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Hindi naman daw niya ako sasaktan, basta susunod ako sa gusto niya. Pero hindi ko pa rin maiwasang matakot—lalo na ngayon, dahil ginawa ko ang bagay na paulit-ulit niyang sinabing huwag kong gagawin.
I tried to escape.
Bago pa man ako makalabas ng bahay, narinig ko na ang pagkabasag ng mga gamit sa kwarto namin. An indication that he was already awake. I was not able to force the door open, kaya napagdesisyunan kong magtago sa napakalaking bahay na nagsisilbing kulungan ko.
"I trained her well. I can't believe she still did it." Narinig ko ang baritono niyang boses—parang kinakausap ang sarili.
Shit. He's in the same room as me now. Pumikit ako nang mariin.
Gusto ko lang ng normal na buhay. Tulad ng dati. Hindi ko nakikita ang sarili kong nararapat sa sitwasyong ito.
"Ponzu. Labas na. I'm not going to beat you that hard if you stop the chase now."
Napahikbi ako at lalong sumiksik sa ilalim ng lamesang pinagtataguan ko. Sa pag-atras, tumama ako sa isang paa ng mesa, causing it to creak as it scraped against the tiled floor. I covered my mouth and accepted my fate.
Huli na niya ako. Ulit.
"Found you."
Bigla siyang sumilip sa ilalim ng mesa. Walang pag-aalinlangang hinila niya ang braso ko, pinilit akong lumabas mula sa pinagtataguan ko.
And I realized—hindi niya ako nahuli ulit.
Because in the first place, I never really escaped him.
"Good girl. Revealing your location the moment I asked you to." He chuckled, his fingers trailing over my cheek. "I trained you so well, didn't I?"
Hinalikan niya ako sa noo. I shivered.
"I suppose I'll make you come ten times tonight instead of twenty."
Namilog ang mga mata ko. Hindi ko alam kung dahil sa kaba o sa pagod.
"T-Ten?" My voice broke.
"Yes." His strong fingers wrapped around my neck.
"I was willing to restrain myself tonight and let you rest, but you planned an escape." Dinama niya ang balat ko sa likuran, ang hagod niya mabagal, maingat, pero puno ng babala. "Alam mo naman siguro bago mo ginawa, Ponzu. The moment I catch you, you get punished."
His grip tightened. Napapikit ako sa biglaang hapdi, sa takot, sa init ng kanyang palad na masyadong pamilyar sa balat ko.
"You heard me, right... baby?" His breath ghosted over my lips.
"Y-Yes."
I moaned.
"Yes..."
Realization hit me hard.
I can never run away.
"You must be tired of all the hiding, baby." His voice was almost gentle. "Let me carry you to bed."
Kaysa magpumiglas, yumakap na lang ako sa leeg niya habang binuhat niya ako, iniakyat muli sa kwartong matagal ko nang gustong takasan. Gusto kong umiyak.
How did I even think I could leave, when I can't imagine living without his warmth?
Then I remembered how we were before. Would things have been different if I hadn't—
"What are you thinking?" His fingers suddenly gripped my chin, forcing me to look at him. His eyes were burning with anger.
"Huwag mo na siyang isipin, Ponzu. He's dead."
Nanlamig ang buong katawan ko. Nanginig ako noong nakita kong bumakat ang ugat sa sentido niya.
Galit na galit siya.
Dahil pa rin ba ito sa ginawa kong pagtakas?
"C-Cai—"
Bago ko pa matapos ang pangalan niya, muling lumapat ang kamay niya sa leeg ko.
"You..."
Dumidiin.
"...have no right..."
Mas dumidiin.
"...to call my name."
I gasped. His grip was too tight, too punishing. I could barely breathe. Pero sa tindi ng nararamdaman kong pressure, sa kakaibang init na bumabalot sa katawan ko—napaliyad ako, my eyes rolling to the back of my head.
"A-Ahhhh..."
I moaned as my body trembled.
He laughed.
"What a good f*****g slut. Orgasming just because I choked you?"
Masyado pa akong sensitibo. Napapitlag ako noong dinampian niya ng ngipin ang tenga ko.
"But to break the bad news to you, baby..." He purred. "You still have a long night ahead. That's one out of ten."
And then he stripped me bare.
"Are you ready?"
I nodded weakly.
"I want you to say it. Beg for it like my good little girl."
Shit.
"Say it." His voice dropped lower, more menacing. "Or do we still need the whip?"
"N-No..."
I shivered as he pulled down his boxers.
"I-I'm ready." My voice trembled. "Please... please, make me cum."
"Damn." His smirk widened.
"Can't wait to f**k you like a cat in heat... just like how you want it."