Does our loved ones' presence matter in our lives or when they are gone?We feel we didn't do enough, and wish for them to be back.“I will never fall for you” the words of my husband, 3 years of being married he still says that to me even on my sick bed.He is my nemesis, my nightmare yet I love him so much like the oxygen I breathe but then I just have 30 days to live.I want to spend it with my husband but he never saw the signs till it's too late now he can't live without me.I'm going to make sure I ruined his life for good, before I'm gone.