How do I live like this. Tears roll down my cheeks, he just use me. But I don’t deserve this. I can still feel pains from the what we had few hours ago. I continued crying silently not knowing what to do as thoughts run through my mind. I feel so cheap. But I thought this love was genuine my first time trying love and this a what I get? What’s next now I found out I was just a bet it’s already 6months since James and I have been in a relationship. I trusted him so much. Tears could not stop falling from my cheeks. I’m drowning in my thoughts, I can’t rewind the hands of time. How do I take responsibility for my stupidity. I did it for love I loved him those feelings I felt were real but all I can feel now ?. I don’t know this feeling. this feeling I can’t handle it. I felt his cold fingers on my cheeks wiping my tears off as it cut me off my thought bringing me back to reality. “Does it hurt that much? I’m sorry you know I love you.” I couldn’t move my gaze to him I blacked out but could still hear every word he said to me. His “I love you” no longer stared me up anymore all I could pray for was a broad day light so I could leave the site of this man.