and I told them I have a Child here and the father is a Germany man and my Son have arleady Germany passport, and I give them birth certificate of my Son, and the said ok. This new Lawyer , he was a man, and he use to speak English very well . He help me, and told me, I have to paid 100 euros, when for any documents. I said ok, Thank you Sir. This lawyer help realy, He print all the paper , he need when he take my Document tomorrow to Home Affairs. After two weeks, he told I have to came to his office , around 10:00 o'clock am. I go there on that day, He give me all the paper, He told me. You go to receive money each month , was 400 euros, to work too part time only 2 hours everyday and you have to go courses to learn Germany I agree and I was so happy. At least this lawyer he help me. I start to find work, but only cleaning.. I search my first work I one Company, to clean the office, floor and toilet. I do that job, Afternoon while in the morning I am in the classes. what I was fair, to fight with people, one lady was caming at our House to insulting us in the house. I said OOH, OOH, I ran away, I just go out the house. Because I fear people can be fighting that Iam always ran 🏃‍♂️ away for trouble. Because of colleagues said to me about the laws in Germany. I use to be silent 🤫, like to be alone, confident, listen and to be quite. I was get a Visa for 1 years for that. What I see in Germany, you cannot go to any office without no appointment. If you just go , they will not help you anything. Appointment, date and time. If you fair you appointment. you have to wait again for one month or two months. So if you later, that is a big mistake. You have to be serious, when you have your appointment, no came later. In my country, they will give you only date, time you can go anytime. But not only at 5,00 o'clock afternoon the time , the close. Also in Germany, the send people letters through their address, Wuu, Wuu, I use to have alot of papers 📃 in my rooms. I was shock realy, sometimes i said what Country, who is like papers.,papers all the time.That my country, no letters , I have Po.Box no letters, if anyone write me, could me my girlfriend or cousin or sister not even a must. One things too , when you register to any address in Germany, next week a letter came for TV 📺 and radio, the connect all the house in the country. Than you have to paid sofort 54.00 euros for three months. Whatever you have TV or not and no excuse, If you did not pay , the add arleady money to the next payment papers.While in my country you go yourself, to register TV and Radio, if you have one. Not a must. Another things all the paper ,you have to save it, sometimes they will ask about it, when you have appointment in one office. The save it to their computer 🖥, but they will ask you again, to give them. OH, I use to have stress for that. When I get Visa for one year, for three times , Home affairs one day, told my Lawyer, We are not give you any permit to Selma. We want to see that lady , to came self. Because I use to fear to go Home affairs, I use to think, what I go to talk, because of the language Germany. My lawyer call me, tell me and give me the date and time, and nomber of the office and the name, who I have to meet. I was having painful inside in my stomach. That day , I get Headache for that. Luckily, was 7 days for my appointment. I start to practice, day and night Germany, Example Wie geht es dir. Gut und Dir. More words, question and answer. On my day , I was not fear anything. The told me to sit and start to questioning me in Deutsche. I understand them very well and the give me, my permit , work and everything with no problem at all. I think the want to see me face to face. Next day, my lawyer call me , to ask me, If get it, I said yes he was shock. For that days , until today , I never give my lawyer my Document to help about my Visa anymore, I do always my things myself. In Munich is a nice city, very beutiful, very clean and more save city. No one steal your money or to take your bag. Only problem some House is too expensive. Some city have thieves. One of my colleague, at work told me, about Koln Haubhnoff, said if you go Koln ,be careful thieves, some Arabian, Turkish and some black people they take people, phone and wallet. It was happen one day, I was on my way to go to Berlin, to do my Country passport. I have to pass to Koln Haubhnoff. My train 🚆, have to travel after 3 hours. I was afternoon around 4.00 o'clock. I was not having a big bag, just normal bag for woman. I said myself let me sit to rest 😴 litter. But I was watch out, because I see movement of some boys. Far away about 10 meters, there one man sitting alone,listen music with airphone. After 5 minutes, I wake up , I see that man was not alone anymore.I was think is his colleague maybe and idid not bothering.One boy was sitting near hi

He use to came and visit me Always. Sometimes when iam with him. I use to see him some one call him but is a lady. He told me, he have one lady who take care of his houses 🏘. He have alot of animals, Horses 🐎, 🐖 🐄 and 🐐. I was believe him but he just laying to me. He was nice with me. always he buy for me clothes, and give me money, sometimes he came from Germany , than we travel to Botswana, South africa, Zambia and Zimbabwe. He is to came eith groups of his friendship. I t was realy nice trip. When I think he was came at list 4 times. In March 1999, that time , I get pregnant for him. He was arleady I Germany, I call him and let him to know it. He told me , Please don't tell nobody, your family,your colleges and neighbours too, I ask him, Why ? he did not give me good answers. But about i am ready tell people, because I was so afraid 😨. Because that years in January, one woman was be killed to his Husband and try to flight back to a Germany. He was also Germany man.He catch him to Airport. He give me the days when he came .When the days is came, he was call me to tell me , He will pick me up at home and we go to eat I restaurant. After eating, He show me , one suitcase with alot of money 💰 euros, He said its 10 0000 euros, he will give me , he take one packet for 10 tablets for removing the pregnant. I was shock.He told me, I have to drink that medicine 💊 infront of his face because he want to make sure. I drink it. I told him , I would not take his money and I will not drink that medicine and I said to him direct , face to face,, This pregnant its in my body I will not remove it and I said drink your medicine yourself and I take my phone, I said I will call Policei. Because you want to kill me. with your medicine 💊, how iam go to trust you. He was shock and sweating for fearing. Said to me, Iam so sorry , sorry. later said to me, before I don't like a child call me , dad , dad. said to me . you are strong 💪 woman. Said to me he support to have one child with his first wife but he give Medicine 💊 and money and he remove it out. I was fear him, for that 3 day, idid not drink anything, he put me in the cup because I was be care full him not to put Medicine 💊. After he we went back to Germany. after nine months, I get a baby, and give name Joseph Oesterle. He was happy. He was caming two time to Namibia to visit me and his Son. On that time, he tell me, I want our Son to study in Europe it better than in Afrika, I said yes. In 2004 April, he came with his girlfriend , he came and we go make Visa for my Son. , I was arleady make him a passport. I just see the day , we finish, He was so happy, I think they have big plan but me, idont know. I just have a feeling. My Son was in the Kindergarten. He told me , he will pick up my Son and go with him to see animals to Zoo park. I said ,ok, I was think he will came back me to said bye to my Son, he just laying to me. Around 9 : 00 o'clock, I went to go back to do something there. When iam on the way to back at work , I just see two Police wear not uniform but normal clothes and said to me, You under rest, I shock, and said why and for what reason? They said to me , you go to discuss with our Command at police station. The put me between and both them the have guns 🔫. Everyone was look at me. The thinks maybe ido bad things. When we are in the police office, the Command was happy, said you catch her and ask my name and show me one letter, said to me one House in the city ,the criminals, the robbed, alot of money 💰 🤑, materials, example Computers, laptop, and more, said to me iam there one i send that letter, a fax . I tell him , idont know anything about that letter. He said he will put me in Prison if I can't talk the truth. The lock 🔐 in Jail,. I call my Sister to tell everything and what happen. She was so angry ,but she can't do nothing. In that jail there was alot of women's, who have different cases. During around 10:00;pm , two police came and put us in one big car for police 🚔, we was almost 25 womes only. I pray in my heart , God came and help me. The drive far away, to another city, name Kulyongava in Katutura location. The put us in one room was arlead 25 women's, together we are 50 Women's only. a Small room, with one toilet and a shower, no bed , no matrass only floors.In that jail, one lady, said to me ,put your bag ,your shoes under your head to became your pillow because here there is alot of thieves.The brings us tea and bread and jams. no good foods at all.Next day two police came and pick me , to question me, control my Phone messages, my email and bring home to search and read my note 📚, lucky they did find any proof. Next day 3, two police again call my name , said came with your belongings. Take me to one office , on the table is a Bible, the said I have to put my hands ✋️ I talk the truth, I'did not do it, I did it. They said you go home now.I was so happy

When I was in our classes, sometimes, Sarafina , just came and pick up my books, my pencil without no meaning. Some my colleague said to me , why your cousin she treat you like that. I said I don't know. On the weekend, she came to my Hostel again , to see , which things I have it. nice or new , she always want to know about everything about me. She came from rich family because her mother that time , she use to work in Oshakati Hospital, she was a Nurse. Her mum was having a nice house in the city in Oshakati. but I stay with my father , name is Fellemon Moongo , about my father was not poor because He was having alot of small shops , bottles store, Hotel. Problem, I don't have nice clothes, the shoes I use to with in school, is the shoes I have to go with to Church too. My father said to me Always, if you want to wear good , wait when you finish your school. That is the my father word Always to said to me, nothing more. In my teenager, I did not really grow up good , at home my Stepmother Filita Amutenya, was treat me badly, hate me , jealous, When I came home, my Stepmother, make me like I am slave , cooking , fetch water , cleaning the house and my siblings, they just sitting do nothing, sometimes I have my homework, I cannot do during days time, because Iam just bus for house working alone. When my father is there , she is litter ok. but when my father is not around. She make ne to work like Elephant, and I eat food without no meat , she came and all the meat in my food and she is insult me, did your mother buy you a meat, so you don't need to eating , said to me , Iam a good for nothing. All the work at home , I have to do it. She came and to look, how I do , and start to beat me. I use to be too thin like I have Anaemia sickness, because of eating unhealthy food. If eat nice only when Iam at school or when is weekend Saturday and Sunday because my father, he is around. During night I try to make my homework or to study my subjects, one night my Stepmother came in my room, pick up , the lamb of the light, than I can stay in the darkness, because she don't want me to study anything . In our house we use lamb than we put petrol oil , we don't have a realy Electricity. Sometimes, I want to talk to my father , what my Stepmother, she did to me , but no chance. If she like I want to talk to my father, she pretend to ignore my father to came near me. It was realy difficult, and I have no one on my side., no relative , no neighbours have to came in our house.I remember one day , my Stepmother send me to fetch water, but she was organise one man to pulling me in the water. Where I fetch water is one Hole long dump, if you enter you cannot came out with alive. Lucky, God always near me, before. I sleep, use to pray , and read my Bible day and night, when I see , I am alone, ib quite place. When I came to fetch water , new the dump water, there is a river , that person pulling me , he did not manage , than I just follow down in the river that quite not too long, he came again to put me through i can drink water . I just came out very quickly and I ran away.For that I was survival.When I came back home, My Stepmother was so angry, she was think , how a escape. The same day, I want to tell my father but no chance again, I just pray to my God to continue to save me in the hand of that Women. When I go back at school my cousin , she came always. My colleague said to me, no we have to report to the Principal, because what you cousin do to you its not good at all. I said yes, me and college we make a plan and we make appointment with Principal, to discuss, about me , How Sarafina , my cousin Humiliated me. The Principal give us the day and the time. When the day came, me and my college, we went to see the Principal. Principal told us to sit, and ask what is problem. I start to talk , than I just start to crying, luckily my colleague Ndapanda , she see everything, always she is to be there, when my cousin do all those things. She was my evidence. Our Principal was shock, what Sarafina , fo to me, and ask me , why she have to do that, she ask me and a mother of , she is a sister of Mother , all they born in one father , My mother what I hear , she is Veronika Shaende and his mother is Monika Shaende. Her mother is around but, since I born i did not see my mother or to meet her. After we finish to take our Principal call Sarafina to came the Principal office, immediately. When she came , and she see me , she was quite, and look at me. Principal start to ask her, if she know me, said yes. Principal, he contacted to ask her, Why you do such things To Selma. Tell us , what reason. She was be ashamed but did not talk too much and she start to crying. Our Principal said to her, said to Selma , sorry , and he give her waring , and thd Principal, write a letter ho to her mother to meet the Principal and the teachers too. very nic

In 1989 , When I pass my class 7 , I have to search my High School in the City . Quite litter far away from home. I find one a nice School name is Ipumbu Secondary school in the Oshakati region. But was only 25 kilometres from my home. I was so happy because I know Iam go to meet new people , friends, new teachers and all things is new. One day , on the weekend, Saturday my father told me , I have to go with you in one supermarket, to buy for you, new things , shoes , bags, books , pencil, Suitcase, blanket, clothes and all things I need in Hostel because the school has Hostel, divided by two groups, A= group is for the Boyes Hostel and B=Girl Hostel. The school has two Security man, every day guiding. Each one when you want to go out example from Monday to Friday is not allowed because that is time of classes, on the gate , the security people, the will not let you to go out. As long you have a permit to the teacher and to the Principal, the have to write a letter and to put stump and sign too and to write the reason , why you have to go out. But have to be a serious reason, example could be one of your parent sick or they are in Hospital. One condition, teachers they have to make sure its true, to call your parent and you have to give them a letter , your mum or father writing too. Saturday and Sunday every body is allowed to go out , shopping, or visit home or anything.But everyone's have to be there at 8 o'clock pm. In our Hostel, we are 24 girls, In the room have to be 4 people, each one you have own bed, and everything but Shower and Toilet have to share together. We don't do any cleaning, nothing, every day have people to came to clean our place. We do only to lay our bed and to organise our staff . Our School was very clean, beautiful and everything was new. I was so happy that time and because I was interested to study my subjects and to learn more . We are to start early morning around 4.30 to take shower , to wear uniform because in our School every body have to wear uniform , Girls, blou shirt and hem or t-shirt, and boys too, we use one colours only ,the whorle school. After we finish , everyone have to go to eat one Okatete porridge, meaning soft porridge , you can put milk if you like or you eat without milk everyday start from 6;00 and we have one hours for eating only. In our school we have one big Saar, Each one have to came there araund 7:00 first for prays, ours Principal have to pray or could be a teachers too. Students, they have to sing too. Our Principal start to talk main points, the things happen yesterday, warning ⚠️ or important things to tell everyone. Teachers they have a chance to said something too. At 8;00 am o'clock everyone have to go to his classes. Each hours we have subjects plan , and the teachers who have to teach us. From 11:00 am to 12:00 am we do pause, one hours. Than after pause go back to classes, in our classes we do many things , teach have to teachers us, give us homework, we have time to talk ourself too. our Hobby , and what you plan after you finish school , what you want to became, example to be a teacher, a doctor, a pastor, a lawyer, many things we have to discuss. I remember one day., one of my Cousin was jealous from me, She came with her colleagues, in pause to insult me. I use to be quite , idont talk too much and I was having only one colleague , who is quote like me. In our Hostel , some girls, they are too talk taka- tik alot. I remember one day, one lady, I think she was pregnant, some students gossip her alot. What the lady , she did , she was dring medicine to remove out the pregnant, but was arleady big , She kill the baby , put unter her bed hiding with many blanket. Only the women who cleaning see that smelling, and immediately go and tell our teacher. It was on Tuesday morning , we just see police came and with some Nursing lady. That time , we don't know what happen, Police took the baby body , and the take that lady to question her.... and bring to Hospital and after the put her in prison. She did not came bank anymore at school , It was realy a shock story in Hostel. Always we are always we eat lunch time at 13.00 pm , We have big place everyone have table to sit , could be sitting together 5 people or more 10 in groups . Some students , they are choosing who the have to eat together, example friends or colleagues. Our Teachers , office work , Principal and other works , they have own place to sit , quite place. One things I was not happy that time. My cousin name is Sarafina , she use to came to me , bullying , laugh at me with her colleagues, they talk about me . Because I was not having a mother ,I did not meet her. what I was hear, she left me in house me and 3 sister and she went to European, Sweden that my cousin , she know everything. I use to be quite, idont like fighting with my cousin. I t was not realy easy for me. One day , I was cry

In 1988 on 17 June , I remember that day, when I wake up early morning. I take my shower, take my books and to wear my school uniform. when I done, I just feel like some how , and in my legs is movings ,shock, I said what is this now. Than I pray before I go. It was early morning around 4 o'clock. I use to walk 🚶‍♀️only, no bus or car to pick me up. It so far away, my school, almost 35 kilometres away from my home. When I reach school, I was so tired. School close always around 1:30 o'clock. Sometimes, I go with colleagues at home but that day , I just take my book and I go , my friends said Selma, wait for us, I said no, than I go. When I close the main road, I stay away , I see one car name is Ford , came fast near me pump me , than I flown down in the ground, I see in my legs blood caming out, and i have a wound, my arms is painful and my books is gone . I was so lucky that days , one man was driving a small bus 🚌 see me , He ask me, my name, I tell him my name, he ask me , did you remember the car, or did you take the number. I said no, but I know the car, and was only two people on that car , one woman and the is the one who drive. The put me in the car and drive , litter bitter almost 10 minutes,. We see the same car , pack In one shop , that people they are drinking and talking. The man , said ,you make accident, to one woman, came and you have to bring to Hospital immediately. That was ,no no , no me. But the drive of the bus , said came outside, we have to see your car. lucky the car was blood , of me. He cannot said no more , because of his car have a proof arleady. The man write his number of car, name and tell that man, bring this Lady to Hospital just now and you have to report this case to Police. He agreed and take me to Hospital. The bring to Oshakati Hospital, and pay everything. I was having painful in my army and legs. The put me in one room, for that moment I can't walk properly, I cant move. , my. army is having heavy painful. I said , Oh , God why me, Help me, God. One day , my Doctor said to me, we need to operation you in your legs. I was afraid, but nothing I can do, I just said Yes. My father , he is to came and visit md and bring me , the things I need it. On the day , I went to operation, I was afraid , I pray 🙏 too muchI was lucky the operation went good . when I came out , I can't walk again, my legs more painful. The told me, I have to go to fitness, to train me to walk. In the week 3 time. I said ok. when I start my training was terrible painful. I did almost 2 months training and my legs start to move slowly by slowly than I start to walk little, little until I became better. In the will of God, I start to walk better but my legs it still on pain. I almost stay that Hospital for 6 months without no go home or to go school. I was meet some Nursing boy and girls who was having good hearts. The use to came to me ,talk to me ,help me with my homework. That time I was in class 6, standard 6 . After I came out In Hospital was in November middle, I go back to School and I have to write me last examinations. Because during when I was Hospital, I study day and night even I have painful. When I back to school, still i can't walk good, My father , he is one who bring always in the morning and came pick up too. But my father was having a wife, She was a jealous Woman , with bad characters. During December, I managed to write my exams and I finish it. In February all the results came , writing in newspaper, radio and TV news I was pass my all subjects. I was nomber 2 in our class. I was so happy and my father too. I get many gift from my Father and one of my Auntie too. But there was problem because my the wife of my father , She don't like me at all. She always want me to work in the house like a save in my father house. She like only his Children's but me ,no.She is use to be angry for me , because I was so intelligent than his children. I am always pass , sometimes iam nomber 2 or nomber 3 I. our class, that she was jealous for me. When my father give her money to buy clothes for us . About me , she take me to the Cheap shop and buy for me , simply clothes, no quality . Than next day , she take her Children's to expensive Shop , to buy good think to her Children's. I talk to my father about that ,but he did not change anything. My father ,at the beginning my he was like me very much. After, Idont know what happen or what my Stepmother did to my father to start to hate me. My father start to separate me to my siblings, like Iam not a member of the family. I use to be alone In my room , crying and read my Bible and pray always. I said myself God help me, I have no one on my side , but you God , you are my side.I remember very well , each month , the celebrate any one of my Siblings,who have Birthday, My Stepmother and my father buy alot food , gift to the one who have birthday. .