As you are reading this long and detailed story just take yourself back to when you were a fresh 18 year old. Truly let yourself hear. Be patient and have some grace. This is a long sequence of events and to explain the story best it is to tell you the full story through my eyes, thoughts, and feelings. There will be sensitive topics throughout this story so please hold space for yourself if these may be triggers. (self harm, toxic relationship,abuse, age gap relationship, abortion, paraphilia, )