When I was a child, I always pee in our bed, I don't know but when night came I was afraid to get up and go to the cr to pee, I waited for the people next to me to move and I would call whoever moved to say that I was going to pee,It was always like that until I was in high school, my father and mother were angry because I still pee the bed.I didn't know that day, the ordeal in my life started because of what my father did, He took the glasses from me, he put a black circle in the center of my forehead, he told me not to blink, he told me to endure not to blink, whatever I see I should endure not to be afraid They say that if I do that, I won't be afraid for the rest of my life, my fighting spirit will be stronger.When I did it, while I was staring at the dot in the mirror, I couldn't bear to blink even though I was about to cry suddenly I saw a person, a woman, with hair standing up, more and more hair on the face, the skin was slowly decaying, and even though I was scared, I thought about what my father said that this is the only way to not be a coward, in the end the woman in the mirror was laughing at me, suddenly I screamed for my father and I cried quickly my father quickly ran and said, I can handle it because if I can't handle it I will lose my sanity. When night came, dad was right, I was no longer afraid to get up and go to the cr by myself, it went on and on, until one day came, it seemed like I was seeing something every night that I couldn't explain, while the dog was howling ,my black saw me like a shadow. I didn't know that my father was awake, I told him that I see a black shadow he said pray while the dogs were howling more and more dogs were howling, suddenly they disappeared when my father prayed a prayer in Spanish, all I heard outside was a rattle.Since then, my father told me, when a dog barks and seems to be crying, pray, it means that there is an evil spirit around you.Because I'm a musician, I'm fond of all black clothes, what they don't know is that I'm really emo, everything I see makes me jealous that I wish I could be like this, all the sadness in my heart is a secret. I fell in love with the first man I ever loved without knowing that he would give me the most miserable life. He is Paulo, I met him at a hangout, It's just that the day was very easy and I answered him. Because I was young and impulsive, he easily answered yes. I admit that I'm jealous, but before I get jealous, I connect what I see first before I react. Paulo is not super jealous, he still hurts, what I hate about him the most is when I sing in twink, he says that I'm looking at the customers, I say that I closed my eyes for some reason, I'm a musician and it's inevitable at work to look at the customers because that's my job to entertain. They are right, when men perform miracles, when they accuse women to be absolved. A lot if endured I wasted so many days and time on him. I want to get rid of him, I left, I ran away but I loved him, I lost my sanity, I was very depressed every day when we were together. My biggest mistake was that I blamed the master. to everything that happened to me. and this is where the blessed tragedy that happened in my life began. I ran away from Nilw Paulo's house, wherever I went. until I saw a boat going to Masbate in a place I don't know, I said let it go. When I arrived there. My a restaurant near the hospital, I rested there and ordered a soup with pork meat, it is natural for us to go to other places when eating, find a lime and put it before eating. more help with lime to know if what you are eating is real or maybe it is different. I was surprised that they didn't have limes, but I still looked for a way, I went to a nearby restaurant and bought a pitcher of cold water, after asking for a lime and they gave it to me. when I got back, as soon as I put the lime, and when I waited for it, suddenly the color of the meat changed, it was obvious that the owner was looking at me differently. I just put my payment even though I didn't eat and leave immediately. I was terrified as if I was thinking that I am not safe in this place. When I was far from the restaurant, while I was walking, I saw an apartment for rent, I immediately went there to ask questions and rented it. The owner of the apartment agreed with me right away, and I am satisfied, because apart from the low rent, my belongings are already inside, and I understand what the woman who owns said because she is also from Aklan. At the same time that we finished talking, an old man came to the apartment, the owner's guest and he introduced me to mando, mando found out that I am a musician, and I said that I will find something to play here so that I can live because it is new I'm here. I quickly became friends with brother Mando, and he promised me that later that night he would take me to his friend's bar to audition. And to help me. Everything was okay that day. I went back inside to rest when I suddenly thought