A girl who thought she was the best got thwarted at a stage where she couldn't fathom because she was blinded by her egoistic attitude at that point,every girl these days is like that,you say?right,all them think they're beauty queens and the miss world's of the universe,and intelligent beyond anyone's reach.all boys are same too,they just grow some hair and then think they're kings. all stories want to be happy at end but what they lack and have loopholes in is that they're selfish at start and selfish at end,they're supposedly to be sympathised with for their situations,and the natures and characters,but in fact in this real world noone deserves such level of worship etc. Because what the God couldn't collect and correct noone has been able to. So we're all humans in a flat world at ground level,some grow some plants and show empathy to animals while some just rock on it. What we can do is strive to be what we want at heart and not comply to the world's image of us and go beyond the scope of the world.And then you can do it on purpose daily and that I can do it on your behalf.Teaming up is easy,for good or for bad,but don't forget to include yourself(and me).All you can do is love your life guilt-free so that you cannot get into blame game etc. and get hurt if trampled.Fear's the worst, don't get dragged down. I hate people who hound you for getting one answer out of ten wrong,forget about the people who do that for getting nine wrong. And never believe in any lies they tell you, about being harried already.Positivity:I want to build an app that pokes you to do something you're not doing but others are doing it for you and remind you of what others are doing but you are not.Why are our limbs always pointing same direction?when we have a range of actions that can be performed with them.Why're limbs opposed to gravity? why's the head and legs in opposite direction? it's the heart that ticks,not the body. I am that girl who had just that one idea and it bombed. I am romanticising failure here. Second-shift shit is still equal to simultaneous shit,chain reaction. Saying this again, two people minus means two possible pluses' minus.She was a normal girl according to her,just as she was brought into this world normally.blah blah...build yourself or perish..the problem is scary..My ideas are irrational.. because I am unique..my kinda girl pulls people down..and they use big words that they don't even know..The author thinks probability and novel are born at the same time,how bullshit,that means he thinks females are mere probable and that novels fiction are written only by them! It also looks like he writes only nonfiction and is really inclined only to 'reality',and like most men think novels are for women. Floods in 1800,my God. Again,'one versus the world' scenario where these ones form a group and then increase just to prove that the original 'world' is wrong.I am sure this is going to be true. My mind is fried on where I was and where I am now,so that itself is proof enough I 'listen' to people!!wrong or right I never know.and,people basing their whole lives on just one year is shit,that year my life was purposefully spoilt,wrong place or wrong time, choose one for your answer.Final analysis.If people give you shit,will you take it?no right? I will not either.Go find that third wheel bakra. Too many third wheels too, accept it.What's the point of it all if you don't let me atleast speak or interact?how do I keep sense of time?The fate is like a spiral,if it wants you to be some way, it'll be making sure it shapes that way,it won't let you take things in a straight line,and it manifolds.If you're meant to be born in a place,you'll be born in the place,and if you had to be canine,you'd be canine.And by the way,12hrs-24hrs doesn't make a shit of difference in my life. I find hot water not only boils vegetables,but it helps in digestion.Best shot is hot+cold conjugation of food inside and its slow effect in poisoning your body.In other topic,why can't you see beforehand?because you have to experience life and live it. Who went where,for what?food I'll go half the world for grass. Best shot:write a book, rather than sentences.Don't look back or else don't look ahead. I don't care if it's fat. She's a slow deteriorating bitch, don't raise her to levels of Godness I can't see. Two people are there to make two rights wrong.I don't even start saying what's wrong with him, I know.No body invited you.You came all on your own, and that motormouth needs to wash.The moment you step out of the protection of your mother's womb,(line,out of house,)it's over. that's the mental programming that happens if you want to rely on future,either way it's a difficult situation,you're granted this life once and you don't make mistakes.I am the stuck person.

Struggle is always there,for birth and for life,getting out in the real or just staying in the womb,it is always an explanation. Young people out there always struggle to do basic things unless they're endowed with rich tongues or richer pockets. I feel struggle is for life.. because judgment is for life and you've to reach the banks of a stupid river that you encounter along.. because world's round and not all land nor just water..all are strugglers, nobody is yet a winner,cause winners don't have a place in my world,they leave not to come back..I work with the rest,the losers who didn't make it and are on their ways to superfungdom..if somebody told me I was a compromise I would leave only to come back when I am dead..so that's my pride and self-respect and decisive willpower.. I will be also greatful to people who are there to watch meekly as they did before.. because their eyes aren't pretty enough to witness such greatness from my end..food is not life..tasty food especially daily to husbands and partners..and,the groups of such people aren't life enhancing either.. Out of all combinations you need that best combination too,so how's that possible?you'll only get what's shown as best or atleast second best,or atleast the last best. Now people who're in between are kind of lucky,they don't get pressure nor they get scolding..but we need to study,which I didn't.. It's sometimes better to negate things than to prove that you are the most positive..and if one dies then it's over.. especially shootout and crimes and 99 percent people who're like that..1% sanity is better than 99% madness..But to achieve that figure is also a great work..100% possible is just that,possible..0% possible is just that,impossible..But I hate seeing losers..like myself.. Don't divide life like that..you divide time..

I grew tired of telling my partner I look the same as I was before and haven't churned any fat to showoff to people like partner wants me to be. All he cares is other noise when he can't hear the stopping of a heartbeat for a while nor of that which did for a long while. He just calls the care love, while I call it No love,love.