Everyone claims that they want to know the real reason why I won’t talk; the real reason why I have given up on my dreams and my passions, and why I distanced myself from everyone. But trust me, you really don’t want the truth. Why you might ask… Because the truth is horrifying. The truth… wait wait wait, correction; my truth will strike you in your heart and leave you gasping for air. My truth is world changing. I should know, it changed my world, for the worse. My Name is Monica Delilah Rose Matthews, and I will be eighteen years old in three months. I always thought that my 18th birthday would be amazing and exciting, but none of my emotions could be labeled as excited, more like existential dread.