Embrace Me Once Again

CHAPTER 14

Chapter 14

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Doc,anong nangyari sa kanya?" "Doc is she okay?" "doc what time will she wake up?" "doc she's already 5 hours sleeping,why is she not waking up? Dahan dahan na iminulat ko ang mga mata ko,purong puti na kwarto lamang ang bumungad sa'kin.this isn't my room.mas lalong hindi ito ang room ko.hospital,nasa hospital ako.ramdam ko ang pagyugyog at pagyakap sa'kin ni Caless.hindi ako gumalaw,nakatingin lamang ako sa kisame ng hospital.the last time I remember is kausap ko si Klaus,then that’s it nawalan ako ng malay.  

"pinagalala mo kami Angela!! Ikaw naman eh,kumain kana ba?anong gusto mo?nagugutom kaba?"sunod sunod na tanong sa'kin ni Caless.i look at them with disbelief on my eyes. Bakit ganyan sila makatingin sa'kin? Dahan dahan ako na umupo at mabilis na sinapo ang ulo ko.fuck! Ansakit. "t…tubig"nahihirapang saad ko.mabilis naman na nagsalin si Zach ng tubig at inabot sa'kin.nagthankyou ako rito at mabilis na ininom ito.nakatingin lang sila sa'kin.para akong ilang araw na hindi uminom dahil nakailang baso ako nito.nang mahimasmasan ay nag angat ako ng tingin sa kanila. 

"wala ba tayong klase?baa malate tayo,tara na'saad ko sa kanila at akma na tatayo na ng pigilan nila ako.nabatukan pa ako ni Caless.hinimas himas ko ang ulo ko ng magtama ang paningin namin ni Klaus.i smiled at him so atleast his hatres on me will lessen. "how many times did you skip your meal?how many times you did not sleep?"tanong nito sa'kin.napatungo ako sa kamay ko na nasa hita ko.i sighed and look outside my room.ilang araw akong walang gana na kumain ,kapag sa pagtulog naman ay iiyak muna ako para makatulog pero magigising tapos iiyak rin.  

I don’t kno------" nabitin sa ere ang sasabihin ko ng makita kung sinong pumasok sa kwarto ko.agad na umangat ang balikat ko at nagliwanag ang buong mukha ko.ngumiti ito sa'kin dahilan para ngumiti rin ako ng malaki.Lucas! Lucas is inside my room. "Koleen…."tawag nito sa pangalan ko.lumingon dito sina Caless at Zach samantalang si Klaus ay nakapamulsa na lumabas na ng Kwarto ko.tumigil pa'to para makipagtitigan kay Lucas.what's wrong with them? Nang makalabas si Klaus ay lalapit na sana ito sa'kin ng pigilan ito ni Caless. 

"you don’t have the right to go here Lucas!!" singhal nito kay Lucas.napakunot naman ako ng noo,kailan pa nagkaroon ng karapatan para pumunta dito sa kwarto ko? Hinawakan ko ang braso ni Caless pero hindi ako nito pinansin.nakipagtitigan lang ito kay Lucas. "Caless"tawag ko sa pangalan nito.hindi ako nito pinansin.tumingin ako kay Zach pero nagbabalat lang to ng mansanas na dala nila kanina.nagkibit balikat ito ng sinenyasan ko siya na pigilan si Caless.argh!wala ba siyang balak na pakalmahin si Caless?! f**k. "what did I do Caless?c'mon let me be with her"saad ni Lucas at sinulyapan ako. Umiwas ako rito at agad na humawak sa pisngi ko ng maramdaman ko itong mamula.did he just say 'let me be with her?' hmmm.sarap! Ansarap pakinggan.  

"tsk,be with her?bakit? Tapos kana ba kay Zairen kaya kay Angela ka naman?"saad ni Caless.napaiwas ako ng tingin ng magtama ang paningin namin ni Lucas.I almost forgot, magkasama nga pala sila Kahapon. "oh bakit?! Natamaan ko yung EGO mo?umalis kana Lucas."saad ni Caless at humarap sa'kin.napahawak ako sa ulo ko ng maramdaman ko na Umikot ang paningin ko.shit! Mabilis na dumalo sa'kin si Caless,humawak ako sa braso nito para alalay. "Angela okay ka lang?"tanong nito sa'kin.tumango ako rito ng maging maayos na ang pakiramdam ko.tumingin ako rito at ngumiti.sumulyap ako sa likod nito at nakita na wala na si Lucas.lumaylay bigla ang balikat ko at tumingin na lamang sa labas ng bintana.tirik na tirik na ang araw.  

"'wag kana malungkot Angela….babalik rin kami mamaya may pasok kami eh" saad ni Caless,tumango na lamang ako rito ng hindi nakatingin.umalis na siya..ni hindi manlang siya nagdalawang isip kung aalis ba siya o mag sstay.yes right> why would he stay anyway?may zairen na naghihintay sa kanya Angela! 'wag kana umasa. "Sige Angela,alis na kami"saad ni Zach.tumango lang ako rito.kinuha ko ang Cellphone ko na nasa bedside table ko at binuksan ang aming School APP.pangatlo na lamang sa Trending yung issue namin ni Lucas.nangunguna 'yung issue ni Zairen,pangalawa naman ay yung kinuha kong picture nila. I opened the article about her.  

>Zairen perez is the Thirdwheel in Angela and Lucas Relationship? -So ,someone sent this photo of Lucas and Zairen kissing. Look how Zairen hold Lucas waist as if she miss Lucas that much, is Lucas cheating? Look closely as how they kissed each other. This is also the day that we saw Angela didn’t go out on her room.as if,she was lonely.hmm are they together?maybe.Lucas,Angela,Zairen are both blockmates.her Classmates said that both Lucas and Zairen are absents that time .its so clear that they are together.what does it feel being cheated on?i'm sure it hurts so bad.  

Mabilis na pinatay ko ang cellphone ko at tumingin sa labas ng pinto ng kwarto jo dito sa hospital.binaba ko ang cellphone ko at akma na tatayo na para icheck ng makita ko si Lucas na pumasok ng kwarto ko.parang nabuhayan ang puso ko ng makita siya.para ring kinikiliti ang tiyan ko ng makitang ngumiti ito sa'kin.nang makalapit ito ay agad ko itong hinila para mayakap.god I miss him! "I miss you…."bulong ko rito at binaon ang mukha ko sa leeg nito.ghad! Ambango niya! Narinig ko ang pagtawa nito kaya dali dali kong sinamaan ito ng tingin.pinunasan nito ang mga luha na tumulo sa mga mata ko.damn! Why I became so emotional suddenly?napapikit ako bigla ng halikan ako nito sa noo. 

I miss you too,koleen"I smiled at him.'lies' umupo ito sa maliit na parte ng kama ko.its okay,atleast namiss ako nito kahit na kasinungalingan lang 'yon hindi ba?kumuha ito ng mansanas sa kumpon ng mga prutas na dala kanina nila Klaus. "why are you here?hindi ba't may pasok kayo?"tanong ko rito at kinuha ang inabot sa'kin nito na hinating mansanas.tumawa ito sa'kin at umakto na na nasasaktan.napatawa ako dahil hindi ito magaling pagdating sa larangan ng pag arte.nakangiti pa ito habang umaakto na nasasaktan,seriously?binato ko nga 'to ng mansanas.  

"Tumigil ka nga! Hindi bagay sa'yo 'yang pag arte arte mo!"singhal ko rito.tumawa ito at ginulo ang buhok ko.inayos ayos ko naman ito ng nakatingin sa kanya ng masama. "I cut my class and go here since hindi ako makakapunta dito kapag nandito si Caless at Zach lalo na si Klaus,mukhang mga may galit sila sa'kin."saad nito sa'kin at tumawa habang umiling iling.para naman akong nagkaroon ng bara sa lalamunan dahil sa sinabi nito.i know why they mad at him,its my fault.nagkakasira sila dahil sa'kin. "don’t mind them…"saad ko rito at hinawakan ang kamay niya.i smiled at him to assure him that everything's gonna be alright tho I don’t think so.he smiled at me then caressed my hair again.he just laugh again and sighed.i saw how frustrated he is.maybe he already saw the article?  

"Come with me Angela…let's free ourselves just this time..escaped with me" he said and and offer me his hand.i accept his hand.tinanggal ko lahat ng nakakabit sa katawan ko at inalis ang kumot ng ospital na nakatabon sa'kin.tinulungan ako nito na isuot ang sapatos ko na suot ko lang ng umaga. "where are we going Lucas?" tanong ko rito.nakatingin ito sa labas ng kwarto ko.tinitignan kung may mga nurses o doctor ba na dumadaan.agad kasi na mapapansin kapag umalis ako dahil kilala ako.kaya nga hanggat maari ay nagiingat kami.  

" To the place where we can atleast free our mind..to our own place"saad nio at ngumiti sa'kin.nababa ang tingin ko sa kamay naming dalawa na magkahawak.mahigpit ang hawak nito sa kamay ko.wala sa sarili na napangiti ako at humawak rin sa kamay niya ng mahigpit…. ' to our own place….

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'Just gonna stand there and watch me burn,its alright because I love the way it hurts' 'just gonna stand there and hear me cry' 'well,that’s alright because I love the way you lie,love the way you lie' "Lucas!! Where the f**k is really where going?c'mon!" sigaw ko rito,sa motor kami nito nakasakay.the heat of the sun is irritating my skin but its okay tho I'm enjoying this kind of position of us.me hugging his back and I can even smell his scent.damn! His smell is so fuckin hot.  

"Just wait! Oh here we are"saad nito at tumigil sa harap ng isang lumang bahay na may mga nakapaligid na mga puno.halos matawa ako ng makita kung anong nakalagay na sign sa tabi nito.'happily ever after?' are you serious?kung totoo man,bakit ako dito dinala ni Lucas? Are we going to find the love together? Kung totoo man,sige kakapit na ako sa patalim maging totoo lamang. "Luljetta Hanging garden"basa ko sa karatula na nakalagay.hinawakan ni Lucas ang kamay ko dahilan para mapatingin ako rito.nakatingin ito sa sa'kin ng nakangiti,why is he smiling at me? 

"Yes and people say that it’s the reason why they are happy with their own love ones now"saad nito habang ginigiya ako papasok sa loob ng hanging garden,pagpasok ko pa lamang ay agad na napa wow na ako sa ganda ng lugar.the place was really relaxing,too many trees and flowers,you can even see the full view of laguna de bay. "then why bring me here?"I asked him,as we accept the mango shake that the staff gave us,'why not Zairen,why me?' he just shrugged and sipped on his own shake.he gave the helmet to this staff,we sat on the cottage that looks really rekaxing because its facing the view of laguna de bay.its really good!  

I don’t know..i don’t know upon my honour..what I am doing?!"he said.i looked at him.confusion was written all over his face.he's looking at me with so much distress on his eyes.he's confused! I can feel it.he's confused,but why is he confused?am I making him feel hard to choose? "what did just the little devil do to me?" he said while looking at me.i looked away and look at the great view that is facing us.people is sick,confused and forgetful and are mystified to why.i didn’t answered him.silence eat us 'til I decided to speak "Koleen about the ar-------" "can't we just enjoy the place? Can't we just free our mind? Can't we just pretend that we're together?can we Lucas?" I cut him off.  

Alright,c'mon I'll assist you to our room"saad nito at siya na mismo ang humawak ng kamay ko.halos tumalon ang puso ko ng maglapat muli ang kamay naming dalawa.umiwas ako rito ng tingin at hinayaan na lamang na ienjoy ang paligid habang kasama siya. 'I cant tell you,what it really is' 'I can only tell you what it feels like' 'and right now,there's still a knife to my windpipe' 'I can't breath but I still fight while I can fight' "why the hell you bring me here! You didn’t tell me that there's a pool!" I hissed to him.he just laughed at me and wapped his amrs around my waist.i stiffened at his move but I didn’t let it show.we're on our room now.kanina kasi ng papunta kami sa kwarto namin.may nadaanan kaming spring tapos sa dulo no'n may pool which is over looking. 

"Its okay,you can still take the pool with your panty and bra"he whispered at me. I can feel my heart beating so fast with a butterlies tickling inside my stomach.what the this man did to me?! Hindi niya ba alam na sa isang kilos na gagawin niya,may kakaibang impact yun sa'kin? "what the hell?! And you'll bring me back on the hospital with my wet bra and panty?seriously Lucas?"I said and turned around to face him. I blushed when I saw how near our faces are. I looked down to his lips.i closed my eyes and opened it again..no..no..he kissed Zairen,no! no!..you cant kissed him Angela..  

Tinanggal ko ang mga kamay niya't tumalikod sa kanya,hindi pa ako nakakalayo ng hatakin ako nito pabalik sa kanya at ikulong sa mga braso niya.hindi ko sinalubong ang mga mata nito na nalilitong nakatingin sa'kin. 'high off her love,drunk from her hate,its like im huffing paint and I love her the more I suffer' I sufocate, and right before Im about to drown,she sesuscicate me,she f*****g hates me and I love it' 'wait where you going' 'I'm leaving you' 'no you aint,come back' We're running right back' 

"Before you make me feel want to kiss you,you'll just leave me like that?really koleen?" nanunuyang saad niyo sa'kin. I blushed.h..he wants to kiss me? I'm not the only one who feels that! He feels it too! But no…I can't kiss him.. Whenever I closed my eyes I can easily recall the way they kissed each other..i can't.. "you can't kiss me Lucas..i can't kiss you too" I said. I felt my voice cracked.lumuwag ang pagkakapit nito sa'kin kaya madali akong nakakawala sa kamay nito.mabilis na tumalikod ako rito,hindi pa ako nakakalayo ng marinig ko ang mahinang tanong nito na nakapanghina sa'kin.  

"Why can't I kiss you? 'because you kiss Koleen….' sagot ng isip ko. "because I cant…."saad ko.ramdam ko ang pagtulo ng luha ko kaya mabilis ko itong pinunasan.humarap ako sa kanya at pinilit na ngumiti,nakatingin lamang ito sa'kin ng may nalilitong mga mata at nakakunot na noo. 'it is so insane cause when its going good its going great'' 'I'm superman with the wind at his back, she's lois lane' 'but when its bac its awful,I feel so ashamed so I snap'  

"But why I cant?!do you know how it feels like when I saw you kissed Klaud on the open field?! Do you know how I stop myself just to puch that man on his face?Do you know how tortured I am whenever I see your lips,half hanging,wide open,smiling?! Damn! Koleen,its very torturing!" he yelled at me.he looks so messed,I'm just looking at him with shocked written all over my face. 

"You can't kissed me because you kissed Zairen! Hear me?! Yes Lucas! I saw you,I was there! I'm just watching you Lucas, I saw how you moved your lips,so no Lucas you can't kissed me because whenever I closed my eyes the picture of you and her is always showing and do you know what it feels like? Its also torturing ,no its killing me Lucas,so never question me kung alam ko ba ang nararamdam ko dahil hindi mo rin alam ang pakiramdam ko Lucas.."singhal ko rito.nakatingin ito sa'kin ng hindi makapaniwala.ngumiti lamang ako rito habang pinupunasan ang mga luha ko.sinubukan niton na hawakan ako pero lumalayo lamang ako rito.

  who's that dude?' 

'I don’t even know his name' 'I laid hands on her,I never stoop so low again

' 'I guess I don’t know my strength' 

Tumalikod ako rito habang pinupunasan ang mga luha ko,sa pangatlong pagkakataon,kinabig muli ako nito paharap sa kanya,hindi pa ako nakakarecover ay naramdaman ko na lamang ang labi nito sa mga labi ko.when he kissed me,he likewise drank my entire soul.his lips are moving but I didn’t move mine I'm just looking at him until I felt my tears falling down to my cheeks while I'm kissing him back. 

 The feels of his kisses pulled deep into the tunnels of memory,wiping away all the weeks that we were not together,our breathes cames out short,were drowning between our kisses,I never thought that this day will come,the way we kissed each other under the blue sky is something that I will never forget ever.  

"There is nothing better than being able to hold you tight in my arms and kiss you Koleen…"bulong nito ng maghiwalay ang mga labi namin.nakatingin lang ito sa'kin gano'n rin ako sa kanya. 'just gonna stand there and watch me burn! Its alright because I love the way it hurts' 'just gonna stand there and hear me cry' 'well,its alright because I love the way you..love the way you lie' 

Nakatingin lamang ito sa'kin habang may ngisi sa mga labi nito,nang matauhan ay dali dali akong umalis sa pagkakahawak nito sa'kin.napahawak ako sa mga labi ko habang nakatingin sa kanya ng lumuluha.he kissed me! "w…wait why are you crying?..h..hey I wont say sorry that I kiss you because I loved it too..but the hell?why are you crying?"natatarantang tanong nito sa'kin.our kisses,he loves it? 

Am I a bad kisser?damn!"tanong nito sa'kin.ginulo nito ang buhok nito at nafrufrustrate na tumingin sa'kin.napahawak ito sa labi nito habang napapailing na tumingin sa'kin.bubulong bulong ito habang ngingiti ngiti na tumitingin sa'kin. "damn,she doesn’t like my kiss..i should practice more..she's not impressed"