Journal #96
"There are people who are always in love with the sky, no matter the weather. One day you will find someone who'll love you the same way."
My tears dried and i don't feel alive myself. My mom is crying beside me in my bedroom and i can't do anything about it. I don't feel anything, i feel numb. And that's what terrifies me the most. Because i know, somehow being numb was worse.
"It's not your fault Sydney" She keeps whispering in my ear and hugs me tightly. I know she just don't want me to feel bad. She thinks I'm blaming myself for what happened. She don't want me to feel that I'm the bad guy.. But i know she's wrong. It's my fault. I killed a man yet i didn't feel anything at all.
I didn't feel angry. I didn't feel regret, i didn't feel sad and i don't know if it's good
