"So sorry ma'am, but you did not get the job". The exact words I prayed not to hear from the mouth of the HR. Those words pierce into my heart like a sharp knife. I didn't even know what I was thinking. The pain in my heart made me think less after hearing that the CEO was the brain behind my being jobless for the 10th time.  I barge into the said CEO's office, but nothing prepared me for what happens next. I've always been an arrogant bitch who is not always in luck sometimes.  I got the job, felt so good saying that, the HR led me to my office and I resumed immediately. Not really the way I thought but I was happy I had a job I literally fought for. Andy, my billionaire boss, had me in my taught that I began to question if it's healthy working in his company. A man like Andy, the thought of him made me wet and angry at the same time. I mean, who wouldn't be insanely attracted to this dark goodness and deliciousness? I had this irresistible urge to beg him to eat me up, or I would use my woman powers to get him into my bed.This doesn't dispute the fact that he is selfish, and it's making the initial attraction I have for him fade. Trying to be defensive in order not to get hurt like mine isn't rich enough to get hurt.Later, I heard of his insane relationship with his former lover, which took a toll on him.I became softer and tried to understand, but not always. Gave space when I felt overwhelmed, my brother and his wife are always ready to let me into their home. His children are literally my best friends. Yeah... we do have a family house without a father, yeah... my mother is a single mother of four children. Three handsome problems and one beautiful girl. That's me. It wasn't easy raising us with a father. As a Matter of fact, while Jamie and Snow were my biological brothers,  Christian,  the last child of the family, was my stepbrother, gotten from prostitution, and before you go about judging me, that was the only means of survival,  my desperate mother knew.We never lacked anything, thanks to my mother's business, and no, I did not continue or follow her into the business. My brothers were so overprotective of me, including Christian. Everyone puts me ahead of myself, and that makes me feel small. I literally had to break free from their shackles after college to pursue my purpose and get the life I've always dreamed about. Even though I miss their overprotectiveness a lot because there were times I needed it, part of me was grateful I'm now a grown lady in their eyes.Being in that office with Andy without the staff to gossip was one hurdle I couldn't cross. Staff hated me, but one thing I won't stand is being bullied by any single one of them. I would rather be dammed.Even when Andy tried acting funny, I stood up to him.I stand to be corrected, not bullied.Though I have siblings who wouldn't let a fly hurt me, I still stand up for myself against bullies. Andy would still find any given opportunity to get me question the attraction I have for him."How can someone be sweet and sour at the same time". I wonder every single time. When Andy is not being a bully,  he is being the sweetest boss I've ever had, a lover, and a friend. He put his contract on hold only because I caught a fever the morning of sealing the deal.I was really in his debt, and thankfully, we got the deal... thank goodness,  I wouldn't have forgiven myself and my fever if we lost it. Andy began going low on business, to the point of bankruptcy.  I couldn't believe a multi-millionaire company could go this bad to the point that it wants to lay off staff.He hardly talks about his parents, I would think they are dead. Andy, allowing his parents to decide for him to marry the daughter of the CEO of Pinnacle company brought tears to my eyes. I got broken, broken because I understand his reasons for his actions, and also because I do not want to share my boyfriend with another woman.He assured me it was a contract marriage but I would hear none of it.He should be willing to fight for what we have.  I wasn't perfect, but it was insanely beautiful.  "I will marry you and make you mine." Those words still find ways to sneak into my thoughts and echo like I don't have other things I think about. He was under so much pressure to give in, so he took her on a date, and he dropped her off at his house because Tricia had somewhere to be. I saw Tricia force a kiss on his lips, and I was furious. Wanted to hear an explanation, and what Andy said to me broke me completely " Youwill have to be a mistress". I looked him in the eye with so much pain and shock."You want me to be your mistress? How dare you". I stormed out of his house ,not his life i Iean... we've gone way totoar to be strangers, I just needed to clear my head.Where else would I have gone, I went to Jamie's house and interrupted their Friday rituals of seeing a movie in their sitting room. I felt so bad,but it wasn't compared to how I felt that moment.