Fatal Desires

Kabanata 6

I blink more than twice to check if it was just something from my hallucination, but it is not. Totoo 'to, nasa reality ako, at naglalakad talaga siya palapit sa akin na walang kahit anong damit pang-itaas.

I tried my very best not to look at his so called gorgeous body, but my eyes can't help not to look at it. Sino ba naman ang hindi matutuksong tumingin sa nakakatakam niyang katawan. Both of my eyes were glued to his yummylicious six packed abs, and it lasted for a few minutes. Umangat ang tingin ko sa kanyang matipunong dibdib. Mayroon iilang hibla ng buhok doon.

I want to caressed the strands of hair on his chest. I am tempted. Buti na lamang ay napigilan ko ang sarili ko.

My eyes travel up to his adam's apple, down to his well toned muscles, and back to his yummy abs. Bumaba pa kaunti ang tingin ko at napunta 'yon sa kanyang underwear. Ang taas ng kanyang calvin klein brief ay sumisilip.

He's like a portrayer of my fictional character husband. Bakit kailangan niyang maging ganito ka-perpekto?

"Your saliva," he started when he reached my place and opened their gate.

"Huh?"

"Iyong laway mo, tumutulo."

"W-What?!"

My eyes widened because of what he said. Itinaas ko ang kamay ko papunta sa aking bunganga. Kinapa ko 'yon at pinakiramdamang maiigi ngunit wala namang kahit anong likido ang naroon.

"Kidding," he told me. Adoration filled within his eyes again. Bakit ganito lagi ang uri ng tingin na ibinibigay niya sa akin? I might misinterpret it if he will continue doing that.

I noticed a thin line on his lips. It is like he is preventing himself to smile or laugh. I secretly smiled with that thought. I like it when he smile, but I like it more when I'm the reason why.

"What are you doing here, kiddo?"

"I'm not a kid!"

Isang irap ang ibinigay ko sakanya dahil sa iritasyon. Hindi na ako bata, Chaos! Kaya ko nang gumawa ng bata at ikaw ang gagawin kong ama ng bata. That is what I want to shout on his face, but not now. May tamang panahon para marinig niya ang bagay na 'yan mula sa akin.

"What do you want?" He asked with his cold baritone voice. I bit my lower lip and shifted my gaze into different sides. Halos dumugo na ang labi ko sa higpit nang pagkakakagat ko.

Damn. I didn't know that asking a guy for a date would be this hard. Ilang beses akong nag-ensayo kanina at ilang oras ko ring kinabisado ang sasabihin, pero tila na-mental block ako ngayon. Parang wala akong maalala.

Bumaba ang tingin niya sa hawak hawak kong cookies bago muling ibalik ang tingin sa akin. He raised a brow which makes me bite my lips harder.

"Uh, cookies!" Siniglahan ko ang tono ng boses ko at inangat ang hawak kong cookies. "I'm here to personally give this to you. Consider this as my apology gift for being rude to you last time, and to thank you for the ride."

A thin line formed within his lips as he reached for the baked cookies that I handed to him. Now, I need to tell him about my main agenda. But, how?

"I'm not a fan of cookies, but thank you for the effort."

Tumango siya at muling ngumiti. I keep on biting my lower lip out of nervousness. How should I approach him with my main agenda?

He raised a brow again when he noticed that I am still standing outside their house. It is like he was waiting for me to say a word. I let a slight sigh and faced him bravely.

I was about to speak when someone opened the main door of their house. A lady wearing only a one strap top paired with a dolphin shorts is smiling wildly while walking towards our direction.

Agad niyang nilapitan si Chaos, at lumingkis sa kanyang braso. I diverted my gaze because I can't afford to see the view.

"I told you to wait for me inside," pangaral niya sa babae. Napanguso naman 'to at mas lalong ipinulupot ang kamay sa braso ni Chaos.

"Wow! Cookies!" She grabbed the cookies that I gave to Chaos. Binalewala niya ang pangaral nito at masayang inangkin ang hawak ng binata. "Is it for me? Wow! Thank you," she said and kissed him on his right cheek.

That's not for you, b***h!

I decided to fake my cough to get their attention. Agad namang napalingon ang dalawa sa akin. Nanatili ang masayang reaksyon ng babae habang ang kay Chaos naman ay hindi ko maintindihan.

"Una na ako, kuya Chaos. Thank you again." I faked my smile to him and to his girl before turning my back to them.

"Azhia."

Nakakailang hakbang pa lang ako nang bigkasin niya ang pangalan ko. I was tempted to face him, but I did not let my heart decide for me. Tuloy-tuloy ang lakad na ginawa ko at nagkunwari na lamang na hindi ko siya narinig.

Days have passed since my last interaction with him. I informed mom, that I will not attend the promenade anymore. Nawalan na ako ng gana sa bagay na 'yon. They were shocked and curious about my sudden decision, but they respected it. Even Yuna, my bestfriend is questioning me and convincing me to come.

I took off my bathrobe and got into the bathtub with dark rose petals in it. I closed my eyes as I felt the cold water touched the warmth of my skin. I lay down and completely soaked myself in the water.

Minutes have passed and my mind is still wandering around. Chaos image with his girl suddenly appeared on my mind. Chaos is half naked while she was only wearing a small piece of clothes. I'm still young, but I'm not dumb. Alam kong mayroong kakaibang nangyayari sa pagitan nilang dalawa. Baka naistorbo ko sila sa ginagawang milagro.

His girlfriend is beautiful. Mukha siyang kaedad lang niya o mas matanda ng kaunti. He's attracted to girls older than him. He preferred that, for sure.

Maybe I should start accepting the fact that he only sees me as a younger sister. Nothing more, nothing less.