In Bed With A Friend (R-18)

Chapter 11

Nang magbandang 9:00 p.m., nakikita kong lasing na ang ilan sa mga bisita ni Kyle. Nagsasayawan na ang mga ito at ang mga kasama namin kaninang high school friends ni Kyle ay nandoon na rin at isinasayaw ang mga babaeng dala nila. I even saw Sid kissing his girl passionately. Wow! Wala rin palang pinagkaiba sa bar itong naging birthday setup ni Kyle! Siguro ay madalas sila doon.

Nakita ko si Austin na medyo namumula na dahil sa alak na nainom niya, pero alam kong hindi pa siya lasing. Namumula lang siya dahil maputi siya. Pero sobrang sober pa 'yan.

Ilang saglit pa ay umupo sa table namin si Kyle at Ate Aniya. "Kayo na lang ang natira sa table na 'to. Nasaan na mga kasama n'yo?" tanong ni Ate Aniya sa amin.

Nginuso ko sila Kenneth. "Ayon, wild na."

Humagalpak ng tawa si Kyle kaya naman napatingin kaming dalawa ni Ate Aniya doon. "Totoo ba? Wow, ha! Hanga rin naman ako sa katigasan ng mukha ng lalaking 'yon," sabi ni Kyle, parang may pinag-uusapan sila ni Austin. Kita ko namang badtrip na si Austin. "Ikaw, kailan kaya titigas ang mukha mo? Mauunahan ka na, gago!"

"Shut the f**k up, dude!" bulyaw ni Austin. Napapailing na lang talaga ako sa dalawang 'to.

"Wait lang. I'll get you two some drinks, nang maenjoy n'yo naman ang gabing ito. Mamaya, knockout na 'yan."

Tumingin ako kay Austin at nakitang nakatitig siya sa akin. Kumunot naman ang noo ko. "What?"

Ngumisi siya. "What what?"

"Why are you staring at me?"

Umiling siya. "Bakit? Masama bang titigan ang best friend ko?" he said, emphasizing the two words.

"Are you drunk already?"

"What?" he chuckled. "Of course not! I'm perfectly sober! Kapag si Rafael ang tumititig sa 'yo, okay lang, kapag ako, hindi?" Umiling pa siya na parang 'di makapaniwala habang nakangisi.

"Stop saying his name. Naiirita ako."

Narinig kong tumikhim si Ate Aniya at nakita kong nakapangalumbaba siya habang nakangiting nakatingin sa aming dalawa. "Nakakaistorbo ba ako sa inyong dalawa?" nakangisi niyang tanong.

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko. "What? No way, Ate Aniya. Ano bang sinasabi mo?"

"Ang sweet n'yo kasi ng kapatid ko, e."

What the hell?! Anong sweet don? Psh!

Ilang saglit pa, bumalik si Kyle at may dalang bote ng alak at apat na shot glass. "We'll drink this night! Wait, Vani. Can you drink alcohol?"

"Yes. Nakainom na ako noong sinama ako ng roommate ko sa TJC57," I said.

Tumingin nang masama si Austin sa kan'ya. "Kyle, 'wag mo ngang papainumin 'yan! Akala niya lang na kaya niya dahil natikman niya, pero hindi pa niya kaya 'yan."

"Man! 'Wag kang KJ! Birthday ko naman, e. Psh."

Hindi na siya pinansin ulit ni Austin dahil tama naman siya. Birthday niya kaya 'wag muna siyang magpaka-KJ. Sinalinan niya ang apat na shot glass na dala niya tapos itinaas niya ang isa.

"Cheers for my 22nd birthday!" sabi ni Kyle.

Iniangat din namin ang mga baso namin at pinag-cheers ang mga ito.

"Cheers!" sabay-sabay na sabi naming apat bago uminom.

Nang masimulan ang inumang 'yon, 'di na namin tinigilan. Habang nag-iinuman kaming apat, nagkukwentuhan din kami. Na-miss din namin ang ganito dahil silang dalawa ay busy ni Ate Aniya sa trabaho nila, habang kaming dalawa naman ni Austin ay busy sa school.

Hanggang sa maubos ang isang bote, nagbukas na ulit siya ng panibago. Ramdam na ramdam ko na ang pagkahilo ko dahil sa tama ng alak. Marami na rin akong naiinom at sa nakikita ko, sober pa rin ang dalawa. Nagiging sobrang madaldal na rin si Austin, sign na lasing na rin siya.

"Ang dami, 'tol!" humagalpak ng tawa si Austin. "'Tang ina, ang daming babae ang nanliligaw sa akin doon! Sabi ni Grey, marami raw nag-iiwan ng mga regalo para sa akin doon sa dorm namin. Pare, ang gaganda ng mga babaeng 'yon!"

"Bakit hindi mo patulan?"

Naiinis ako sa mga naririnig ko sa kanila.

"'Tang ina . . ." Tumawa siya nang mahina. "Isang babae lang naman ang gusto ko. Kahit harapan ako ng sobrang daming hubad na babae . . . isang . . . isang babae lang naman ang gusto ko."

"Kunwari ka pa!" bulyaw ko sa kan'ya. "If I know, gusto mo rin naman sila kasi mga sexy sila!" Humagalpak ako ng tawa kahit na naiinis ako.

"Gusto ko nga, e. Kaso iniisip kita."

"Whoaaa," mahinang reaksiyon ng dalawang nasa harap namin na hindi man lang nalasing sa dami ng ininom namin.

Feeling ko tuloy dalawa lang kami ni Austin ang umiinom.

"Wag mo na kasi akong isipin! Gawin mo lahat ng gusto mo, I don't care!!!" sigaw ko bago ininom ang bagong shot na nasa harap ko.

"How can I not think of you? You were permanently tattooed on my mind!" Ininom niya ulit ang shot na inilagay sa kan'ya ni Kyle. "Sana nga ganoon kadaling gawin, e!"

"Why do you keep on thinking about me kasi?! As I've said before, do whatever you want and I don't care!"

I'm so drunk! f**k!

"Gawin ko lahat ng gusto ko? Are you sure about that?" sabi ni Austin nang may bahid ng panghahamon sa akin.

"Yes!"

"Kahit na ang ibig sabihin non ay gagawin ko ang gusto ko nang ikaw ang kasama ko?"

"Why am I involved?!" bulyaw ko.

Gosh! I want to cry! Bakit ba binibigyan ko siya ng rights to do whatever he wants kung ganito naman magiging epekto sa akin?! Why does it hurt me? Can I cry?

"Dahil ikaw lang naman ang gusto kong kasama sa lahat ng gusto kong gawin sa buhay ko!"

Nang maubos namin ang ikalawang bote habang nagsisigawan, iniwan na kaming dalawa sa table at sinabing mag-usap. Pero tumayo si Austin at hinila ako.

"Saan ba tayo pupunta?" sabi ko gamit ang lasing na tono. I can't even walk properly. Feeling ko, zigzag ang daan.

"We'll dance . . ." he said when we arrived in the middle of the dancing drunk people. He danced in front of me, so I danced too.

"It's fun!" masayang sabi ko.

Hinawakan niya ako sa baywang habang nagsasayaw kami. Kahit gaanong tao ang kasama naming nagsasayaw, pakiramdam ko, kaming dalawa lang ang nagsasayaw. Hindi na namin sila pinansin dahil pakiramdam namin, may sarili kaming mundo and I don't think pinapansin din kami ng ibang nandito dahil may kani-kaniya rin silang mundo.

"We'll dance . . ." he said again, before he leaned forward to whisper something. "Then kiss."

After he said that in a drunken tone, he claimed my lips . . . and I don't know what to do. All I did was kiss him back, and it felt so . . . so perfect. Like it's the best thing that I did in my entire life.

When he kissed me, all I could do was kiss him back. I didn't even know if I am doing it right, but still, I kissed him back. Ito ba 'yung sinasabi nilang epekto ng alcohol na dahilan kung bakit nila na-e-enjoy ang gabi sa tuwing nasa party sila?

I know I am so drunk.

I'm not thinking about what I am doing. Though there is a part in my mind that says, what we're doing was wrong. Best friends don't kiss each other, right? But the biggest part in my mind is saying that this is the best thing I did in my entire life. Na parang . . .ito ang pinakatama. Na . . . kapag itinigil ko, I will disappoint myself forever.

Hindi ko alam kung paano kami napunta ni Austin sa loob ng bahay nila Kyle, pero sa nakikita ko ngayon, nakababa na kami sa second floor. Hawak niya ang kamay ko habang sabay kaming naglalakad nang pagewang-gewang at bumabangga sa mga pader na madaanan namin.

Walang malinaw sa aming dalawa ngayon . . . lalong-lalo na sa akin. Hindi ko alam kung totoo bang nangyayari ang mga ito, pero pakiramdam ko, nananaginip lang ako.

He tried to open one of the guest rooms kahit na hirap na hirap siya dahil sa sobrang kalasingan. Ano bang ipinainom ni Kyle sa amin para malasing kami nang ganito?

When he finally opened the room, hinila niya ako papasok doon. He locked the door and then he started kissing me again as he pinned me on the wall. Gusto kong mag-isip. Tama ba itong ginagawa namin? Bakit namin ginagawa ito? We did not love each other. We're just best friends! And best friends do not kissed each other!

I tried to stop him.

"Austin . . ." I said in a low voice, but it makes him more aggressive.

His kisses became deeper, and I don't know why I felt something strange down there. Like there's water, and there's something poking on my stomach from Austin's pants.

"Why . . ." halos mapaungol ako nang halikan niya ako sa leeg. "Why are we doing this?"

"Because I love you," he said.

Bumilis ang t***k ng puso ko sa sinabi niya . . . na parang bumalik ako sa katinuan pero ang totoo ay ramdam na ramdam ko pa rin ang sobrang epekto ng alak.

"But we're best friends . . ."

Bakas pa rin sa boses ko na para akong lasing . . . na para akong umuungol sa bawat pagsasalita ko . . . habang sinasabi ko ang mga 'yon . . . at ganoon rin siya.

He stopped kissing my neck as he stared at me with his serious and drunken eyes. "You're not just a best friend to me, Vanessa. How many times do I have to tell you that?" He sighed. "What am I to you?" I did not answer him. "Am I just a best friend to you? We don't have to do this if you don't want to. If . . . If I'm just a best friend to you."

I catch a glimpse of pain in his eyes, and it makes me shut my mouth because seeing him hurt is a torture to me. And instead of answering him, I just pulled him and kissed him on his lips. Mali, I know. Mali itong ginagawa namin. We're no lovers but best friends and it seems like we're going to f**k each other any time tonight.

I wanted this too, I know that to myself. I can't use the I'm just drunk card because I am definitely thinking and I am being rational right now.

He pushed me to the bed as his hands are playing on my boobs. His kisses are now back on my neck. Nang makita kong nainis na siya sa suot kong damit ay pinunit niya ito at tinanggal ang pagkaka-hook ng bra ko. He sucked one of my breasts and it makes me moan even more louder while his hand is playing on the other.

Napasabunot ako sa kan'ya dahil sa ginawa niya. it gives me foreign feelings . . . strange feelings that I felt just now. But I know, mal . . . mali itong ginagawa namin, 'yon ang palagi kong naiisip. Pero bakit pakiramdam ko, tama lang ito? Na parang walang mali sa ginagawa namin?

"Vanessa . . ." I almost heard him moan when he called my name.

He kissed my lips once again, and now, I am the one who's irritated with the shirt he is wearing. I tried to remove his shirt, but he stopped me. I removed his shirt once again, and so, he helped me. And now, I am seeing his naked upper body.

His biceps and six-pack abs are now visible to me. He started kissing me again on my lips, and his feet are now trying to part my legs. He kissed me again on my neck, down to my chest, and stomach. And now, I feel him holding the short I am wearing.

Mabilis niyang ibinaba 'yon, and now, all I am wearing is the panty, which is now wet because of the strange feeling he's been giving me since a while before. I saw him smile before touching the middle of my legs. Napasigaw at napaliyad ako sa ginawa niyang 'yon because it gives me thousand of feelings na gustong-gusto ko kahit na ngayon ko lang naman naramdaman . . . pero bitin pa rin. Bitin na bitin pa rin para sa akin.

"f**k . . ." he whispered.

Ibinaba niya ang natitirang underwear ko, and now, I'm perfectly naked. I felt his fingers touch it once again, and all I could do now is moan for his name. I felt his lips in the middle of my legs, dahilan kung bakit napadaing ako. I heard his cursing once again while he was kissing me there.

"f**k! Ahh!"

I moaned again as he continue sucking the most private part of my body. I moaned, and moaned, as my body moved like it's following a rhythm. After that, I felt his fingers thrusting in and out there. Paulit-ulit akong napapasigaw sa ginagawa niyang iyon. Hindi ko maintindihan ang sarili ko.

When he was done, tumayo siya at hinubad ang pants na suot kasama ng underwear, at pagkatapos ay gumapang sa ibabaw ko. I felt his maleness brushed on my skin and it's giving me goosebumps.

When our faces are on the same level, I saw him smile as he leaned forward to whisper something as he stared at my eyes directly.

"I love you... I love you so much, Vanessa."

Then he kissed me again on my lips as I felt his maleness thrust inside me. Napasigaw ako sa sakit na naramdaman ko sa ginawa niyang 'yon. Pakiramdam ko, may napunit sa loob ko dahil sa ginawa niya, at tumulo ang luha ko dahil sa sakit.

"f**k, Vanessa! You're f*****g tight . . ."

He kept on cursing while all I kept on moaning his name as he thrust his maleness inside me all in. He withdrew it after a moment and it made me take a f*****g deep breath as it feels like my sanity left me with his d**k.

"Austin!"

He held my head back as he continued kissing me on my lips and going in and out of me. He continued to invade me with his maleness deeper . . . slower . . . but f*****g harder that it made me scream for every thrust. I started moaning more when he became faster.

I like the slower and harder, Austin . . .

"Austin . . . harder . . ." I pleaded.

He chuckled sexily as he did what he did earlier that made me lose my sanity in every move he did. His thrusting me so deep, it makes me feel that this bed will be wrecked tonight.

This is just the first time but it felt like I just experienced the best f**k I've ever had.

When he reached his climax, I heard him moan before he landed on top of me completely.

And then, it's done... It's all done.

He cupped my face and smiled.

"Mahal kita . . . higit pa sa inaakala mo," he said before hugging me.

After this night, alam kong magbabago na ang lahat. At ngayon . . . ngayon na-realize ko ang lahat. Na-realize kong mali, dahil alam kong matapos ang gabing ito, magkakaroon ng malaking harang na pader sa pagitan naming dalawa.

Matapos ang gabing ito . . . napatunayan ko na kung bakit kahit kailan, hindi ako nagkagusto sa ibang tao dahil sa simula pa lang . . . may iba nang nagmamay-ari ng puso ko.