I’m walking down a weird road and the sidewalk ends at the top of a hill with a fifty foot drop onto a highway filled with cars going seventy to eighty miles an hour in both directions. I stand there looking down at the drop below and for once on my life I feel like taking the leap off the sidewalk’s edge and just free falling to my death on the road below. As I walk backwards retracing my steps and the direction I just came from I prepare myself to take the leap. I breathe in slowly and deeply and then begin to run quickly to the edge. I tell myself faster, faster as I get closer and closer to the edge. When I finally reach the edge I take a deep breath and leap. I can hear the wind whipping past my ears and I force myself to breathe. .I’m actually free falling, I can’t believe it and it feels amazing. I feel like I’m falling in slow motion and I close my eyes and prepare for all of it to end. I’ll be dead soon and I can’t wait for it to be over so that I can be a rest with the rest of my family beside me again.