Do you really believe that a man of value is going to bypass a woman who has a bride price, skills, education, entitlement to ownership that cannot be overthrown for you if you don't have anything going for yourself? You think you're going to lay up and be cute to get a man of value? Cooking, sex, even respect, love, and kindness is not going to get a man of value. Since that's the whole indoctrination that everybody's being bogged down with. The deception that's airing on every station, website, app, and billboard concludes as you put too much effort into attaining something that's not serving you.

INCARCERATION was the driving force to my relationship with God. I was driven, passionate, and fearless when it came to accomplishing my goals. One thing that I was not is faithful. I had an absentee relationship with God. I heard of God. I acknowledged Christianity. I did not lead a Christian Life. My interpretation of what a Christian Life was is not the same definition I have of it today. I was baptized September 11th 2022. I thought a Christian lifestyle meant that you sin way less than other people. I thought how much you drank or used curse words in your lifetime predetermined what a real Christian looked like. I chose to mindlessly handle problems on my own. I chose to carry the burden of a sinner. I denied help from Christ. I went the first 29 years of my life feeling like I don't deserve Christ. If only I quit smoking cigarettes, quit using drugs and stop fornicating; I'd say this to myself when a person would inform me about the choice to live a Christian Life. I would just smile and say to myself, that sounds nice. I would think it would make me look like a better person to myself in Christ to live a Christian Life. I just didn't feel like doing it, for one. Secondly, I didn't feel disciplined enough. I didn't feel worthy of Christ out of fear of looking like a hypocrite to myself. I wasn't ready to change.