Inaudible Melodies

Kabanata 16

Days passed like a blur. Our pre-final exam of a specified kind was over. So, almost all of the students here have a lighter mood and cheerful faces. I mean, who wouldn't? Our exam was like a lump in our throat that's now already got rid of.

Students breathe better, even me. I just can't deny the fact that I'm happy 'cause the exam was done.

Those routine eye exams every grading is the most stressful day of my life. I'm glad that it took its wing of an end.

Furthermore, with the book in my hands, I went to the SSC office. I need to elucidate some things to my co-members about the upcoming feast in the school. Then, we will do a presentation in front of the Dean for the approval and clarifications regarding 'bout the events we were in charge of.

I was startled a bit when out of nowhere, Kacy bumped at me.

Natatawa niya akong tiningnan dahil sa pagkagitla ko. I give her an annoyed look.

"I'm busy, Kacy."

"Yeah. It's written all over your face. Sama ako sa SSC office." the smile on her lips fell before pouting.

"You only want to see the Dean, do you?" Kinindatan niya ako.

Of course. Dean will also participate there. Like what I've mentioned earlier, he's the boss.

"Tumpak ka, gurl!" ani niya bago humalakhak.

Tinatanong pa ba 'yan? She talks a lot about the Dean and trust me, I already memorized her sentences and a bunch of praises!

"You know what, Kacy? You should turn whatever your feelings you got for him to others. I know that he's not that old, but there's this barrier between you and him. He's the head of the school, while we are his fellow students. Better clear your feelings, and know the consequences of it before it's too late."

That's a matter of fact and I don't know if she would take that or shrug those off.

Her both shoulders dropped. I felt sorry for disappointing her and crushing her feelings, but there's huge aftermath if she will continue to be like this!

Ayoko lang masaktan siya. Ayokong makitang umiyak siya nang dahil lang sa isang lalaki. Worst, she likes the head of the school. Grabeng sakit 'yun panigurado.

"B-but... I can't force myself to get rid of this feeling, Lea." pahina ng pahina ang kanyang boses habang sinasabi iyon.

"I don't know what to do with you anymore. I just want to warn you about the possibilities."

I heaved a sigh. Sa natatalo niyang mukha ay na konsensya naman ako. I took her hand gently and draped it around my arm.

Tiningnan niya ako ng may pagtataka. "What are you doing?"

"Dadalhin kita sa crush mo," I uttered with a small smile.

"I thought you want me to distance myself from him?" she stated, her voice was smudged with confusion.

"Nah. I've just said that, but that doesn't mean that I grasp your verdict regarding this matter. The decision is still yours. You love doing what makes you happy, right?"

She gaped at me before slowly nodding.

"Okay, then. Do what makes you happy. If you're happy seeing him, then we will definitely gonna see him."

Nanlaki ang mata niya dahil sa sinabi ko. "Really?! Oh my God! Thank you, Lea!"

I chuckled lightly at her enthusiasm.

"You're my friend, Kacy. I'll support you in every pace towards your happiness."

At least, if I can't be happy for myself, someone will.

When I open the door, Kacy's grip tightened. Ramdam ko ang panlalamig ng kamay niya. Perhaps, she's nervous to see her crush?

Several heads whirled in our direction. I ignored their looks and strode in. Kacy was still clinging in my arms and I just let her.

A few steps and we reached the vacant chair. Umupo ako at gano'n rin si Kacy na nasa tabi ko pum'westo.

"So, what can you offer to me, Miss Awsman?" it was our Dean who's enclosing his both hands on top of his desk while asking me after my arrival.

"Before this meeting, Sir. I wanna tell you that I and my co-members already did a brainstorming for the conception for this kind of matter. I will just represent it to you if it's okay? Still, I would like to take disagreement, change of theme, or anything that you think is not good. Perhaps, some alter ideas to be added, too." Dean nodded and signal me to proceed.

"Kyle, USB please." he gave me the USB and I immediately plugged it in to the laptop to launch my presentation.

We were all quiet as we watched each slide of the images. Those are the photos that contain the thoughts of purpose we would like to propose for the upcoming festival.

"It's good. I don't see anything wrong with it. All of you did a great job. I'll give the students one week's preparation for this."

His compliment is such a relief.

The festival will be held next next week. Good thing we got the Dean's approval ahead of time to squander some preparation. My nerves were at ease. I don't have to worry about everything.

I breathe a deep sigh. I glance at my colleagues and saw their satisfied smiles drizzled around their lips. Who wouldn't be happy if the thing you work so hard for with sweats was accepted and praised?

And for me, I don't like dissatisfaction, disappointment, and failure.

I had never experienced failing about something. I am on top and always will be 'cause I'm making sure of that.

I never dream of doing something wrong but in my parents' eyes, I am. Parati akong mali kahit pilitin kong maging tama. Maling-mali pa rin kahit anong gawin ko.

I'm doing everything to please my parents. All of my efforts are for them and not for myself.

Sounds ironic, np? But that's how my life began. And I can't do anything but take it up and go on with living with their sucking treatment.

The presentation ended well. After that, Dean excused himself and let us savor our little achievement on succeeding this.

My companions joined me. I gave them a gentle smile to our success together. Even if that project was a petty thing, I'm still happy. After all, we all worked hard for that.

"Galing talaga ng leader namin!" it's Kyle, the vice president of the council.

"Oo nga! The best!" said our secretary, Kristine.

"Don't flatter me too much. Lahat ng 'yon ay pinagtulungan nating paghirapan." I insisted.

"Hay, naku! Nakaka-inggit ka! Beauty with brain na, sa'n ka pa?" Napatawa ako ng mahina sa sinabi ng business manager namin na si Hades.

I waved my hand while chuckling.

"Oh, gosh! Stop sugar coating things. Ewan ko sa inyo. Mauna na kami." I dismissed though still smiling.

"Sige. Bye, Pres!"

I kept on laughing and my stomach felt like it was hurting because of the reckless statement coming out from Kacy's mouth. She's constantly praising our Dean.

"Ang gwapo talaga! Hot at papable!" kinikilig niyang pahayag.

"Hay, Kacy. You just continue to lust over him forever! Your admiration for him cannot be reciprocated because of the age gap and status between you two!"

It presumably sounds harsh but I think, that's the right word that fits her situation. I don't know if she will take it for good or bad, but I just wanna rub the honesty of my opinion about this stuff.

"Iyon nga, Lea. Gusto ko pa rin kahit mali."

"Mali na nga, gugustuhin mo pa? Ewan ko sa 'yo, Kacy."

We're now strolling down the hallway, taking our feet to the cafeteria.

As soon as I strode inside, a pair of warm orbs pinned my eyes. Those hazel eyes... it was Lucian. Anong ginagawa niya dito?

When my eyes shifted into a different stance, I noticed Katrisha who's sitting next to him.

Suddenly... my heart seems to skip a beat and ache when I saw how close they are to the point that their skin was almost sticking together.

Right. He's here for his girlfriend.

Tila may bumara sa lalamunan ko at kay hirap lumunok. However, I shove those disturbing thoughts at the back of my mind.

Mahina kong ipinihig ang ulo ko bago nagpakawala ng malalim na buntong hininga. Then, I clicked my cheeks using my tongue before tilting my head sideways to avert my gaze from his prying eyes.

Lucian... you are really difficult to understand, huh?