This book is about a young woman who is about to be twenty years old ,who has a doubt of what her existence is as she sometimes feels invisible and sometimes seen ,she is the fifth child out of seven kids ,she has never dated ,she has a very big respect for her parents,that she even made sure that she trained herself not to worry them because she knows how hard they have tried , from taking her to a private highschool,to making sure she was well feed and taking care of her when she is sick ,to taking them abroad when they where little for holiday ,she is someone who takes her Christian life seriously has she calls her self a disciple ,she is someone who people can learn from and relate too has she has made many terrible funny and crazy decisions growing up ,from hating herself,to loving her self to even wanting to be alone ,to wanting to be surrounded,to crying in quite places ,to laughing in public,to wishing her death and not wake up the next day ,to being grateful to God that she gets to see the light of the day ,to feeling beautiful,to feeling ugly, to feeling strong ,to feeling weak ,to feeling lazy to feeling hardworking,to acting loud to acting quite ,to believing in friendship and to losing interest in friendship, to feeling unworthy to feel worthy,to having anxiety to having calm days ,to feeling insecure to feeling secure ,from being prayerful to being scared of praying or unworthy of asking God for anything to hating being a girl to loving being a girl ,to feeling dumb to feeling smart ,to feeling wanted to feeling unwanted ,to feeling scared to feeling Bold ,to feeling being misunderstood and feeling understood,to feeling successful ..................