Inaudible Melodies

Kabanata 12

What happened yesterday in the cafe was a blast that's still haunting me. I even have these huge eyebags underneath my orbs 'cause I couldn't sleep later that night!

I don't know but I felt embarrassed about my act yesterday but still, I'm the one to blame.

It's my entire fault, but am I the only one who's unsettled here?

They're not even ashamed about it. Kissing in public is normal for them, huh?

Bagay nga talaga sila. They're both liberals. Match made in both personalities for their own thing.

"There are three stages of falling in love."

Nagising ang naglalakbay kong diwa dahil sa sinabi ng professor namin. Silly me, I forgot that I'm at school, sitting in a row, occupied by my surd thinking.

My mind was in a wave of chaos. I tried so hard to ignore those but I just can't.

I sighed before urging myself to listen to our professor. It's a nice topic that I must listen to. I shouldn't think unnecessary stuff inside my head. It will only lead me to prospect widespread destruction and that sucks.

"The first one is lust. Can someone give me a meaning of it?"

The person next to me lifted her hand. It's Kacy, my friend here on the campus.

I have a lot of colleagues, but I don't tag them as my friends. I only let Kacy stick by my side 'cause I'm comfortable with her. Her vibes stood enough for my hefty and precise behavior.

"Lust is driven by the s*x hormones, testosterone, and estrogen."

Mahina akong napasinghap sa sagot niya. She's always thrilled when it comes to this case. Her dirty mind will automatically roll and activate.

"Good." praised by our professor.

Kacy had this satisfied smile on her lips. Nang mapatingin siya sa 'kin ay kinindatan niya ako. I gave her a bored look.

Furthermore, the professor continued her lessons. "Next to that is attraction. Now, can someone from any of you elaborate the significant meaning of that one?"

I lifted my hand. The professor throws me a glance and nods for a signal. She knows that I always got a cup of an ace in her class. Kaya kapag ako na ang sumagot, she'll just compromise right away.

One time, she told me that my explanations pleased her more than she ever knows.

"Attraction or also known as a love-struck phase which involves neurotransmitters in the brain such as dopamine, norepinephrine, and serotonin."

"You never fail to amaze me, Miss Awsman." a slight smile swept on my lips.

"And the last stage is attachment. Anyone?"

I clicked my cheeks using my tongue before settling back in my chair. The disappointment was dispersed in my eyes when no one wants to answer that. I mean, this subject is fine! They can learn a lot if they'll just listen.

An audible sigh broke out of my mouth. Perhaps I should grab it for a go?

I found myself allegedly standing and asserted the answers I have in mind."Attachment- It's a long-lasting commitment that was exchanged and may lead to raising a family. Oxytocin believes to promote intimacy; vasopressin which promotes long term relationships."

I give the professor the stage again to proceed with her discussion. Nakahinga ako nang maluwag dahil hindi ako nito pinagsabihan sa kapangahasan ko.

Time flashed like lightning after that. Natapos ang klase at break time na namin ngayon. I picked up my bag before adjusting the tangled part of my uniform.

I was about to walk but I just found myself dragged by Kacy towards the cafeteria.

I blew out my cheeks and stuck my tongue in my mouth for a while and then release it, creating a harsh breath. Hindi naman siguro siya gutom na gutom, 'no?

"I'd like to eat carborana," I replied to Kacy when she asked me what to eat.

"Libre ko na." I shook my head, indicating for a no.

"Nah. I don't like someone paying for my expenses, Kacy. You know that. Ayaw ko ng may nanglilibre."

She pouted. "Minsan lang naman 'to, eh! I know that your wallet has too much money but I just want to pay for our meal today." she stated and her voice was cloaked with a begging tonality. Gusto niya yatang makonsensiya ako.

"Kacy, it's not like that. I just don't like someone spending for me, okay? I have my own money, so why bother to make someone pay?"

Her face crumbled. "Ayaw mo talagang e libre kita?"

I tilted my head a bit and smiled sparingly. "Kailan ba ako nagpalibre sa 'yo?"

"Never. Never kang nagpalibre sa 'kin, beh."

"You can do it some other time." I tapped her back. She looks contented with my words. And I guess, she's dwelling on that, holding the hope that she can gratis my bills.

I was about to get my order when someone moved harshly. She mercilessly hit my shoulder, causing the tray to take a wing, and flew towards me. In the end, my entire order was tossed at me.

I look like a ripped hurricane, causing lay waste to myself.

I was in deep shock to see the disrespectful person behind this scheme!

"Oh? I'm sorry, president." she doesn't sound sorry at all, not even apologetic for what she has done.

I closed my fist tightly. I need to calm my anger. This woman pissed me off big time.

"Why did you do that?" the serenity in my eyes was still there but I know any minute, the rage within me will burst out.

"Because I just want to." nginitian pa niya ako ng mapang-asar.

How can I control my anger if her face is enough to make my blood boil?!

"Look Katrisha, I'm not doing anything to you. Spill the beans, why did you do this?"

The madness in her eyes commenced sprouting. I have no recollection of my wrong actions towards her!

As far as I remember, we only talk once! And I'm with Lucian that time- wait, is this about what happened yesterday? Or something deeper than that?

"You're dating my boyfriend!" my lips parted a bit because of her nonsense accusation.

How could she say those things?

I shot her an irritated glare. Annoyance crammed my system when the students began whispering with each other, gossiping about this fuss she's creating.

Great. My name will surely squeeze on the bulletin board tomorrow, tainted by this girl's denouncement, claiming something I didn't do in the first place!

I hate this girl. I hate her to the core!

"I'm not dating your boyfriend." I gritted my teeth while saying those.

Who is she to make a claim and charge me with an offense I didn't commit?!

"Then why are you with him?!"

Arg! I can't stand the narrowness of her brain! Just because of that pathetic reason, she became this stupid and rude?

Freaking cake. This is Lucian's fault! That womanizer cousin of mine! He's dragging my name to his worthless title towards women!

"I'm with him because he's my cousin!" my voice echoed in each corner, like a thunder ruling its pace in the clouds of misty night. And guess what? She's taken aback by my voice full of irritation.

Sino bang hindi maiinis sa kanya? Sobrang babaw niya. Napakabobo.

"Can you broaden your mind for once and for all? You're spitting petty stuff, Katrisha. Educate yourself, please. Stop being immature and grow up!"

The crowd got silent because of my sudden outburst. Of course! Who wouldn't?

Their president shouted for the first time! They know me for being classy and elegant. Graceful in every move I make. Modest and responsible!

What now?

I never raised my tonality over someone here in school. What can I do? I lose my personal carriage of control because of this idiotic woman!

The sturdiness I made in my whole life was torn into wrecked fragments. My reputation was already fractured, damaged, and no longer in one piece to gaps in continuity!

This is all Lucian's fault!