The fear and panic of adulthood that she never expected got her into regrets that were too late to be corrected. she wished she could become a child once more or even stay stagnant being a child when he grew and was passing through the toils and challenges of life. She felt life was unfair because it didn't warn her beforehand. she felt being a little child would make her worry- free because all her needs would be provided by her parents but now adulthood kept knocking and it was too late, she was unable to put things in order before it crept it, she felt being an adult came too suddenly.