My Four Superstar Ex-BoyfriendsUpdated at Sep 19, 2023, 03:28
The months before I was about to turn 28 were some of the grayest days of my life. I had just ended my fourth relationship at that time. I have to admit that up until then, my world was pretty much built out of love. I used to tell myself that if I could get someone like that, then even just love would be great. But I was afraid to think about it, and I've always avoided the question: what would I have left for myself once I had no love left. I thought I would go all the way with my fourth boyfriend, Borukolin. When I met him, we were both equally battered, exhausted, and confused about the future.It took us a long time to connect long-distance, to try each other out, to fall in love, and to finally get out of the mire together. But it didn't have a happy enough ending. Over the course of two months after breaking up with him, I became a binge eater. I became afraid to leave the house because I knew there would be a lot of reporters standing by downstairs in my apartment, waiting to take pictures of me in my ugly state. In fact, that did turn out to be the ugliest time of my life, I gained 50 pounds and that left me pretty much limited to fat jeans and baggy t-shirts. Many times during that time I had asked myself how I was always able to keep my boyfriend's life in order, but only manage to make a mess of myself. ----- The Autobiography of EmilyThe modern woman, Emily, is seen as a double loser: a woman who has lost her femininity, lacks professional values, and is haunted by the reputation of being the "ex-girlfriend of four soccer stars". When she flees to the Czech high school soccer team to coach the team, her gender becomes a professional disadvantage, and a series of difficulties ensue: the players' disdain for Emily, the aura of ex-boyfriends, the entertainment journalists stalking Emily, the soccer clubs' mistrust of Emily, and the fans' sexual harassment of Emily. And worst of all, Emily was fired and nearly ended her coaching career simply because one of the team's players fell in love with her. These dilemmas are like pieces of a mirror reflecting the restricted and fragmented subjectivity of women in soccer and society as a whole.Initially, Emily intends to abandon her female identity and "arm" herself with a masculine hairstyle and physique. However, this did not work. So, she began to subtly launch a round of gender offensive, she began to take the initiative to guide the direction of public opinion, the use of gradually formed personal charisma for their own soccer team to do soccer brokerage branding ...... from the beginning of the mechanical and rigid symbolization, to the final formation of the brand effect, Emily is more and more mature and experienced. She vowed to lead her soccer team to beat the soccer team her four ex-boyfriends served on, so she led her team to win after win.At first Emily discards femininity and glamour as a sign of weakness, but with her own hard work she steps on the path to finding her own glamour - not the glamour supported by elegant gowns, but the glamour that is full of experience, wisdom, courage, matched with rigorous workouts to maintain at the peak of the fitness of the body and delicate make-up underpinned by a confident smile. Makeup set off by the charm of a confident smile. And for Emily herself, do blossoming roses obviously more happy than doing a vase with only beautiful flowers.