Illegal Desire

CHAPTER 1

LEVANA

Speaker bend over with the romantic sounds, evil apt opinions grew to my self to think about that day I was left none, I had none but myself about to lost my sanity.

As I hold the body of the goblet, my ring on my index finger click with its glass surface. I shake it, withered my eyes to see how much I wanted to forget him, to overturn what we had yesterday. I shook my head before drinking my wine.

Napatinag ako sa pagkalabit ni Gresette mula sa gilid ko na todo sa pagmamasid na obligado sa paghahanap ng kung sino. Hinarap ko siya ngunit napatigil sa likuran niya dahil sa pagsalubong sa 'min ng hindi pamilyar na lalaki.

His hair blanch with curly tips, brows colour was in suffice to mesmerised me. His ash gray tux with that enlaced tie around his neck was so comfortable to opined an information-he's not dangerous but with that simply gaze, it winced me inside to cloak my inferred reason.

"Good evening, ladies." paunang salubong niya habang inilipat ang tingin sa kasalukuyan sa katabi kong si Gresette.

"Uh-Good evening?" nakikisabay na bati rin ni Gresette sa kaniya. I regulate my posture, my back curved with straight pose as I'm in responsible to accept his hands to have a shake and completely show that we accept his greet.

"The night is great, isn't it?"

"Mhmm.." tumatangong ani ko ngunit wala sa kawalan ang pansin ko kundi nakatuon sa harapan. Pinapasakit ng mga mata kong iiwas ito dahil sa init na nagmumugto sa lalamunan ko.

"Uhm.."

"Ano bang kailangan mo?" sabat agad ni Gresette para matigilan ang lalaking hindi pa nagbibigay ng kaniyang pangalan.

"Huh?"

"I mean, what do you need, why are you here? You didn't see, many person granted for dance, for slow dance with romantic background song?" Gresette spirally put an end mark to her phrases as I look next to this guy.

"No. Sorry, if that's how you deducted me, but I'm here to invite this lady to have a dance with me." turo niya sa 'kin sa pamamagitan ng kaniyang pagtingin ng walang pag-aalinlangan.

"Teka lang, teka, teka. Wait!" pang-aabala sa 'min ni Caster na paparating pa lang dala ang maliit na saucer na may laman ng appetizer.

My brows has creased, I put the glass on the table which have its own vase contained with fake flower in the middle. My emotion upon in confusion faded when he groaned for complaints towards this man.

"Anong kailangan mo sa diwani ko?" nagtungo siya sa harapan ko, hinawakan pa ang palibot ng kamay ko para ma-protektahan.

"You are?" The man asked, his stare had stroke to Caster before it passed next to me and plastered a smile.

"Sabihin mo muna kung anong kailangan mo, baka ako pa ang bangungutin dahil sa pagpapabaya ko sa kaniya."

"No,"

"Anong no?"

"I just wanna have her hands, I want to have a dance with her, is there any problem with that?" he didn't gave up, he didn't think about the foreseeable reason why I'm here to drink and not there to have a dance together with those couple people.

Malawak naman ang paligid, kaunti pang puwesto sa bandang tabi namin. Kulay pula ang lapag, mga dekorasyon na nakabitin sa mga puno ay siya namang nagbibigay ng sapat na liwanag para koronahan ang dilim at talunin ito.

"Tara na." itinabi ko si Caster sa gilid ko at kinuha ang kamay ng lalaking nasa harapan ko nang hindi na pinapakinggan ang rason ni Caster.

"Nasisiraan kana ba, Levana?"

"Huy! Ang OA mo, eh tabingi naman 'yang pagiging lalaki mo sa kaniya. Hayaan mona, hindi ka naman mamamatay, may sunod pa. Sasayawin ka niya mamaya kung gusto mo." tinapik ni Gresette si Caster sa bandang likod para mapa-abante ito sa 'kin.

"Pagkatapos niya ako rin, ah?" tumatangong tinanggap ng lalaking 'to ang pabor ni Gresette.

"Pagkatapos ng babaeng 'to, ako naman." Agad na hinila ni Gresette ang braso ni Caster para mapaupo sa tabi ng upuan at panlakihan ng mga mata.

"Huh?"

"Hindi, ang ibig sabihin ng kaibigan namin ay siya naman ang magsasayaw kay Levana pagkatapos mo sa 'min." palusot ni Gresette habang hindi mapigilan ang pagkurot niya sa braso no Caster na namimilipit na sa sakit.

"Sige, 'Una na kami."

Naka-puwesto kami sa gilid, marami na ang nasa gitna. May mga matatanda na rin ang nagsipasukan kasama ang kanilang mga kapareha. Humawak ako sa balikat niya habang naka-handa na rin ang kaniyang isang kamay sa bewang ko.

"I don't know what's your name, maybe I can know it now?" mapang-uto niyang tanong.

"Levana. You heard it while ago," I mused, my hand starts to gripped on his shoulder as we starts on stepping our toes to dance.

Slowly, music is slowly digging me up to look at his forehead. Napaka-gaan, hindi ko ramdam kung gaano kasakit at nakakapang-hina ang nakaraan noong sobrang tanga pa 'ko para magpa-uto.

I smile while he pull me close to him to hear his breath sailing my skin on my shoulder. Maingat ang pag-ikot ko dahil na rin sa pagkakahawak niya sa kamay ko habang naka-itaas.

"Caprion." sabi niya habang tuloy kami sa pakikisabay sa musika.

"My name is Caprion." he repeated, our gaze met, my feet didn't open the hatches to welcome a grasp but accept him as a new acquaintance.

I bid my approachable smile, I tends to slid my arms to his scruff as we both dwindle the steps farther from the music had rose around.

"That's unique." papuri ko habang malalim na nakatingin sa kaniya.

"I don't think it is. I don't like my name and you're the only girl I heard it's that unique to make me believe," saad niya para kumunot ang mga noo ko.

Kung gano'n, wala pang nakakapagsabi sa kaniya kung gaano kakaiba ang pangalan niya?

"And?" I added.

"I guessed that's your surmise?" pagbabalik niya ng tanong.

"My own perspective?"

"Let's end this dance, you're hungry." sunod na tumingin sa tiyan kong hindi ko napansin na pati siya ay mapapansin 'yon.

"Uh?"

"You're beautiful, Levana." you are the first guy I know is true to word.

Inaya niya akong maglakad na papalapit sa lamesa namin ni Caster at sunod namang kinuha ang kamay ni Gresette para magpatiwakal na siya sa kilig.

"Gutom ka, bhe?"

"How's Lola?" objected his question to shifted it on other room.

"Sandali lang, kumain ka muna." dinukot niya ang phone mula sa kaniyang bulsa at tuluyang lumayo para maiwan ako kaharap ng mga pagkaing pinasunod ng lalaking nagngangalang Caprion.

Such a good guy.

Wala sa sariling napangiti ako sa kawalan saka kinuha ang tinidor na nakatabi sa plato. Ang lamesa lang namin ni Caster ang mayroong pagkain na ganito karami, limang putahe habang ang kanin ay isang oval shaped na pinggan para kumunot ang noo ko at mapalingon sa puwesto nila Gresette ngayon.

I deeply move off a breath, with the fork on my hands-I taste the pork. Nakangusong ngumunguya, ipinatong ko ang isang binti para maipatong ko ang braso ko.

"Tayo na, Levana." inilahad niya ang kaniyang kamay sa harapan ko ngunit umiling ako at tumayo para isenyas sa kaniyang gusto kong sa restroom na muna magtungo.

"Samahan na kita." kinuha ko ang braso niya para magtungo na sa daanan dahil sa biglaang pagsakit ng tiyan ko.

I brush my hair from front to back as the wind crushed to my face. We get on the section of room for girls only. Caster leave me on the front door to wait.

Knob clicked when I heard it from the cubicle. I pull my wristlet out to take my roll on medicine to heal my stomach. I burst out in startled when couple of girls dragged themselves in the cubicle partnered with laughers.

Lumayo na 'ko habang naka-harap sa ilong ko ang roll on. The door opened, they didn't disturbed me but each gaped turn hustle to stay me.

"Kilala ko siya."

"Parang kakilala ko siya."

Bulong nila ngunit mataas ang tiwala ko na hindi nila ako kilala dahil hindi ako sikat, pero noong high school days. I was a bully victim, I experienced to felt being discriminated because of what they see on me. I was treated as trash back then, because of Sivyn, those were gone but came back after hearing the news we broke up, we set apart because he found a new girl, a beautiful and with shaped ass girl.

Nakayuko ngunit naantala ng malakas na hangin dahil sa pagtabon ng buhok ko sa mukha ko para mas mapayuko at magdahan-dahan sa paglalakad habang sinusuklay ang buhok papunta sa likuran.

Hinanap ko si Caster sa labas ngunit ingay lang ng mga tao na nasa kani-kaniyang mga lamesa ang nakita ko. Sumunod ako, tumapak sa daanan na may mga sementong naka-parte.

My eyes fawned to see what's in the main venue. Bride's walk contained with that flushed smile conveyed a fatal eruption for me. This is not fair anymore, I should not feel like I wanted to talk to her.

As I taken the seat next to Gresette, my eyes disposed towards Caprion who is waking towards us. Nakapamulsa, nakangisi habang natatabunan ng buhok ang kaniyang mga mata dahil sa hanging humahampas sa kaniya.

Natigilan ako dahil sa pakikisabay ng isa pang lalaki para mabunggo si Caprion at mapasinghap ang mga nakakita sa kanila. Napatayo ako na agad ring nabalik sa pagkakaupo matapos hilahin ng katabi ko ang laylayan ng suot ko.

"Relax lang, walang mawawala sa kanila. Mababawasan lang ang angas ng isa sa kanila, Levana." suot ni Gresette.

"Where's Caster?"

"Nasa banyo ngayon ng mga lalaki, ewan ko baka nagkaroon na ng target kaya natagalan."

But he was with me while ago.

Tumayo ako para puntahan ang kaninang pinanggalingan ko upang salubungin siya at makaalis na kami sa lugar na 'to. Tama na ang pagpapanatili namin ng iilang oras.

"Caster!" I yelled.

"Caster!"

"Cast-" napapikit ako matapos kong iikot ang sarili para libutin pa ang lugar ngunit dahil sa pagbangga ng kung sino ay natigilan ako.

Agad akong umatras, walang inilabas na salita. My toes turn rapid to dashed towards the other corner of this area when I found out the guy isn't someone.

Sivyn..

Nangangatog ang mga tuhod kong tinungo ang labas para pumasok na sa sasakyan ni Caster, hindi ko pa siya nakikita.

My chest flow with viscid fret, abundant nervous gathered in my chest to not make me breath. Nakahawak sa magkabilang laylayan ng damit habang nagmamadaling tunguhin ang pintuan upang maipasok ang sarili sa loob.

My mouth grasped after I got arrested. Napasinghap ako lalo dahil sa pagtakip ng kung sino sa bibig ko. May tela ngunit wala akong maamoy na kahit na ano para makaramdam ng kakaiba.

Nadala ako sa mahigpit niyang paghila sa braso ko at ipunta sa likuran ko bago ako isandal sa katapat na sasakyan.

Feel him smelling my neck down to my collar. I was uphold to my palm, clenching while my eyes cannot recall my force to look at this man.

"Hmm.." mahinhing ungol niya.

I tried to open my eyes, pushing him off but receive a dreadful weakness to my joints when his hands runs down to my thigh, near to the private part.

"I've been teased over you." namamaos na rinig kong aniya.

"N-No.." nagpupumiglas ako mula sa kaniya ngunit sinalubong ako ng kaniyang mga braso para iangat sa lupa at ipatong sa kaniyang balikat.

"You're such a perfect." last line came from his mouth before my eyes cloak with dim light.

I'M ON BED, bedsheet mocked through my hands. Grim room smells something I couldn't predict what is it. I curl my back, from being lazy to more slow upon moving when I heard my own flesh burnt, has lost and severely got a bumped to something.

Itinukod ko ang mga braso ko sa kama para iangat ang katawan ngunit mas kinilabutan pa 'ko sa palad na humaplos mula sa gilid ng bewang ko hanggang sa likuran ko.

"You're awake." my eyes got widen, my arms rebuked a soft tissues to be back in my place.

"We didn't start and yet you're crawling." he whispered, bedroom voice of his dunked me to sail the bed for once again after he took my waist.

Napangiwi ako dahil sa tagpong ngayon lang pumasok sa isip ko. Fvck! He's Sivyn! Dali-dali kong iniangat ang kamay ko patungo sa kaniyang brasong kinulong ang gilid ko.

"Move your hands off!" gigil kong saad. My teeth gritted, my man power has dissolved. There's a weakness gnawed by my body inside.

With whole force had gathered to my arms, I push him away to get off towards his arms as I get up and proceed to the door which I claimed it's the way exits.

Nataranta pa 'ko sa pagkakabigla matapos niyang dakpin ang bewang ko at tuluyang buksan ang pintong pilit kong binubuksan. The wall meets my back, frigid surface did crumpled my back. Exhausted trespassed to the door as I heard it locked.

Kinakabahang hinarap siya. "W-What are you doing? Lumayo ka!" sigaw ko. Wala na 'kong maatrasan, nakadikit na ang katawan ko sa sulok nitong lugar ngunit pilit pa ring naglalaro sa dibdib ko ang takot at kaba.

"How come you become this stubborn after you let me took your dress off? Little girl?" hasik niya, nakangising sinalubong ako bago hinapit ang bewang papalapit sa kaniya.

He's half naked, feel his dominant chest have successfully pinned me. I heard him scoffed, my limbs hustled towards his thigh. I didn't noticed my dress were gone, my whole undergarments did eroded my mind to think what he did.

"D..Did-" makahulugang ngisi ang sumalubong sa 'kin para ipikit ko ang mga mata ko at nanlalambot na mga brasong itinilapon sa likuran.

"Waist with this thin sized as 21 centimeters, that butt frantically wants it to be spαnks it over and over and those thigh bring me a suffice to lean on, this long black hair of yours illuminates a sensual to my groin..." he uttered with straight eye pierced on me.

Lumunok ako ng ilan pang beses kasabay ng paglapat ng kaniyang palad papaloob sa suot kong damit. The loose shirt with this exact size did seized me to forgot I was desperated when I was wanted to be loved, to receive love and care..

"You have a nice tattoo.." he pertained to the signature. My now signature as a marked of being the new, not the inept and the girl unfitted to who I am this present.

"How could I think with proper set when these lips of yours teasing me to catch it, to bite and enter my tongue to meets yours while fvcking you there." slowly, too slow as that sinner hands enfolded me to be drained. Crawling, making a motion, from the diminished pressure to this towering measure.

He slid his whole hands inside this shirt, exclusively gripped to his shoulder when he bumped my core, the midst part offsets the digits of his fingers to my cl!t.

"This part, this is the way better to reduce your calories itself," dagdag niya pa. Bumara ang lalamunan ko, parang may nakatakip na kung anong bagay dahil sa pagpapadulas ng kaniyang daliri sa loob ko, paglandas ng kaniyang isang braso patungo sa likod ng bewang ko habang pursigido sa ginagawang pagbabasa sa ibaba ko.

"Have you.." natigilan ako sa paghinga nang bigla-bigla niyang isinagad ang kaniyang daliri kasabay ng paghapit sa 'kin sa kaniyang dibdib para mailapat ko ang mga kamay ko sa kaniyang dibdib at bahagyang mapaungol.

Idiniin ko ang pagkapit sa mga kamay ko bago siya itulak at magmadaling makalayo sa kaniya. Diniretso ko ang pintuan, mabilis ko itong sinaklit at binuksan para makatakas.

Footsteps from behind troubled with anger, with playful danger as I turn my walks into run. The knob of the door for entrance and exits was nowhere to found. His area were cozy, vast as it manipulates me to gave up.

As I heard his hissed, from the bottom of my nerves had awaken to absorbed the left strength and stand over him. Not too tall, not that tall for him to be beat.

Tumakbo ako patungo sa maaliwalas niyang sala, puno ng mga gamit, mga iilang damit na nakagapos na lang sa ibabaw ng sofa habang ang iilang mga ilaw na nakadisenyo sa mismong pader ay may nakakabit na mala-pilak na kulay para masilaw ako.

From here, night's light did purchased my entire hope. I open the transparent big window on his salas to be get out.

Keeps on running, ambled towards the wall within a flowers planted to its side have overthrew me to the board and be froze.

"Run more, little girl. Found the gate. Sa kama ang bagsak mo sa oras na mahawakan kita," pagbabanta niya.

Tumalima ang katawan ko, tumingkad ang nais na makausad at mahanap ang pinto. His house was big, big than my house where me and my Lola lived but this is such a drastic lethal pain, an enormous ass for me to escaped.

Nagtungo ako hanggang may mga bato-batong sumalubong sa 'kin sa lapag. I winced, impulse fervor nabbed me to be stick on where I am as the dark filled my chest a horror.

"Tang!na. Sinong nagkabit ng mga bato dito?!" he dipped and squeeze the length of my waist as my body suffered, my toes were guilty because of this instance trouble.

Gentle hands dropped to my shaped, pulls me towards him to as he caress his hands on the top of my hair and grab my knees to lift.

"I forgot to tell that your walls were so tight. It succumbs to see the heaven." smoothly placed to the bed where I found myself hanged on.

"Bakit ako nandito?"

"I brought you here, you didn't remember?" kaswal na sambit niya.

Couple of my hair clamped my face to not view his appearance. Fingertips of him had altered a movements and creak to my side waist.

As I know, that's the place where I let the tattoo artist put the designed.

"Nasa'n ang mga kasama ko? Nasa'n na sila? Gusto ko ng umuwi." kinalaunan lamang, bumuntong hininga siya.

"You're in home already." it stabbed me softly.

I know that this is not my house, the place I should avoid to proclaim he changed.

"Hindi.. Hindi ito 'yung bahay na uuwian ko. Hindi, gusto ko ng umuwi.." pilit na sabi ko.

Strands of hair starts to make a way as his hands wandered to gather those fallen piece. My fist clenched, my waist twisted after he pull the excess cotton of the shirt I'm wearing down to cover my legs.

"You inferred that I'm here because you brought me. Why did you do that? Why are you doing this? May nagawa ba 'ko?"

"Stop draining yourself. You should sleep by now, I'll be here; guarding you." he shifted. Patting my waist while his eyes shove for something.