I'm Arya, an optimistic fourteen year old hoping to grow, glow and art rich before the end of high school, but first let me tell you more about me. My mum is Tracy and my dad is Smith. I have two siblings which can be amazing and annoying at the same time, they're Mia and Ella. They are more like my best friends and we share everything, when I mean everything even our deepest secrets. Mia is seventeen and Ella is fifteen but sometimes they always want to show me who the real boss is bit whatever I still love them . I guess I'm forgetting something. Mia has a boyfriend and his name is Jack while Ellas' is Jason. As for me , my relationship is freaking complicated cause Bryans' my crush, Eric is a childhood friend that has been asking me out for the past two years although he's now a class older than me . He's in grade 12 and I'm in grade 11 , and Jake's is this boy Ive been playing games with. Mind you I'm a hard girl, I know, no judgement please I just love when I kind of have this superiority over a boy, like when he begs , sends sweet messages, and fools himself that he's mine. Every family has flaws and mine has it's own too. I wouldn't say it's manageable and it's hard to watch your parents fight at each little thing and that's the main reason my sisters are always with me and we confide in each other cause literally if we didn't who else would we confide in! We're best friends remember. My best part of the year is summer because that's where all the fun begins. My sisters and I make friendship bracelets every summer . We go to the beach, water parks, try both English and Korean restaurant, and why would I forget concerts. I love k-pop and k-dramas, let's say I like a little bit of BTS but I love blackpink the most. That's a secret only I and my sisters know and my favourite Nigerian musician is Rema. I'm saving up for one of his concerts someday but it feels like it's gonna take a decade. Mia and I have something in common including our best foods and desert. We both love Spaghetti and meatballs and for desert well always choose a lasagna over a cake Unlike Ella. Ella loves summer songs (the ones which gives you that summer vibes) and Hollywood action, like damn she's a girll . Her favourite food is nothing in particular but she would always choose a cake over a lasagna. As for drinks we all love Dr pepper. Well, this is the end of summer and the beginning of a new session. I don't know whether to be happy or not cause I'll no more be seeing Bryan, Jakes and Eric and that's because we're going to different schools. At first I didn't really like Eric but when I found out he was boarding I don't know I just miss him. I literally thought it was a friendly you know kind of missing but I think I like him like the not just a friend like. I like him but I'm, scared, he's a class's older, posts too much girls on his snap story and I'm a very jealous type. Who knows if he just wants to use me as his off boarding school girlfriend or something. I don't know if there's anywhere to get over someone. What if he no more likes me, what if he's tired of chasing me and now engulfed with any of his class girls or maybe I was a bet or something. I don't even know what to think maybe this is why my relationships with boys are sooo complicated but all this is really affecting means my studies. I'm saving up for University of Derby at England so I'm trying to make money and with the scholarship help or scholarships and grants, I'm sure of my studies at University of Derby and that's the main reason I need to focus on my studies but this really hard on me. School has been really stressful lately, having to deal with calculus, statistics, physics, geometry, chemistry and why would I forget biology. It's been weeks since the beginning of school and I've barely set my eyes on my sisters apart from the early morning and evening greetings during dinner. I really want to talk to them about this whole Eric stuff, I know they'll be surprised to find out I've fallen for Eric. Now it's more like the chased has finally become the chaser because I never liked Eric. I would always find something bad to say about him and I'm sure my sisters greatest surprise will be because of my nonchalant attitude to guys I really talk to online. I hate online love so what's all this, like why have I fallen for Eric and as it's stands now I've fallen soo bad that I even imagine us together. I don't even really know much about him anymore. I'm not really close to him again and that was since grade five so what the fuck is happening to me. I really need to tell my sisters. I don't even know how to start or how they'll react, but I'll just try this. I knocked on Ella's room door and she didn't answer but what I saw in the room really shocked me and the only thing I could hear my self saying was "Ella, how could you" I knew that what was coming was going to be a big drift between two sisters, I was so lost in thought I didn't