A week later came the day of the discharge, the day I was to leave the sickbed and join the rest of the world. I knelt on my knees, besides my bed, and uttered a few words to the lord. Dear Lord, it\'s about time for you to give me a reason to live, I have suffered for long, just carrying the guilt that I could be the one to die on that fateful day.it has been enough burden for me to see the love of life dying on my laps, Ooh Lord let me be your vessel, let you anchor me to the right direction, spare me from your wrath, spare me from shame. Guide me Ooh Lord, show me the way to follow the course without you am nothing. You created her for me yet you had your reasons to take her away from me, in Jesus\' name, I pray, believing and trust amen.
I stood there besides the casket with my unkempt hair, looking gloomy and disturbed, my almond-shaped red eyes, popping out as If I had not slept for days, my face looking wizened due to the sorrows of my heart, my gleaming, snow-white teeth now are nowhere to be seen, looking thin and frail, I surely knew without a shadow of a doubt that my life was now over, I stood looking at Adasa as she comfortably slept on her coffin not knowing the bitterness that she had left in my life, she had left a hole that could never be filled, it's as if she had left with some part of me, I stood there and spoke to her lifeless body with my raspy squeaky voice, no one could hear what I was saying, all they could hear were murmurs.