Feigning AffectionUpdated at Jul 14, 2023, 05:38
"You're not supposed to be here! Aren't you afraid of me?" he said with gritted teeth.
"Should I be terrified of you?" I asked, offended by his assumption that my love for him would be readily influenced because of a silly matter.
"I don't know," he shrugged, "I should have told you about the problem myself; I've been wanting to tell you about it, but I keep chickening out."
What? Is he confirming that the accusation was true?
"W..wait. It's all true? You did all those shits?" I gasped shaking my head.
"Primo, tell me you didn't"
"The cases are true. I've been found guilty of physical abuse," he whispered.
I heard it right but my mind is refusing to digest his statement. How could he do that!
I'm immersed in my thoughts, trying to figure out what he's saying. I want to take a step away from him to think, but my heart and mind kept pulling me back. Damn, this is making me feel broken inside. I am massaging my head to keep me calm and give myself time to think clearly.
R..ea..son. I need his reason and explanation. I shouldn't make any quick judgments; I freaking need to hear him out.
"I..it's better if you'll leave. Leave me alone." he manages to say between heavy breathing.
Leave?
I am astounded by what I heard. It broke my heart and it would have been better if those words had killed me.