LOSTREGO SERIES #2: Twisted Fate

SIENNA I literally crying on my own room after hearing my parent's sentiments earlier. Like what the effin' fvck? They want me to arrange a marriage to a guy I don't even know at all? Whose parents in the right mind do that? And héck! I'm still too young to get married for goodness sake! Ang dami ko pang gustong subukan sa buhay ko, mag explore mag travel and doing what I like! Ni hindi pa nga ako tapos sa college. Pero sa ginagawa ng parents ko mas gugustuhin ko nalang na magrebelde at lumayas sa pamamahay na'to. Parang wala akong freedom! I don't like it. And now tatakutin nila ako na kapag hindi ako sumunod they will stop supporting my financial needs even though they are the one's who responsible with it. Come on! I hate them for real. Pwede bang bumili ng bagong parents? I called my boyfriend right away. Hanggang ngayon nanginginig parin ang kamay ko. I don't know what to do. I am trembling and crying for almost an hour right now. Manang Sally still knocking on my door asking me if I was okay. Do I look like Okay at this rate? God! Lahat sila nakakainis! Three rings before my boyfriend picks it up. "Mornin' babe..." Kevin said on the phone. Naiyak tuloy ako lalo after hearing his voice. I miss him so much! I want to see him badly but I am f*****g grounded for about a week now. Isang linggo na kaming hindi nagkikita at palagi nalang magka call. Ganon lang. I could hear some noises on his line pero pinag sawalang bahala ko nalang iyon. May kasama ba siya? "Babe! C-can we see each other? I bad..ly want to make kwento to you. I feel so sad and depress right now—" I cried but didn't finish what I wanna say because I am now hearing another female voices on the phone aside from him. "Shh...Nyla quiet my girlfriend would hear you." He said, but almost a whipered. The fvck! She's with Nyla? That b***h! Bakit sila magkasama? Umurong bigla ang mga luhang nagmamalabis sa mata ko kanina dahil sa narinig. Yung inis ko mas dumoble dahil sa mga naiisip ko ngayon ngayon lang. I tried to compose myself first. Hindi muna ako nagsalita at patuloy na pinapakinggan ang kabilang linya. I almost dropped my jaw after hearing weird noises on his line. I was so sure it was a f*****g moaned! What the hell are they doing! My heart raced undeniably and tears started to consumed me again. I know now what are they doing! That asshole! "Babe...uhm, can you call later—" I cut him off before he finished it. That bastard. "Are you cheating on me?" I still asked, giving him a chance to explain. He chuckled right away. "N...no, what are you talking about?" Okay...I'm done with him. Liar! I sniffed and dried my tears before answering him. "Your fuckin' gross f**k you! I heard you with Nyla. Have fun then...you lowly class ugly asshole break na tayo." I said before hang it up. Who the f**k is him anyway? Kaya ko lang naman siya naging boyfriend because he is a basketball varsity in our school. Ang dami dami kayang nagkakagusto sakin tapos lolokohin nya lang. He doesn't deserved my tears. At alam ko kung bakit nya iyon nagawa. Weeks ago pa lang na pagiging mag on namin tinatanong nya na ako kung pwede bang may mangyari sa amin. Like hello? He's too fast ayoko pa noh. I look like a girl na maraming karanasan but no! Wala talaga. I am proud to tell it to myself that I am a virgin. Kaya hindi narin ako magtataka kung bakit siya natukso kay Nyla. Hayok na hayok naman na talaga yan sa mga lalaki noon palang and actually lahat ng nagiging exes ko pinapatos nya. A b***h right? Mahilig sa tira tira. Hindi pa man ako nakakabawi sa mga emosyong nailabas ko kanina, yung kaninang pinto na sinarado ko ay tuluyan ng nabuksan. Mom's worried face and dad scowling mood looking at me evidently. What now! I rolled my eyes to them bago ko tinakpan ang mukha ko ng sariling kumot at humiga sa kama. I don't want to see them okay? "Sienna Celestine, we will talk. Faced me can you." Dad said in a serious tone. So bossy. A parents like them is a curse! Naiiyak na naman tuloy ako dahil sa sobrang sama ng pakiramdam ko. They are too much parang ang siste, nag anak lang sila pero I'm still imprison with them. Like? Hello! Tao ako may sariling buhay, emosyon, pakiramdam at desiyon. Bakit ba pinipilit nila ako magpakasal eh ayoko nga! I am not afraid of marriage or relationship in general okay? But arrange marriage terrifies me! Who knows kung yung guy na yon is mabuti para sa akin? Pano kung hindi? Diba? Ano bang iniisip nila. I'm still 17 pero kung maka asta sila akala mo ubos na ang lalaki sa mundo at hindi ako magkakaroon. "Leave me alone Dad! Mom! I don't want to talk to you!" I shouted. My lips began to numbed as I shedding tears heavily. Naramdaman kong lumubog ang kanang parte ng kama ko hudyat na may isang tao na umupo doon. I bet it was dad. "Baby, listen to me first okay? Ginagawa lang namin kung ano ang sa tingin naming makakabuti sa iyo. You said when you are young you want to marry Lukas? That's why ginagawa ko na ngayon. You know that a lot of families who have a daughter like me tries to convince the Lostrego na pumayag sa ganito at ngayon nabigyan tayo ng pagkakataon. His mom agreed on this. And besides your unsual party every nights and then. Is very concerning! And also, being you not so serious with your studies is giving me an headache Hija! Now I know your reason. Kaya ka nagrerebelde dahil akala mo hindi ako gumagawa ng aksiyon right? Now Lukas agreed on this ano pa bang proble—" I jumped on my bed after hearing dad. They mean si Lukas Lostrego? My childhood crush? Oh my gosh! That so embarrassing to hear!!! I like Lukas before but now...ugh! I don't know! Nagka boyfriend na nga ako dahil wala akong pag asa sa Lostrego na iyon tapos ito ang malalaman ko? Like how I mean? Totoo ba to? Bigla tuloy akong kinabahan ng sobra at halos hindi na ako makahinga ng diretso. "D...dad, that is a j-joke right?" I trembled. He smiled at me while shaking his head. Oh shoot! No! Ahhh! Nakakahiya! What would Lukas think of me? Na desperado akong pakasalan siya? No! I may like him before but now? Hindi ko alam okay. Maybe? Yes? No? Ewan ko ano ba! Naiiyak na ako sa sobrang frustration. "Dad! What do you think your doing? I said those words before but I didn't mean it gosh!" Napatakip na tuloy ako sa sarili kong mukha dahil ako na ngayon ang nahihiya. Come on dad! Do something! "You don't like it? We can still pull it out pwede ko namang sabihin—" "NO!!! I mean...Dad! Kase naman why did you not informing me before. Edi sana napag isipan ko man lang. You guys surprise me and heck? Marriage is a serious matter." I said, still feeling embarrassed. Huminga si Dad ng malalim at tumingin ng diretso kay mom. They look like they both understand each other in just looking to their eyes. "Yeah, doon kami nagkulang anak. To inform you atleast pero tama ang dad mo. Marriage is a serious matter we know that kaya nga ginawa namin ang lahat para lang matupad ang gusto mo. Akala kase namin you still like Lukas that's why we tried to convince Alaina and Lucio to accept our deal. Hindi nga rin namin inaasahan na balak na rin pala talaga nilang ipagkasundo ang anak nila sa pamilya natin. We both shocked kaya nakakalungkot dahil parang umaatras ka na. Ayaw mo ba?" Mom explaining. What? Tita Alaina and Tito Lucio agrees on this? And they want me for Lukas? But how about Lukas? Alam nya ba ito? Payag ba siya? How about his feelings? We know each other since then...mga bata palang kami alam kong ayaw nya na sa akin. I don't know why? Kaya parang nakaka guilty naman kung malalaman nyang sa akin sya ipagkakasundo diba? Baka nga may girlfriend na iyong tao. Tapos dahil lang sa arrange marriage na'to masira pa sila. Ayoko ng ganon. Isa pa kaya ko namang mag move sa kanya. Naka move on na nga yata ako. Napanguso na akong tumingin sa parents ko. I don't know what to say. Masyado pa kaseng maaga ang lahat. "Can you give me some time dad, mom? I don't know what to say. Magulo pa ang isip ko." I said honestly. Tumango naman sila doon bago ako halikan sa pisngi. "Okay, just tell me if you had an answer so we could tell it the Lostrego." Dad muttered. Pareho na silang tumayo ni mom at handa na sanang lumabas ng kwarto ko pero pinigilan ko lang muli. "Uhm...one thing pa pala Dad!" Patakbo narin akong lumapit sa kanilang dalawa. "What is it baby?" Mom asked. I bit my lips and tried to look cute to them so they could lifted my punishments. "You see..ahm, I almost locked myself here in my room for about a week right? Tapos after school diretso uwi na ako diba? Uhm...pwede na ba akong lumabas? Please...pag iisipan ko po talaga yung about sa kasal kaya payagan nyo na ako. I need to breathe fresh air para makapag isip isip ganon." I lied. Who said, I will breathe fresh air once na makalabas na ako? Pupunta akong bar noh! I miss alcohol so much tapos party with friends. Have a long night chats with them I miss those activities. Pero syempre pag iisipan ko parin yung kasal pero doon na sa bar. "You sure you will not going to bars? Papasundan kita sa kuya mo." Dad said. Tsk! Always papasundan kay kuya but it's okay. Kuya will not betrayed me anyway. "Yes, dad. I will not. Okay lang din pasundan nyo ako kay Kuya." nangingiti na. Damn! I miss freedom! "Okay, your curfew until 10pm lang hear me?" "Dad! I was with kuya naman bakit 10pm lang? Ang daya! Sunday naman ngayon pagbigyan mo na ako. Please!" I beg trying to be cute on them. Napahilot na si daddy sa noo nya bago dahan dahang tumango. Yes! "Love you dad, mom! I promised after this I will be a better daughter!" sabi ko na labas naman sa ilong. Finally! A f*****g freedom. *** It's already 6 p.m when I arrived at the meeting placed we agreed on with my friends. If you were asking where's my kuya ofcourse nauna na yon sa bar isa din kaya yong party goer. Siya nga nag impluwensiya sa akin. "Sieena! Here!" Krystal shouted while waving her hands. Nakita ko din si Grace. Napairap tuloy ako ng mata ng makitang nandoon narin sa loob ng cafe ang kanya kanya nilang boyfriends. And now! In the circle of my friends ako nalang ang single. Great! Bumababa na ako sa cab na sinakyan ko at tuluyan na silang pinuntahan. "Gosh, girl! What's the tea? Spill it!" bungad agad ni Krystal pagkadating doon. Grabe, mga chismosa talaga. Di man lang ako pinaupo muna. "I broke up with Kevin kanina lang." I said, before I sit. Nagtawanan sila doon ng marinig ang sinabi ko. Even their boyfriends naiiling na tumingin sa akin. Wow! Grabe yung emotions na feel ko talaga. Tss. "Girl! Natauhan ka din for real that's good naman. Ewan ko ba sa'yo mas okay kaya si Lee kesa kay Kevin kaya nag doubt talaga kami sayo nung sinagot mo iyon. Like what eyes do you have ba?" Grace said, while laughing. They start teasing me now. Lalo na ng inalala pa nila yung mga panahong iyon. "Stop it you two. I have kwento pa kaya. You know Lukas Lostrego right?" pagmamayabang ko. Bigla naman silang natahimik doon at mas naging interasado sa mga pinagsasabi ko. "Yup, ofcourse the hottie bachelor na mahilig mag car racing why? May ganap sa inyo?" Kuryosong tanong ni Kystal. "Uy, si Sienna diba crush mo yan? I remember it before you said it to us. What about him anyway?" dagdag pa ni Grace. I smiled and flip my long straight hair once before answering them. "Ipinagkasundo kami both ng mga parents namin sa isa't isa. Anyway, should I accept it? Or not?" maarte kong sabi habang hindi nakatingin sa kanila. Imbes na papuri ang marinig ko sa kanila lumakas lang lalo ang pagtawa nila. "God, Do you eat na ba Sieena? Are you sure you okay? Really? Taas naman ng pangarap mo Lostrego talaga. I can't." Grace said still laughing on his boyfriend arms. This b***h! I am saying the truth! "You know what Sienna, punta nalang tayo ng bar. I heard Lukas is there too why not tried to talk to him para naman maniwala kami. Right guys? And convince us na pinagkasundo kayo ganon like how?" Krystal sarcastic said while laughing. Oh talaga! Krystal f**k you. Gosh! Bakit ko ba 'to naging kaibigan ang paplastic naman. "Then be it! Pano pag napatunayan ko what would you do? Huh? You kiss my shoe?" I bet. Mas lalo lang silang nagtawanan doon. "Okay, that's a deal! Kapag hindi mo napatunayan ikaw ang hahalik sa mga paa namin Sieena. Deal!" Krytal said accepting my request. Nagtaas ako ng kilay lalo na ng tumango sila isa isa. Karma will hunt you bitches. Nagmadali na silang ubusin ang mga order nila bago kami sumakay ng cab papuntang high end bar near Makati. Even I'm still underage. My height and my looks as well as what I dressed right now is like a woman who are in 20's. Ganon din naman sila Grace at Krystal kaya hindi narin kami nahirapan makapasok. Tsaka kilala na kami dito. Pagkapasok na pagkapasok palang namin nagsisimula palang umingay ang loob dahil kakastart palang din naman papasukin ang mga customer dahil masyado pa kaming maaga. Seven thirty palang ng gabi pero nakikita ko na si Kuya sa counter along with her girls. "Your kuya is here pala, baka pagalitan ka." Grace whispered on my ears. I just shrugged my shoulders kahit kelan hindi pa ako sinusumbong ni kuya dahil pag nagsumbong sya ilalabas ko lahat ng pinaggagawa nya kila mom. Ganon din sya kaya walang nagsusumbong sa aming dalawa. Naghanap muna kami ng seat at doon mismo kami sa pinaka taas para madali naming makita si Lukas mamaya. I bet dadating yon around 10 p.m pa kaya magpapakasaya muna kami dito habang wala pa siya. Honestly speaking, I could say that I am not that confident to talk to Lukas later. Like heck! We lost connection for five years huli kong usap sa kanya 12 years old pa ako non. At iyon din ang huli naming bisita sa bahay nila. Kaya how? Pano ko sya kakausapin mamaya. May kanya kanya ng usapan yung magjojowa habang ako nag iisip ng ideya kung pano ako makakahanap ng tiempo mamaya. Should I tried to dance in the dance floor para mapansin nya? Or tumambay nalang kaya ako malapit sa seat nya ganon? Arrgg! I don't know what to do! Bakit ba ako pumayag sa deal. We kill time almost ordering the drinks that we like. Hanggang sa hindi na namin namamalayan yung oras. I am sobber right now. Ganun din ang mga kasamahan ko. Muli lang ulit umingay ang bar ng mapagtanto naming dumating na yung kanina pa namin inaantay. Si Lukas. "He's here na pala Sienna. Salubungin mo na." pang asar ni Krystal. Nagharumentado na naman ang puso ko ng mapagtantong dumating na nga talaga si Lukas. Dahil nga popular sya dito halos lahat ng babae gustong makalapit sa kanya buti nalang may bouncer kaya hindi rin sila nagtagumpay. Since nandidito kami sa taas kitang kita namin sya sa baba. Lumapit pa ito sa lounge ni Kuya para mangumusta. They are talking I could see that. Nakita ko ding may itinuturo si kuya sa taas which is my seat. Kuya what the hell are you do! Nakakahiya. I just didn't expect na mahanap ako agad ni Lukas kaya nagtama ang mata namin ng halos tatlong segundo bago nya ibinaba. Naghiyawan naman sila Grace at Krystal sa tabi ko ng makita din nila ang short intreaction namin. I look like a f*****g tomato for sure dahil sa sobrang hiya...at kilig. Damn him! Ang gwapo. After five years we seperated mas lalo syang tumangkad. His muscle too is very evidently showing on his shirt kahit na sa malayo. Ang bango din tingnan like Girl! Sinong hindi mapo-fall diyan. Napalunok pa ako ng bahagya ng mawala si Lukas sa paningin namin at mukhang aakyat na dito. "You dim witch Krystal! Mukhang nagsasabi ng totoo si Sienna gaga ka paakyat na dito si Lukas." matawa tawang sabi ni Grace. Napainom nalang tuloy ako ng whiskey matapos ko iyong marinig sa kanila. What should I do? Sa akin ba talaga iyon pupunta but why? "Still early to celebrate Grace. Nandito kaya sa taas si Loren look oh! Yan sadya nyan at hindi si Sienna." kumpyansang sabi ni Krystal. Damn she's right. Loren is a model at ang pagkaka alam ko medyo matagal tagal narin silang nagkikita in public. May articles pa nga na nagsasabi na baka sila na daw. "Oh, your right! Let see where Lukas would go nalang." ani ni Grace. I am sweating bullet this time. Lalo na ng magtama na naman ang mata naming dalawa at mukhang papalapit pa nga sya sa pwesto namin. Pero kung tutuusin mas mauuna kase talagang madaanan itong table namin bago ang table ni Loren. Nasa dulo pa kase iyon habang ang amin nasa bungad. Fuck! What should I do. Kabado narin ako. Minutes later dumaan na nga siya sa amin. Krystal tried to say Hi, while Grace stopping Lukas and mentioned me. Oh gosh! What the hell are they doing! "Hi, Lukas! Si Sieena oh." Grace lament while pointing at me. Holy cow! That so embarrassing! Wala tuloy akong nagawa kundi tingnan siya saglit at ibinaba ulit ang tingin. "Yeah, Hi! Ms, Alcazar. Anyway, I have to go." Lukas said in a hurry. Halos lamunin na ako ng lupa matapos nyang umalis sa harapan namin. The hell! Iyon lang yon? Hindi nya ba alam? I bit my lips as the two started to laughed. Inaasar na ako lalo dahil daw masyado akong hibang. See their attitude! Mga walang kwenta. Bakit ko nga ba sila naging kaibigan? "See Grace! Sieena is just a liar. I bet gawa gawa nya lang talaga iyon." Kyrstal said, in irrating voice. I started to become annoyed. Nagsasabi naman ako ng totoo but I guess masyado lang akong na excite kaya feeling ko kaya ganon din ang atake ni Lukas ay dahil miske sya hindi nya pa alam. "Pano ba yan girl! Hahalikan mo ba paa namin?" dagdag ni Grace. This b***h! "Just kidding, mabait naman kami basta next time 'wag masyadong mataas pangarap ha? Anyway, Krystal my mom called me na eh. Uwi na ako. Tara na Flynn." Napairap ako sa hangin habang minumura ko na sila sa isip ko. After this wala na kayong kaibigan. I will no longer interact with you two. Mga low class. "Yeah, ako din pala. Sienna sorry. Uwi na kami have fun nalang dito. Libre mo nalang kami bukas for your peace offering. Bye!" Krystal said. Oh really! Ulol. I am not a good daughter nor a good girl. Kaya yung mga ganitong scenario sa buhay ko sanay narin ako. I cursed a lot but only in my mind. That's how I am. I just faking my smile while waving my right hand to them for saying goodbye. Nawala narin naman sila sa paningin ko after. So, I guess. Lulunurin ko nalang ang sarili ko sa alak. Fvck you too Lukas. I will no longer fall for you ever again.