Fatal Desires

Kabanata 5

"Looks like my sister is in the good mood, huh."

Pansin sa akin ni kuya Art na ngayon ay pababa ng hagdan. Matamis na ngiti ang isinukli ko sakanya na siya namang ikinatawa niya.

"I'm bothered about that smile of yours. What happened, Azhia?" He asked.

"Nothing," I shrugged. Humakbang na ako palayo sakanya, pero sinundan niya pa rin ako hanggang sa kusina. I opened the fridge and brought something cold to drink. Pakiramdam ko ay na-dehydrate ako sa moment naming dalawa kanina.

Muli nanaman akong napangiti nang maalala 'yon. His image suddenly appeared on my mind, and I can't help to smile more wider.

"You're smiling again. Really, Azhia?" He said with a tune of disbelief. "Umiinom ka lang ng tubig, ngiting-ngiti ka na."

"So, smiling is a crime now?"

"Not really," he chuckled a bit before facing me again with his accusing looks. "Pero 'di normal 'yong ngiti mo ngayon."

Umiling na lamang ako at inubos ang iniinom. Hanggang sa pag-akyat ko sa hagdan ay nakangiti pa rin ako. Hindi na ako muling sinundan ni kuya Art, pero alam kong bukas ay kukulitin niya rin ako. I knew him too well. Alam kong hindi siya titigil hangga't hindi nalalaman ang totoo.

Hanggang sa pagpikit ng mata ko ay hindi ako nilubayan ni Chaos. At this moment, I already know that this is not a simple attraction anymore. Maybe, I'm falling for him deeper than I expected.

We almost kissed! Uminit ang aking pisngi nang maalala ang naging tagpo kanina. Buong akala ko talaga ay hahalikan niya ako katulad ng mga napapanood ko, pero mali pala ako.

Natulog ako na mayroong ngiti sa aking labi, at nagising akong may ngiti pa rin sa labi. I got ready in no time and still had an hour before my first class starts.

I grabbed my things and fix myself before going down the stairs. Lahat yata ng maid na nakakasulong ko ay nawiwirduhan sa akin. Masigla ko kasi silang binabati at mukhang naninibago ang mga 'to. I don't usually greet them every morning. Madalas ay busangot akong bumabangon dahil gusto ko pang matulog.

Dad was sitting in the dining area, reading something while sipping on his cup of Coffee. Mommy was helping our cook in preparing the foods.

"Good morning, daddy! Good morning, mommy!" I greeted them and gave a light peck on their cheeks. Mukhang maging sila ay nagulat din sa aking inaasta.

"Good morning, ugly brother!"

Binati niya rin ako pabalik at ganoon din naman ang ginawa niya kila mommy at daddy. Umupo na kami at sinimulang kumain. I don't usually eat heavy meals, pero dahil maganda ang mood ko ay kakain ako.

"Art, what happened to your sister?" My mom asked. She's observing me, I can notice that.

"She's been smiling like an idiot since yesterday, mommy."

Curiosity filled within their eyes, except for daddy who was still busy on his news paper. Kalaunan ay nawala rin sa akin ang spot light. Dad diverted the topic about business and politics.

Kuya Art volunteered to drive for me, but I refused.

"Good morning, Yuna!" I cheerfully greeted my bestfriend as I arrived to our room. Bakas ang pagtataka sa kanyang mukha dahil sa aking inaasta.

Kahit anong gawin ko ay hindi talaga mawala ang ngiti sa aking labi. Well, atleast may improvement kaming dalawa. Sa ngayon ay unti-unti na akong nagkakaroon ng lakas ng loob para lapitan siya.

We gained the attention of our classmates because of Yuna. Tumawa siya nang malakas at may kasama pang pagpadyak ng paa. I gave her death glares which makes her laugh again. Yuna, puts her palm on my forehead as if she's checking for something.

"I am telling the truth, Yuna!" Hindi kasi siya naniniwala sa aking kwento. Kahit din naman ako ay hindi makapaniwalang nangyari nga 'yon kahapon. It is just a simple ride, but it already means a lot to me.

"Okay. Did you asked him to be your date?"

"H-hindi pa," sagot ko.

"Ay boba!"

My smile quickly disappeared. Buong oras ng klase at maging hanggang sa pag-uwi ay 'yon pa rin ang iniisip ko. I don't know how to approach him and ask about that thing. Hindi ko alam kung nahihiya ba ako sakanya, o natatakot lang akong ma-reject.

Ilang araw na lamang bago ang promenade namin at hanggang ngayon ay hindi ko pa rin nakakausap si Chaos patungkol sa bagay na 'yon. Heto nanaman ako, pinangungunahan ng takot at kaba. Paano ko siya mapapapayag kung hindi ko naman siya nakakausap?

I took my laptop to for seek help and idea on google, but I failed. The informations showed are useless and not helpful at all. I tried searching videos on you tube, but I failed again. Ang cringe lang ng mga ideas at videos na naroon. Mostly, puro lalaki ang nagtatanong sa babae.

Is it wrong for a woman to ask a man to be his date? Masama ba kung babae ang magtatanong, ang mag-aaya, o ang unang lalapit? Well for me, it is not. There is nothing wrong for a girl to do the first move. Hindi porke't lalaki ka ay auto-first move agad. Hindi rin porke't babae ka ay maghihintay at iaasa mo ang lahat sa lalaki.

"It's now or never, Azhia!" I reminded myself.

Ilang beses na nagtalo ang isip at puso ko, pero sa huli ay nanaig din ang kaharutan ng puso ko.

Tumayo ako at lumabas ng bahay bitbit ang ginawa kong baked cookies. Tila may sariling utak ang mga paa ko dahil kusa itong gumagalaw sa direksyon patungo sa bahay nila Chaos.

I took a deep breathe as my hand reach for their doorbell. I pressed the doorbell again and it took more than a minute before a drop dead gorgeous guy opened the door.

He was shocked to see me standing outside his house, but I am more than shocked to see him half naked.

That's right. Chaos is now walking towards my direction and he is freaking half naked!