Disturbing? Delightful? Bothered? Astonishing? Regretful? Sorry? I didn’t know on how to best describe for what I feeling at this time, sitting in this fancy restaurant—me and my best friend Rebecca, I was in front of her, she was in front of me A VERY UNUSUAL SIT FOR THE BOTH OF US. In this place where all such happy moments we spent together, my only best friend, the person I considered as my own sister. But, at this moment, I knew there's huge difference from what we are now; It’s not the old typical her. Or the typical me. Or maybe, such things never exist right from the start, who knows? But one thing is for sure, I knew for sure, that we can never go back on how we used to be before. I saw nothing but incredulously, fury in her eyes. Madness is all written in her beautiful face, the face once showered me with warm smiles, now nothing but hatred. her hands were shaking, and she’s definitely trembling. looking at her was the only thing at least I can do right now. And only SILENCE was dominating for the both of us. A deafening stillness. Yes, I made it clear from the time I embraced her husband in my owned accord; when I filled myself with his warmth and drowned myself for this delusional affection. I know this day would definitely happen— Hundredths of rundown I kept thinking when this time will come. I stabbed her right in her back, stole the person she always loves, ruined the family she worked hard to have. But despite of these all, I didn’t regret any single of it. Slut? Bitch? Home wrecker? Yeah, indeed, that’s the best words to describe for who I am, I’m such a shameless person, nothing but an immoral one. I am Yllaissha, and this is my story. You can love me and hated me at the same time.