I'm adored and loved by the demon u have inside of u...and I miss him....he's dormant right now but he's mine and he's strong he's the thing people fear in you...he's what0 kept you alive and on top for 17 years in the California Prison System...when he comes back he's going to destroy everything you built for hurting me...I don't want that but he will do it because he let u loose he let u out to grieve your mother...but don't get it twisted the turmoil u experience is him hurting because of what u guys r doing to me...I don't fully understand it but he came to me in a dream and told me I'm almost there just keep pushing thru and don't give up or lose myself...that's my demonio and I know my place with him...his love is enough that I never need to look for anyone I will wait 10 lifetimes for him to come back to me and ravage my soul...I love u mi gran amor...mi vida wherever u are.