Author Pov I have been struggling since I was a new bone baby. I never received love from my father, my mother was there but not always. My mother was busy making other children with different man. Maybe it was because my father disappointed her after she gave birth to me. I don't know if you do please help me find out.First let me introduce myself to you guys my is Mary Ema, I was born on the 03 of December in 1993. I will not say I have met my grandparents because I don't remember them but I will to you about people who left from this world and left us behind, when I said I meant me and my siblings. I am First daughter of my mother, am not sure about my because he was a man whore. like I said I was the first born, after me the is my brother Adam after him my sisters angel, Chloe, Abby and my youngest brother Chris. Angel passed away when she was very young, we were very close me and her but I guess God didn't want her to the way do in this world. This world is full of dangerous people who care only about themselves and their offspring. I found out about that when my mother passed away 2013, My relatives took everything my mother ever owned even a mere spoon. Remember I said we were poor we didn't own much but to those greedy people it was enough or so I thought. I had to grow up quickly after losing my mother for my siblings don't get me wrong we have aunts and uncles they only want what you can offer but if you have nothing, not working you insulted, look down on and be a laughingstock. 2014 I was a domestic worker a taking care Someone's children, someone sisters and Someone's husband because I needed to help brother with his needs and my sisters. Imagine you or your daughter having to attend to teenagers who have attitude and peer pressure . I dealt with alot in my childhood. When my mother was still alive, I use to help ru n the business or do her chores. I don't remember have time to visit friends or asking them to come and play with them because if not having chores I had siblings to look after. I am still doing that until now. No love nothing still struggling and fighting for survival. ❤LoveFalling in love is something that keeps me down, I must say love is my weaknesses. I don't if stupid is right word to describe myself or foolish is the best word to complement myself. when I first fell inlove I was still in primary school. When the first time I saw him I was smitten. It was as if I was be witched , he was always on my mind I was always smiling like a fool. Every time I would think about that dangerous soul, but I couldn't disappoint my mother I had a goal that was to make proud takes us out of poverty but heart wants what it want. when they say Love is blind they meant it. Love can destroy your life in matter of seconds, you will be warned told that do give everything you have into someone but won't believe you will even fight your family for love or the person you love because you gave everything you had you mind, your reason of thinking, your time and you even forget about your siblings, you'll do everything in your power to put someone you love forget that you don't know what or who reside in his / her life. Love is very dangerous can drive even a millionaire into depression and anxiety. When passed my grade from primary school I did not forget about my first love, my first crush my desire but I still had one goal in my mind to make my mother proud not letting anything or anyone steer from a different direction but I fail miserable. You must be asking yourself, even I asked my self that question time to time. I never saw it coming, never felt it coming but it happened and it left me distroct. Not knowing if am going or coming but whatever was happening, happened and I happened quickly as a lightning. still don't believe myself but it really happened. It was during school holidays, remember I was still In high school doing grade 10. I came home happy because I knew he himself will be back for his own school holiday. We met in a public transport hhhhhmmm I thought it was my like day not knowing I will regret later but I did. He was handsome, his smile cute round face brother shoulders beautiful green eyes that you could get lost them they sucked me in so badly that I even forgot what I was doing or going or why was I even doing in bloody public transport. But someone snapped me back from dream land to the living and I very grateful for him/ her. I got inside the taxi sat next some old lady who can't seem to mind her own business, but I answered everything she wanted to know about me very well and I was happy because he also know something about me.

Letting God in you. Going through hardships, sickness, loss, Loving my family unconditional and fighting for them. Inning against all odd. This book to give to those who lost everything in their life.