Fly On The Wall Chapter 1 : Last night was the night that i came to a realization. If you ask me the hardest thing to do on this earth is live. So many things can change and so many things can happen to a person to change them, and not a lot of people talk about this. The hard and unsettling: THE TRUTH . The way i grew up, i was always seen but never really payed attention to. I was the smartest growing up. I never gave myself enough credit; I didn’t really have to because literally everyone i knew did it for me. My family, Friends, teachers, and even the kids at school that i probably would never in a million years be involved with wouldnt stop boasting and bragging about how book smart i was and how good of a kid i was and how i would never get into any real trouble. I was the example that every teacher set, so you could imagine what everyone’s reaction to my rebellion was. The real question everyone keeps acting me is “Why?” Unfortunately the only answer i felt appropriate to give was because it’s what i wanted to do for once. I never imagined in a million years that I’d be sitting here telling you my story. Everyone called me out on it but nobody understood the purpose and the inevitability of the situation. i think after all the bashing and conflict, the people finally deserve an answer. But there was a change. A change in me and my perspective of people. I never spoke on my hurt and my pain so no one really understood where i was coming from. When i was sad and depressed i didn’t feel like it but i was still able to dance my anger and frustration out. It was the only way i new how to deal with my drama; The thing i learned about humans. I let them keep their perfect fantasy because i know when my dreams were killed and reality hit me i didn’t know how to handle it. Depression stormed my home and kidnapped me. I was sad all the time, i didn’t want to talk to anyone, and i wanted so badly to move away and start over . I started to hate my life and the people. It’s my problem so I’ll deal with it. And this is where me and my good friend Mary Jane met.