completed]

Hindi ako makapakali sa kina-uupuan dahil ang dami kong na-iimagine na kahalayan sa isipan ko. Ganito talaga siguro pag bunso at nag iisang babae sa pamilya, I'm scared actually. I'm not like this before, I'm not thirsty for any s****l desire or whatnot, but damn, it all started when I accidentally watched Pornographic film. It was stored in the sdcard I bought. Since then, i can't just tear off any imagines that kept on appearing when I'm a wake in broad day light or even before going to bed. Naiinis ako dahil may part sa akin na sana ako yung andoon sa video. I'm just a 9 years old kid when it happened. At that young age I also felt those unexplainable things and event. Too young for me to feel s****l desire. I sleep at night with dry panty and wake up being wet dahil I always had wet dreams. Naiiyak ako kasi I can't even approach my parents to talk about what I'm feeling or to ask what I just watched. Being scared eat me so much that I stayed quiet, I never tried to tell them. Kahit ganun ako kabata I understand some of it, I know it's bad pero takot talaga ako ng time na iyon. Takot akong mapagalitan at takot akong mapahiya lalo ng takot akong mahusgahan. When I reached 11 or maybe older than that I tried to touch myself, It was actually a weird feeling while inserting your fingers in your private part.... It was something new for me . That time I felt it. I totally loved the feels of releasing something you hold for so long. Iyon ang unang beses na ginawa ko mag finger. Masakit pero masarap. I remembered that it was the time we already had a internet connection so I'm free to search anything, I never hesitate to look for a video of someone pleasuring herself. Aside from touching myself i also continued watching more pornographic videos which eventually became my habit. Ang pangit ng epekto pero hindi ko talaga maalis sa sistema ko eh. Nanood ako madalas talaga at parang nakasanayan ko na ayaw kong tumigil. I actually felt being dirty, the thought of needing or seeking for help never leave my mind. Even though I'm still virgin my thoughts aren't innocent nor naive. I watched not just a couple of videos but a lot of adult film, s**t! Sometimes I pity myself but I can't help but to think that their are a lot of people experiencing the same situation like mine. I just need acceptance or help? I really don't know. Habang inisip ko lahat ng napagdaanan ko, hindi ko maiwasan minsan na matulala ng matagal. Napansin ko nalang na malamig na yung gatas na pagka-init kanina. Tinali ko ang nakalas ko na roba, di ko namalayan na natanggal pala ito sa pagkakatali at sumisilip na tuloy ang cleavage ko sa itim na lacey bra na suot . Ang lamig sa balcony ay nanuot sa balat ko grabe at parang iba ang nararamdaman ko kahit hanggang below the knee ang robe ko. Nang hindi na makayanan ang lamig tumayo na ako sa pag kakaupo at pumasok sa bahay naming bubog ang dingding dahil kita ang kabahayan dahil sa glass wall na mang dingding well mataas naman bakod namin kaya okay lang. Pumasok na ako sa loob at napansin kong ako palang ang gising sa amin. Our parents aren't here kaya ang mga kuya ko sa taas ay tulog pa. Tulog sila dahil pagod sa trabaho at ang iba ay tulog dahil galing sa bar. Wala naman akong reklamo dahil matanda na sila at alam nila ang tama at mali. Noon inakala kong bakla sila kuya dahil walang pinapakilalang girlfriends sa akin. So you can't blame me. But I was wrong for thinking and concluding na ganun sila, tangina mga barako talaga sila. I saw something I shouldn't seen. Natawa ako ng maalala Iyon. Legend ang mga kumag! It should be a peaceful night for me, and as usual, I don't really go downstairs, especially in the middle of the night. And my brothers also warned me not to go out. Iyon kasi ang nakasanayan ko ang huwag ng lumabas ng Kwarto dahil may sarili naman akong bathroom at mini fridge pero iba talaga sa gabing iyon hindi ako makapakali. Nasilip ko kanina sa may veranda ng kwarto ko ang pag dating ng mga kuya ko. Sabay sabay pa sila. Anim na kotse ang dumaan sunod sunod. tinulak ko ang sliding door ng kaunti, at pinatay ang lampshade para walang ilaw sa kwarto. Nag club na naman sila at hindi mapapagalitan dahil wala sila mommy and daddy. 20 minutes had passed at dahan-dahan ako bumaba. I'm shocked by the clothes scattered around the living room. Tila nagmadali ang mga may-ari ng mga damit! At sino ang maglilinis ng mga ito? Bahala sila! Then I heard some noise, more like whimper? Simula ng magkamulat ako hindi ko naramdamang may multo rito. Naku baka naliligo lang sila sa pool. It's bad kung sisilip ako pero I did it anyways. There at the side pool I saw my brothers f*****g a girl whose bending in the sun loungers. They're taking turns? Kinamot ko ang mga mata ko at I pinch my hand pero talaga Live Porn! Daig pa nila premium subscription ko in some site. "Oh yeah! f**k me hard! Ahhhhhhh Ahhhhhhh s**t! s**t!." sigaw noong babae na nakatuwad. I heard kuya Lanter groan and pound her like those hardcore porn I've watched before. "She's tight! Ugh----- Umalis na ako dahil ayaw kong mahuli at bahala sila riyan. Pwet lang naman ang nakita ko. Gosh! Thou that girl has a nice booty. Nagtaklubong ako ng kumot at pinilit matulog kasi nag-iinit ako parang gusto kong manood ngayon ng porn at mag finger. Bwesit! Bahala sila riyan mga unggoy! nagdala pa ng babae rito at dito gumawa ng milagro. Grabe talaga! I should be happy kasi hindi ko ka-federation ang mga kuya ko.