MARRY ME HELLARY

Chapter 16

Yncse POV

Limang buwan ang makalipas simula nung huli ko siyang makita.

He's been discharged without my knowledge. Little did I know he's gone home.

Simula noon ay hindi ko na siya nakita pa ulit. I tried to find him in social medias but can't find a trace.

It was like I'm looking for someone who doesn't exist in my life.

Well, ..yeah. He didn't become part of my life but...

"Yncse!" tawag sakin ni amadeo

"Y-yeah..what is it?" wala sa sariling tugon ko.

"Dinner's ready.. are you okay? you don't seem well" aniya saka nilapat ang palad saking noo.

" I'm fine. I'm just thinking unconsciously deep, but I'm good. I really am" pilit ang ngiting saad ko.

"Do you want to rest? I'll just take you some food downstairs" nag aalalang aniya.

"No mad, we supposed to enjoy our stay. Anyway, is caren already there?" tanong ko dito.

"Yeah, she's actually waiting for us" ngiting sagot nito.

"Okay, then let's go" ani ko saka nagpaumunang lumabas ng room.

Pagkabukas ng elevator ay tumungo na agad si amadeo sa reservation seat namin saka ko nakita doon si Caren na may kausap na lalaking ...hindi ko naman kilala.

"Cars" tawag ko dito dahil nakatalikod siya sa gawi namin.

"O-ohh hi friendship hehe.." aniya saka ko tinignan ng 'who tf is this guy'?

"HA..HA..HA. uhmm.. this.. is Kice" aniya saka dahan dahang lumingon sa lalaking nasa tabi niya.

"And?" ani ko

"Well..." aniya na pupungay pungay na ang mga mata.

"Is he your boyfriend, Caren? tatawa-tawang tanong ni mad saka umupo sa bakanteng upuan.

"No.. no, ofcourse not. He's like..."

"You're not good at lying Caren, spill it...the truth!" tugon ko saka umupo sa kabilang silya..

Bago siya magsalita ay pinalabas niya ang lalaking hindi namin kilala, walang alam kung bakit nandito yun bigla.

"Ganito kasi yun...I saw him kanina nung naliligo kami ni amadeo sa beach" saad niya na nakangiting abot langit. " He's kinda attractive and quite talented. He's just so amazing while surfing his board in the midst of people in the water. Para siyang kumikinang sa mga mata ko at sakanya lang nakatuon ang paningin ko. Habang pinapanood ko siya, pakiramdam ko siya na talaga hehe" nakangiting aniya, nagpi-picture out. "Kaya naman nag first move ako haha..hindi bat wordth eath nam--an?" nakatawang salaysay niya.

Habang nagsasalita siya ay nakatitig lang ako sakanya. Inusisa kung nagsisinungaling.

"Graveh ka naman mukatengeyn YncsEe. W-wala ka bang tewalah shakin?" nakasimangot na ani Caren habang tinuturo si Amadeo. Lasing amp!

"She won't believe everything easily because she has this quote "lies can't beat the eyes". nakangising ani amadeo kaya napalingon ako dito.

"Tch! it's not like I don't believe her...but kind of" tugon ko saka kumain ng vegetable salad.

Sabay naman silang napailing sa sinabi ko.

"So, what happen after that?" saad ko habang ngumunguya ng pagkain. Nagkunwaring hindi interesado.

"I ashk his numbeyr apter he surp becos... ay k-kaynda layk him" nakangising aniya.

Hindi ba sya nangangawit kakangiti?

"I guess he doesn't have a good taste when it comee to girls, ha..ha..ha" tawang ani mad.

"W-whay? am ay nat too haAat atrakteb gorjus lovely woman? huUuuh!" nakabusangot na ani Caren at hindi na makatingin ng diretso.

"Anong alak ba ininom nito amadeo?" tanong ko sa katabi habang naghihiwa siya nang steak sa plate niya.

"Several shots of tequila hahaha. She's uncontrollable Yncse, trust me" natatawang aniya.

"No,..no..no...yur da uncontorwable one..yu hav two batels of dringks bruh! yur kretzy but yur not knock down..but me?? will hold hA..hA.. I have long..long..alcowol toleyance..yu know that?? He.he..he" lasing na ani Caren.

"Yeah, yeah, yeah..you can hold it cars..in your dreams..Ha.hA..ha" natatawang ani amadeo.

"Tsk..I'm full. Make her eat her food, I have to rest now" ani ko saka tumayo sa pagkakaupo at dumiretso sa room ko.

Before I head to bed, I usually take a shower to think everything carefully.

It's our 3 days leave since we got here. I request a week leave because something went off to me lately. I can't work well and I just feel like I was in other dimension, but I can't still pull myself together until now. It's so hard to tell what my thoughts were, it feels like I'm in a puzzle, being imprisoned in my own mind. I want to get out but don't know where the door is. I'm a doctor but can't diagnose what I'm struggling all these time.

I'm just so f****d up after he left.

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Got my hands

Doin' good like they supposed to

Showin' my heart

To the folks that I'm close to

Got my eyes

Though they don't see as far now

They see more 'bout how things

Really are now

I'm gonna take a deep breath

Gonna hold my head up

Gonna put my shoulders back

And look you straight in the eye

I'm gonna flirt with somebody

When they walk by

I'm gonna sing out

Sing out

I believe I have inside of me

Everything that I need to live a bountiful life

And all the love alive in me

I'll stand as tall as the tallest tree

And I'm thankful for every day that I'm given

Both the easy and hard ones I'm livin'

But most of all

I'm thankful for loving who I really am

I'm beautiful

Yes, I'm beautiful

And I'm here

Naalimpungatan ako nang marinig ang kantang iyon. I set that alarm yesterday.

Lumabas na ako ng room matapos kong maligo at mag toothbrush. I'm just wearing a simple floral dress, it suits the weather today and I love it. It's windy and not sunny, I feel like walking on the sand right now.

Napag isip-isip ko lang kagabi na lumabas rin sa hotel room at pagmasdan ang mga ulap at damhin ang malamig na hangin sa baybayin. I want to relax and erase everything in my mind. I want to breathe in fresh air and just enjoy my stay. That would be great for me, I think..

Nag door bell ako sa kabilang room kung nasaan si Caren para sabay na kaming kumain. It's already 8 AM and she's not up yet. I called her number and in just a few seconds she answered.

"Y-yeah?" ani sa kabilang linya.

"Let's go downstairs. Have something to eat to lessen your hangover and call mad. I'll be waiting for you there." ani ko saka binaba ang linya.

"Goodmorning ma'am, please have a look on our menu for available meals" nakangiting ani nang waitress saka binigay sakin ang menu.

Matapos kong mag order ng sakto lang sa amin ay nagsurf na muna ako sa social media ko.

Nothing's great and it just bored me out.

"Here's your macchiato coffee ma'am. Your order will be serve as soon as possible" nakangiting aniya.

"Thank you miss" ani ko saka siya nginitian ng pilit..

"Have a great stay ma'am" aniya saka umalis na.

Magkaka-great day pa kaya ako nito kung ang mga kasama ko ay sakit lang sa ulo. Bakit ko pa ba sila pinapasama dito? Tch!

Matapos ang ilang minutong paghihintay ay nasilayan ko silang papunta sa gawi ko.

"Hey, Yncse" sabay na bati nila, nakangiti.

"Don't smile, both of you. You're making me sick" saad ko saka binaling ang atensyon sa waitress na nasa di kalayoan samin at sininyasan itong ipa serve na ang orders ko.

Kanina pa sana ang order namin ngunit pina hold ko muna dahil wala pa ang mga kasama ko.

"Matagal ba kami? Sorry he..he" ani mad.

"Don't talk" tugon ko.

"Ikaw kasi ang tagal mo matapos, nagugutom na tuloy si Yncse kakahintay satin" bulong na saad ni mad kay Caren at panay tingin sakin..

"Is it my fault if I can't stop vomiting? Tsk! I told you to go first but you didn't listen" bulong na tugon ni Caren.

I'm just so sick of this. What's the use of whispering if I still can hear them?

"Kahit na mauna ako ganun pa rin yun because we still have to wait for you. You knew her" ani amadeo.

"Will you stop the f**k up right now?" ani ko habang tinitignan silang dalawa ng masama.

Natahimik naman sila pagkarating ng mga pagkain at bahagyang nakayuko saka naman palinga linga sa labas ng restaurant na animoy hindi napapakali.

Halos lahat ng orders ko are sea foods and there's also some meat, but I lost some appetite because of this two crazy people infront of me. Tsk! Kanina pa naman ako nagugutom. Tss..

"Titignan niyo lang yan?" ani ko habang naghimay ng shrimp at sinubo.

"We're not sure if we can eat. Baka kasi sabihin mong don't eat, at hindi naman namin masabi kung pwede ba kaming kumain dahil hindi mo naman sinabi samin na you can eat" ani Caren habang nakayoko at namimilosopo.

"I really want to choked you two to death" ani ko.

Kung kailan na sa magandang mood ako saka naman nila ako b-bwisitin.

Matapos kumain ay nagpahinga na muna sila. Masakit pa rin daw ang ulo nila dahil sa hang over.

I saw a swing hindi kalayoan sa resort. I went there and sit while having a glass of juice. I like the view. Now, I appreciate it. The birds are singing and the waves sound so nice. The skies are blues and the air was fresh. A combination of nature's natural beauty. Saka ko pinikit ang aking mga mata at dinaramdam ang dampi ng hangin sa akin.

I want to live like this for a moment, in where I can escape from everything, especially from pain.

This is life.

Music title: I'm here. By: color purple