Dear 13 years old me~ I can see that you have been crying~ You are stronger than you think~ I can see that you are scared~ You are tougher than you think~ I can see that you are sad~ And that’s okey!~ You didn’t deserve this. ~ Dear me. ~ I’m sorry this happened to you ~Xoxo26 years old you

Santa is it possible to wish for love? ~ Alice have moved to a new city and started in a new job, everything is new. The house is still in boxes and she can’t find anything. Now she lives in a small house with a crappy old sofa, it’s so old that she doesn’t want her worst enemy to sleep on it. And that’s not all SHE’S DROWNING IN BOXES. Please Santa, can I at least wish for a sofa? Christmas has always been a stressful time, especially when you don’t know anyone else then the owner of the toy store, Karl is an old man with a big heart especially for Christmas! Alice has always loved Christmas a little bit more than anyone else. The snow, the lights, rapping presents, everything is so beautiful. But this year.. she’s alone. ~ How is Christmas going to be great alene? She can’t even have a Christmas tree or decorate the house. Her x husband has every Christmas decoration she owned or broke what he didn’t want. ~ Santa? Is it possible to wish for a Christmas miracle? Or just some love? And wish for someone to help with all this DAMN BOXES?!??

~ Every time he looks at me every cell in my body screams for his touch. I can’t stop it. ~ My heart is racing, I’m sure he can see it from outside of my body. His perfume is so dark and dominant, the suit looks perfect on the big body. Imagine the muscles underneath the white shirt. Imagine just ripping it off, I’m wondering, do he still have a 6 pack? Maybe 8 pack? He looks so good. And the lips OH MY GOSH!! THE LIPS and the face is so gorgeous, I get hungry for something crazy just looking at him. And right there he is standing in the elevator.. and in front of my desk.. in the office.. on the restaurant.. even at my mothers birthday in my own house he stood looking at me like he knows I want him. ~ HE IS EVERYWHERE. It feels like he wants me to lose control. Like he wants me to fall on my knees and beg him to take me home or fuck me right there in the room. I have to stop him, he needs to leave me alone. ~ Leo is just like him on the outside, even the crystal blue eyes. But they are different in so many ways. I have to protect Leo. And I have to protect myself. He needs to leave me alone before I lose control. Before he figures out everything. Leo is almost 5 years old and I will do anything I can to keep him apart from anything and anyone. I can’t take the fight against Adrian Black, one of the most powerful person in the country. I can’t stand the thought or feeling of losing Leo to him. and where the fu*k is his wife?! ~ LEAVE ME ALONE!! THE STORY IS NOT DONE.